Hmm... It's quite funny how I haven't updated this in 11 months... Haha... (ok, maybe not very funny also...) I think you can just ignore the previous post for now... Anyway you can bet a lot has happened during this 11 months... But I'd just thought to write a little something to, you know, help me get over this new period of low in my life...

Months just remind me of how long more to my ORD...

Whenever I hear or read the name of a month (January, February, etc...), I immediately think of how long to my ORD... Seriously, it's damn long later... For now, it's hanging at 1 year 2 months... My god... And worst of all, I'm in camp so far away from my home, it's not 8-5, my superiors (especially my CSM) are alpha male chauvinist pigs with no outside life and are absolutely one of the worst, if not the worst, superiors I've ever met in NS and I still have to train and do PT even though I'm not combat-fit... And the "best" thing is? I've only just started!! Man, this 1 year 2 months is gonna be looooong...

I have a lot on my mind... Particularly like wad my CSM had done that pissed me off... (and i've only been there for 1 month so far!) But I figure it's not very wise to tell it all on the internet where even HE can read about it... For now, the latest thing he did which irked me was telling me I can't go for my physiotherapy... Cos we would be too busy and I can't afford to book out every fortnight... Seriously?! Yet you still want me to participate in all the PT and training which I'm not needed to do in the first place becos I'm not combat-fit?!! Wad a lousy organisation this is... Not helped by one of the lousiest superior... Originally I was thinking of undergoing surgery to fix everything up once and for all so that it wun be a problem in the future, but judging from the previous reply, I think the answer would be a flat "Cannot" cos I'll be on long term medical leave, like for a month or 2... Should I really let an organisation like this determine my long-term health? Seriously, I'd like to put my foot down and say "No, you bloody fool!" but I'm quite afraid of the consequences and I'd never get out of camp if I'd said those last 3 words... So wad now? I guess I'll just have to wait and see... And ask my doctor... I really want surgery to fix everything (at least almost) and of course I also want to make use of the free medical treatment at government hospitals ^^

Oh well, we shall see wad happens in the near future...

Ciao.