But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in
How can I win?

Sigh... Mixed signals? I dunno... Am I being a nuisance? I dun wanna be the worm that always hang on to pple cos I dun have anybody to go with... I absolutely dun want that. I try not to hang around pple for fear of being a nuisance to them. But if I do, I also try not to disturb them and I just do my own thing.

It's ridiculous how many times I start the sentence with the word "I".

This is said in the movie "Princess Diaries", and I couldn't agree with the idea more. As in, I know pple who are always concerned with themselves... Those self-centred pple... "I'm -this this this-" and "I'm -that that that-" is all I ever hear from them... And when pple say something about someone else, that self-absorbed person will turn the conversation topic to him, and say "Me leh, me leh? Wad about me?"...

-rolls eyes-

Are they even aware of what they are doing? Does everything have to concern them? Do they know that they are not at the center of the universe?

Egoistical assholes... (sorry to the 2 pple whose names keep popping up in my mind as I type all this)

It's getting late... It's 12.35am now... Late by my standards... But nvm, I took a 3 hour nap just now and I'm still chatting now... =)

I was supposed to do chem tutorial... I already put a note on my hp to remind myself to do... And just as I was ready to do, I realised my chem 10 5-year series was still in the school locker (the ones for free outside the classrooms)... Wow... Haha... I guess I have my work cut out for me now... I have to do my Reaction Kinetics tutorial (to pass up) and Chemical Equilibria (to go through) in... how much time? Let's see... In NO time at all... Woot... Now I have to find some new way to distract the teacher so that she wouldn't realise I've got nothing... Lol...

Maybe this world is another planet's hell.
Aldous Huxley
Ah... Last night barely had sleep... I kept tossing and turning in bed... I went to sleep at 12am plus... Felt hungry, so got up to fill my stomach a little... then went back to sleep... That was around 1am... Tossed and turned in bed until like 3-4am? Sigh...

Now the popular thing in the MSN Messenger world is to use double entendres as nicks...

Definition of "double entendre": double meaning. (so simple! but yet sounds so chim... haha)

Example: Someone's nick is "Recently I've been, hopelessly reaching". So when one enquires about the nick, the person replies: Oh, it's just lyrics to a song... BUT, the truth is that the person really IS reaching for somebody... Get it? Haha...

Anyway, I was just thinking... Wad kind of person needs anger management? Is it the person who easily blows his top or the person who controls his anger until the one day he explodes and starts causing serious damage? Haha... Actually this is damn rip-off from the movie "Anger Management"... It's not that I wanna copy or wad, but I totally agree with the movie... Haha... This was wad the movie mentioned: There is a person at the cashier's screaming his head off for the cashier to hurry up... The cashier just keeps quiet and does his own thing... But one day, he may think that enough is enough and takes out his gun and start shooting pple...

Ok... very extreme... haha... but true to certain extent... This begs the question: Which one should be the one to go for anger management? I really dunno... So does this mean that everybody in the world should go for anger management? Pple who get mad easily would be the first ones to be targeted... Then it would be those who DUN get mad easily... cos it means they are suppressing their anger (thus having the potential to "takes out the gun and start shooting pple")... So...

Pple who get mad easily --> Go for anger management class.
Pple who DUN get mad easily --> Go for anger management class.

Haha... Provocative? Maybe... So sometimes I ask myself: Wad does it mean to be angry? Does 'angry' mean to show your frustration and start walloping pple up? Then wad about those who control their anger? Aren't they being angry also, just that they are not showing it?

Sometimes it's the little trivialities (like this) that begets the most contemplation... Haha... These kind of things are always in my mind... Just that it occurred to me when I was writing... Hopefully I can share more of this kind of thought-stimulating things with you... That's unless you dun find it boring la... I dunno... I guess some pple can find this kind of thing boring...

ANYWAY, it's time to sleep... Rmb the 1st paragraph? I hardly had sleep the night before... Ya still have to wake up a... Zzzzzzz

Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Hmm... Today is the start of my week in solitary... Haha... But I think it will be fine... At least I hope so... I will be slacking for today and tmr... while I have school on wed, thurs and fri... Friday is the worse (or the best?) ... I'll most probably come home very late... Hope there's someone to accompany me... Haha... Talking abt accompanying... How come I always kena played out? Hai... These few days also so sian... Go on the net, go online... then find that there's nothing to do... Then go to youtube to watch miscellaneous stuff... and... nothing... Haha... Ain't my life interesting... I want to spend more time outside but I always get the answer: "hur... how come you dun ask your other friends to go out with you?" Wah... Inadvertently kena rejected... But nonetheless still rejected... Sian... Or here's another answer: "ok, wad time?" But in the end, nothing happens... Lol... Zzzzz...

Damn... I can't distinguish between my thoughts and my dreams... I was sleeping just now and I presume I was thinking of something... But when I look back on it now, it felt like a dream... Like all that happened in my dream was like wad I was thinking... Maybe it's both... I dreamed my thoughts... haha... But it was such an ideal dream (or thought)... Haha... Let's hope my dream comes true... It really isn't that impossible... Haha... But come to think of it... It's quite unlikely also la... Seeing how things go, I can anticipate that it will not happen in reality... Very possible, but very improbable also... Haha... I hope this can be understood... There's a distinct difference between the 2...

Anyhow, someone told me that I'm a MCP [Male Chauvinist Pig]... Am I really one? I hardly think so lor... I dun think I'm superior to women... In fact I dun think I'm superior to anybody at all... I was quite shocked when I heard that... In wad way am I a MCP? Or is it that MCPs dun know that they are one? I was hoping I am a SNAG [Sensitive New Age Guy]... Keyword here is sensitive...

Definition of "sensitive" (in this context): having acute mental or emotional sensibility; aware of and responsive to the feelings of others.

Am I not that? Am I not aware and responsive to the feelings of others? I'm sure I pay close attention to make sure I dun hurt the other party... Or am I just imagining it? Ahh well... Let's hope that the person who said I can take things in my stride is right...

It's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Haha... The previous post was 31 January... Oops... Had quite a lot of stuff going on... Stuff like the vsco concert and the chinese new year concert... So far these 2 has progressed fairly well... The vsco concert was quite ok... Haha... Screwed up some parts... Oh well, wad to do... Had so little time to practise...

Anyway the cny concert was more... memorable? Haha... The bloody classical acoustic guitar suddenly no sound... pekcek ah... It all went like this: Before the performance, I went to do sound check... There was sound at that time... But just when my performance started, like become very unstable... Sometimes have sound sometimes no sound... Then when there was sound, we started the song... And just when I played, suddenly no sound... Wah... Then had to adjust the cable on the floor while playing at the same time... Haha... Lucky managed to have sound before my solo part... Whew! Anyway that was the performance for the j2s... which went quite horribly... Haha... My friends told me that some pple shouted my name when I was adjusting the cable before we started the song... Haha... But I didn't hear... most probably cos I was stressing over the bloody cable... or it could be something wrong with the guitar... Sigh... Anyway after that had to rush to play for the guitar ensemble...

The guitar ensemble performance also a bit like crap... The helpers put the chairs wrongly or something... To cut the long story short, it resulted in me having no stand (equals to no scores) and no footstool... Wah... Then have to fake play the guitar... Lol... Cos I dunno wad to play since I dun have scores... This performance was for the j1s... and I was like, shit man... so malu... Oh ya, forgot to say... During that performance, not only didn't I have stand and footstool, the bloody microphone (or condenser if you want to be more specific) was pointing straight into my guitar... Wth...

Anyway, the 2nd time was much better... The classical acoustic guitar was working very nicely... WHEW!! Wah... I was like damn scared... When I plugged it in and played a string, I was damn scared got no sound... And true enough, it didn't have sound... But then I turned up the volume and... voila! Got sound!! Woo! Anyway when the performance started, the j1s started cheering! Woo hoo! Haha... I noticed that when they heard the first few seconds of the song, they all looked up... Haha... I guess the start of the song really stood out... Haha... They when the singing started, the j1s also cheered... Haha... When during my solo, I was sure some of them cheered also... Haha... Unless I was imagining it... Waa... I was really happy with this performance... Everything was working and sounded damn nice...

The 2nd guitar ensemble performance was also better... At least I had my scores and my footstool... Haha... and also I didn't screw up that much for the second performance...

And I can't believe she didn't see me... let's just hope she was faking...