No "quote" today either. And for a reason.

Today is a sad day. A bad day. A lousy day. A dysphoric day. Or make it yesterday.

Nothing to do with chinese, though.

Some pple are just busy. Busy to the max, entertaining fictitious hunks which I'm doubtful of and multi-tasking other stuff...

Girls, go entertain your hunks.

Guys, go entertain your babes.

Gays, go to hell.
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Friends...

What are they for? My thinking of friends is practically the same as that of Squall Leonhart in Final Fantasy 8. And that's probably why I dun have much friends. I mean like, the only pple who can hurt you deeply are the ones whom you care about. Quote me if you like, becos this shows that you can only get hurt from your true friends. So the question is, why invest your feelings into friendships or relationships when you know you are gonna get hurt? I dun regret it though, that I have little friends, as it also means I dun get hurt so much. I dun mind having more friends too, and I think it's becos of this mindset that I get hurt from friendships so much. I dun think that particular person will see this, but I dun really care. Becos my surroundings have brought me up such that I am anti-social, dun-give-a-damn type and whatever not. It's hard to be my friend, but once the ball is rolling, everything is downhill. Becos during that time when you are trying to be my friend, I'm sub-consciously considering the magnitude of how hurt I will be and how happy I will be when I become a friend. Of course I will be hurt, but it's whether the happiness I gain will outweigh the hurt I get. But sometimes, just sometimes, I take a risk. And end up getting hurt. I have no idea why I do that, but maybe I'm just hoping for that special something to occur. I'm cold and aloof, and that's how I protect myself from potential pple who can hurt me. Sometimes I open up to certain pple, becos they have that special *something*, but when they hurt me, I'm at a loss of what to do.

Everybody is busy. But I'm not. There's not even time for friends. For me, if you treat me as a friend, that is. That's when the hurt bites into the skin. Dao. The perfect word. I used to think that I always dao pple, but that's no longer true, becos the tables have turned. When I dao pple, at least I'm still aware of what they are saying or doing. But those pple, they talk to me, but their minds are not with me. It's how they say the words, not what they say. It's just like talking to a guy watching tv. Busy, you say? Yeah, expected that. And of course, what's plural can also mean singular. =)

Definition of "attention": The application of the mind to any object of sense or thought.

Not that I crave attention, but a little attention wun hurt rite? That's when you invest your feelings into the friendship which may or may not turn into a relationship.

What are friends for? YOU wouldn't be able to answer that, I'm sure. Not that you will see this, but just think it through. Just think it through, you chyng.

Ciao for now.