Rey de la percusión

Don't Give Up

2009-02-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

Don't Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must; but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don't give up, though the pace seems slow;
You might succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit;
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit

new time

2008-12-05T20:49:00.003+08:00

Hmm... It's quite funny how I haven't updated this in 11 months... Haha... (ok, maybe not very funny also...) I think you can just ignore the previous post for now... Anyway you can bet a lot has happened during this 11 months... But I'd just thought to write a little something to, you know, help me get over this new period of low in my life...

Months just remind me of how long more to my ORD...

Whenever I hear or read the name of a month (January, February, etc...), I immediately think of how long to my ORD... Seriously, it's damn long later... For now, it's hanging at 1 year 2 months... My god... And worst of all, I'm in camp so far away from my home, it's not 8-5, my superiors (especially my CSM) are alpha male chauvinist pigs with no outside life and are absolutely one of the worst, if not the worst, superiors I've ever met in NS and I still have to train and do PT even though I'm not combat-fit... And the "best" thing is? I've only just started!! Man, this 1 year 2 months is gonna be looooong...

I have a lot on my mind... Particularly like wad my CSM had done that pissed me off... (and i've only been there for 1 month so far!) But I figure it's not very wise to tell it all on the internet where even HE can read about it... For now, the latest thing he did which irked me was telling me I can't go for my physiotherapy... Cos we would be too busy and I can't afford to book out every fortnight... Seriously?! Yet you still want me to participate in all the PT and training which I'm not needed to do in the first place becos I'm not combat-fit?!! Wad a lousy organisation this is... Not helped by one of the lousiest superior... Originally I was thinking of undergoing surgery to fix everything up once and for all so that it wun be a problem in the future, but judging from the previous reply, I think the answer would be a flat "Cannot" cos I'll be on long term medical leave, like for a month or 2... Should I really let an organisation like this determine my long-term health? Seriously, I'd like to put my foot down and say "No, you bloody fool!" but I'm quite afraid of the consequences and I'd never get out of camp if I'd said those last 3 words... So wad now? I guess I'll just have to wait and see... And ask my doctor... I really want surgery to fix everything (at least almost) and of course I also want to make use of the free medical treatment at government hospitals ^^

Oh well, we shall see wad happens in the near future...

Ciao.

downhill...

2007-10-12T00:33:00.000+08:00

Shoot for the moon; even if you miss, you might still hit the stars
Woo... Haha... Finally a post after 4 months... Haha... Just to update from the last post, I did like shit for the Block Test 2... Got something like DUDE... And got 35 ranking points... out of 80... Anyhow, my mother told me to work harder and buck up and wadever not... And today, I got back my report card and I got 1 A, 3 B's and a D for the prelims... 70 ranking points... out of 80!! Woo hoo... I was damn happy about my results... And when I told my mother, she told me to buck up. -rolls eyes-

Anyway I'm thinking now that the peak is over (that was the peak), everything will start going downhill... Hai... Actually I can anticipate that my studies will dip... But hopefully the A's will be easier than the prelims, so with both dipping, my grades can remain the same! Haha... I really happy with this set of results... It's the first time I got so high... I hope I can be in contention for the "Best Improvement Award" or something... Haha... Doubled my ranking points... Haha oh well... I think this happiness may be short-lived...

Anyway just saw my enlistment date... 11 April... So late... Start late also means end late... Hmm... Good thing is that can slack more lor... Haha... and play soccer...

Oh well... I probably wun be posting any time in the near future cos of A's and NS... And also playing and slacking in between those 2...

So... See you...

If you had x-ray vision...

2007-06-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

If you had x-ray vision, and you can see through anything, wouldn't you see through everything and actually see nothing?

Sigh... The end of the holidays is coming and the Block Tests are starting... I'm so not prepared for them... My first paper is on Tuesday which means I have 2 more days... Whoa crazy, man... And I haven't started on some subjects... Ok, actually not some... I only started on physics... And I'm not even doing the TYS and stuff... I'm just reading through the lecture notes, memorizing the definitions... So totally gonna die... My first papers are chem and physics, and I haven't even STARTED on chem... Hoo, boy... Let's hope I can still do well... For chem at least... Sigh... Is it even possible to do well without studying? Siao ah..... And still have math.... Math math math math math math math.... This one confirm sure die... Vectors is still alien to me along with other topics... Chem... Hmm... Ionic Equilibria (although very simple to everyone else) is totally a dead-end for me... I'm just hoping that I can answer the other chem topics questions correctly... And get an A... Woo! Isn't that the dream...

Hai.... Oh well... I'm just very sian... Dun wanna study at all... Which is why I'm writing this in the first place... To waste time so that I dun have to study... Ah damn.... I already knew that for the 'A' levels, I wouldn't be working as hard as I did for 'O' levels... Not that I worked exceptionally hard for the O's... I think my feelings now are the same as in Sec 4 before the exams... Haha... I think it should be written here before, in 2005... Where I was saying it is the start of my downfall... Haha...

Oh well, back to physics...

Btw, I was just thinking... Imagine you are on top of a train moving at the speed of sound and you transmit a sound (let's say a beep) every second in the opposite direction of the train (backwards). Let's say there's a man on the tracks behind the train receiving the beeps. Wad will be the rate of beeps he receives? Put it another way: Will he still hear the beeps 1 second away from each other?

I'm thinking it should be MORE than 1 second apart... As in, the beeps are heard more than 1 second away from each other... Here's why (i think): The speed of sound is constant, 330 m/s (not impt here actually) However, the distance between the sound transmittor and the sound receiver increases every second (becos the train is moving away from the receiver) Hence

Haha, I spotted something wrong with my supposed answer... But the truth is, I dunno... Haha... And another thing: Wad if this time, the sound is not in the opposite direction of the train? Let's say the person transmit a sound forwards, with the receiver standing again on the tracks, but in front and at a distance away from the oncoming train (quite suicidal, dun you think?).

Hmm... I think I will follow up on this in later posts... Haha... Dunno when that will be... But I must get back to my physics now...

damn late sia

2007-06-13T18:50:00.001+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

Wow... Haha... In the last post I mentioned "1 month 1 post... Not bad..." Haha... Looks like I missed the May post... Anyway... Can't be helped... Was quite busy during May... Especially the last week of May... Had the street soccer competition organised by some class and I was leaving for Spain on the night of the last day of school... Haha... Anyway, let's talk about the street soccer comp... =)

There were only 16 teams altogether... So we were divided into 4 groups of 4 teams... Anyway, our group had 2 J1 teams and another J2 team... Our 1st match was against the pai kia team... Haha, that's how I remember them... I saw the pai kia before in school long before the competition... and his pants were like, wad the hell... I would think if he wore his pants at his waist (or hips, like any other normal person), his school pants would be more of a three-quarter pants... Man... I bet when he pees, he doesn't even have to unzip his pants, just pull out his underwear... Lol... Anyway that was our first match... We scored first through Steiner, so it was 1-0 to us... Then they scored twice to make it 2-1... And that was the half-time score I think... We were losing to J1 pai kias!! Omg! They were like damn rough and damn attitude... But I think they were rough becos we started it... Haha... Anyway, 1 of the guys zam my face at a freekick... Haha... Then kena scolded by the teacher/referee... "Have I blown my whistle for you to start the freekick? You dun start until I blow my whistle!! And did I say it was direct freekick?" Haha... Aiya wadever la... Lucky I bought and wore my spectacle hooks... If not my glasses would start imitating Superman and fly around (and more than 1 count, too!) Anyway, we managed to equalise, again through Steiner... So it was 2-2... And guess wad? You zam my face, I score the winner... HAHAHA... It was quite an easy goal... just a tap-in with my left foot... And so we won our first match 3-2... Yippee...

Our 2nd match was against the team called "Luke's Team"... Lol... Haha... Luke is just the captain for that team... But wadever ok? His team was our biggest rival in our group... The only other J2 team besides us in our group... Anyway, we started out like shit... Haha... By half-time, we were losing 3-0... Tsk tsk... they even managed to score by shooting against the wall and into the goal... Not that our goalkeeper was that great... But come to think of it, for that to happen, the goalie's reflexes couldn't be that fast... And if I remembered correctly, the ball went into his near post... which means that his positioning was like shit also... Haha... Sorry for the criticism, if the goalie ever sees this... but hopefully not... Anyway all's well that ends well... Well, quite well... Anyway, after half-time, Steiner scored 2 goals (again) to make it 3-2... Could a comeback be possible? Wooh... The tension~... Haha... Anyway, guess wad? I managed to score the equalizing goal... Woo hoo! It was a damn nice goal, man... Haha... I was taking the ball out of my own half... And I was waiting for the ball to cross the half-way line so that I can shoot... When the ball touched the half-way line, I started to swing my leg back... Which means that the ball was in the opponent's half when I shot... And so I shot to the far post and scored! Yeah~... Wad's more, their goalie was damn good, and I managed to score past him from such a distance... Haha... Anyway the match ended like that... From us 3-0 down at half-time to 3-3 at full-time... Sounds familiar? Think Istanbul, man... Haha... And I heard someone shout "Eh... Penalty leh!" Haha... Anyway, moving on... We thrashed the oppenent 7-0 (i think...) in our next match... But I didn't score any goal for that match... Haha... Didn't have to anyway... Haha...

On to the knock-out stage... Our first match against some j2 team... His catholic high friends call him "lao3 liu2"... I also dunno why... dun need to know also... He was the pro-est player in their team... Anyway we thrashed their team 5-0 without Steiner (heh heh) with me contributing 1 goal... Haha... Again scored from a distance... I was on the left side of the court... I was taking the ball out of my half and as soon as I had the chance, I shot, with my left foot... It went into the far post and the goalie didn't even move... Haha! Not bad... For someone defending... Makes me wonder why I was defender and not attacker in the first place... Hmm... Oh well... Doesn't matter... Anyway we were on to the semi-finals... Where we had to face the S11 team, arguably the strongest team in the whole comp (not counting us... heh heh) It was damn irritating cos we were supposed to meet them in the FINAL (both of our teams even agreed to meet in the finals) , not the semis... And it was originally planned out like that, until the organisers decided to change the system... And hence we had to play the S11 team in the semis... Haiz... We lost to them 4-2... And I think I should take some responsibility for that... Tsk tsk... I still remember their last goal, the guy was free like anything... And I was supposed to cover that area... But I went up to support the tussle for the ball near the centre of the court... Sigh... And also, for the previous matches, I managed to saved my team by scoring the winning goal and equalizer... But this time, I couldn't do it... Hai... Just when they needed me, I couldn't do it... Anyway, they won the whole competition by beating the other finalist (J1) 9-1... Like wad the hell... Our semis were the 2 strongest teams and the other semis were 2 J1 (somewad noob) teams... HAI... Oh well... I managed to score 3 goals in 5 games... as a defender... Funny thing was 2 of them were with my left foot and the other my right... Haha... Can't wait to play street soccer again...

everyday

2007-04-22T16:48:00.000+08:00

Everyday I fight
Everyday I struggle
Everyday I face my toughest opponent
Me.
Hmm... 1 month 1 post... Not bad... Haha... Anyway, saw this advertisement on the way to SCH for the guitar ensemble syf... Unfortunately I forgot who was the one who said this... but it's certainly not by me... I think it's some ceo guy or something like that...

Anyway the Guitar Ensemble SYF was a bloody disappointment... In fact, it was downright pathetic... And the worst thing was that I couldn't do much about it... Everybody else was in their own world...

The good thing was that the next day was Sports Day... And my class people asked me to run for the Inter CG Relay 10x200m... Of course I agreed! I wouldn't have joined if they didn't ask me... I was never the one who'd stand up and say "Hey, man. Put my name in there." But anyway, that Sports Day was like the happiest day of my entire school career!! YEAHH!! Haha... Let me just recall and write down wad happened, so that I wun ever forget it... Haha...

Heats
We were in Heat 5, and there was only 1 other j2 class. Haha... The rest were j1 classes... Surprisingly enough, the other j2 class was like 1 of the last to finish... Haha... But NOT surprisingly, we came in 1st!! Haha... Sad to say, our class girls were quite slow... When the baton reached our first guy, Yuda, we were like in 5th position (out of 8) I think... Then our comeback began... Yuda became 4th position... Passed to our next runner, Ziyi... Overtook some pple (I'm guessing 2 pple?) But I remember that when I received the baton, the guy in 1st position was like 40m in front of me, and I was in 2nd... And I managed to overtake him!! Woohoo!! Haha... His curve was kinda slow, and I could feel the gap between us closing quite quickly... But at the straight part he went faster I think... I saw that the gap was closing at a slower rate... But nonetheless, the gap was closing! Haha... I managed to pass him just before passing the baton to our 4th guy runner, Steiner...!! Once I passed the baton, I knew that we would be first... Haha... No normal person can overtake Steiner once he starts sprinting... Haha... I dun even have to mention our last runner, Reng Fu... And we finished 1st by like 70m? Haha... Anyway, we had the 4th best timing and we were in the Grand 'A' Finals... Yippee!

Grand 'A' Finals
During the time between the 2 races, I was trying damn hard to get rid of the tightness in my quadriceps... Haha... Anyway, the finals was not bad... Unfortunately we didn't get first... We got third... But I'm still very proud of it!! Haha... Anyway the first part was quite sad... Haha... We were last at some point... For the girls, that is... When Yuda received the baton, I think we were 7th (again out of 8)... And I think our first 2 guy runners overtook 1 person each... Haha... When I received the baton, I was 5th position with the 4th position guy like 20m in front of me? Then I started running... I overtook him on the outside quite easily... YEAH MAN!!! Haha... I was chasing the guy in 3rd position... And I managed to pass him just before I passed the baton to Steiner... WOO HOO!! Haha... Unfortunately the 2nd and 1st position guys were too far away for him to catch... And so we maintained our 3rd position until the end... Bronze... But still elated with it! Haha...

I'm just very happy that I managed to overtake pple (and not they overtake me) and that I helped the class to our 3rd position... =D Haha...

And I'm not even going to mention how I dropped the entire bench reagents on the floor in March... Haha...

pain...?

2007-03-20T19:19:00.000+08:00

Pain is inevitable, misery is optional.
I find this particular quote very meaningful... Haha... Wad more can I say? Haha... Actually this quote reminds me of how intricate the English language can be... Haha... Truth be told, there's not much difference between "pain" and "misery"... Both pretty much means suffering... But in this instance, they are 2 distinctly opposite sides, where 1 is necessary and the other is by choice. But if you think about it, isn't everything by choice?

Anyway, the other day when I was getting a new handphone, there was an elderly woman queuing up at the handphone shop... And I think for quite long, too... cos I was waiting for my uncle for like 1-2 hours... and who never showed up... Anyhow, the woman was queuing up the whole time... And suddenly, while I was at the counter paying up for the handphone, she started screaming while walking away from the shop... I dun really know wad happened (maybe she wanted to get something but got rejected... can't really think of any possible scenarios...) And she was screaming about waiting for 2 hours for nothing... a waste of her time... and hope that the shop closes... Haha... Then as she went on the escalator down, she continued screaming and shouting... I could even hear her 1 level below... Haha... And she would occasionally shout out loud... Like just, "AHHHHHH!!!" Haha... Now, do you think she needs anger management therapy? And before you answer that question, you should really read the February 21 2007 post if you haven't done so... Haha... Like I said in a previous post, stuff I say seldom get obsolete... But more importantly, stuff I talk about always seem to occur soon after I talk about it... Like in this case, after I ponder about the basis of anger management therapy, an incident like this comes up... But it should be a coicidence, right? Haha...

Anyway, I also wanted to talk about how I took like 1 hour plus to travel from sch to Tampines to get the free m1 simcard that came with the handphone... But I forgot to bring my IC which was needed to claim it... So I pretty much wasted 1 hour plus of my time... Haha... Anyway that's pretty much the summarised version... Just wanna say that I went there the next day on my way to drum class... I spent like 35 minutes (thank goodness there was little traffic!) to go to Tampines from my house... And it took like 1 hour 20 minutes to get from Tampines to PS... Wow... Now isn't that fun?

Well, the good news is that she didn't say no... But the bad news is that she didn't say yes either... Hmm... Sometimes that kind of answer is not a good thing... Like how "yes" means yes, "no" means a straight and direct no, while "i dunno" means a polite and indirect no... Oh well... Wad's there to say?

Ever so willing to forget all about it...

potential relationships can ruin friendships

2007-03-14T12:59:00.000+08:00

I know we are friends, but sometimes it feels like something more... Can you give me a sign of how you feel?
Hmm... You know, I swear (ok not a very good word... but i dunno how to rephrase it...) that I wake up every morning (or afternoon) with a blank slate... It's like every time I wake up, I can't quite remember wad happen the previous day, or the day before that... Every time I wake up, it somewad feels like a new life... like it's the beginning of my life... Haha... Like a beginning of a new day... Haha... A brand new day is in the waiting every time I wake up... So you can say I live my life day by day... Haha... I dun think I know wad that means also... Like wad Sim Wong Hoo said before: We are a brand new person every 1 year and 8 days (it's under the September 26 2005 post... haha... stuff i say seldom get obsolete...) I think for me, I'm a brand new person every day... Haha... So I can forget the sad past and just look forward to the good things in life and be happy everyday! Haha...

Anyway block tests are coming... And I seriously dun feel like studying... I also dun think I will... for the time being, that is... Life is pretty bleak at the moment... and it's quite sian, too... There wun any so-called holidays anymore... Even this March holidays is not meant to be a holiday... It's meant to be a study period for the upcoming block tests... And during the June holidays, it will be a study period for the Mid-Year papers... September holidays will be for Prelims... or something like that... All in all, there wun be any holidays for us J2s for this whole year...

Life is full of awkward silences.

-awkward silence-

is the building moving?

2007-03-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

My headache must be getting worse... Feeling giddy already...
Haha... Actually got quite a lot of stuff to say... but then no mood already... Wanted to talk about the tremor felt in SAJC... And also at my grandpa's cremation, the director of All Saints Home (where my grandpa was staying before he passed away) was also from SAJC... And because I was wearing my uniform, I stood out from the rest... Hai... Then all the pple there were Christians... And previously the pastor asked me whether I go to church... And when I said no, he replied that I'd better start going... Sian... Anyway this time he just asked whether I go for the chapel... And I of course I said yes... Haha... And he seemed real happy about it... Oh well, wadever makes you happy... Haha... It doesn't matter wad we believe in or wad we put our faith in, as long as we are happy with our lives... And of course we dun harm other pple...

[Ok, the mood is back... And unfortunately, this is going to be a long post.]

Anyway just came across this ~~fact~~, that the Bible implies that God created Man (along with the universe and wadever not) about 6000 years ago... I think this is from the Times magazine... Does this imply that Christians (and I think the Muslims, too, since the Old Testament in the Bible is similar to the Qur'an... I may be wrong, however...) dun believe in dinosaurs? And they dun believe that the universe was created billions of years ago? Well, I asked my Christian friend about this... Haha... And he said he's gonna ask his pastor... So I'll be waiting for his answer... Haha...

So while the answer is in the waiting (when i get the answer, i'll be sure to post it up! haha...), let's ponder: Wad might the answer be?

"Of course dinosaurs exist!"
But doesn't this mean that you are going against the word of the Bible? So does it mean you are saying the Bible is telling lies? Whoa... I can hear cries of blasphemy and heresy in the background...

"Nah, dinosaurs are rubbish. The Bible is sacred and it tells only of the truth."
Well, there wun be any blasphemy or heresy here, then... That's good, from a religious point of view... But but but but but, isn't there irrefutable evidence that dinosaurs truly existed? Then where else did all the fossils come from? Moreover, scientists are able to use carbon dating to determine the age of carbonaceous materials, such as wood, bones and ancient artifacts .etc, up to about 60,000 years [source: www.wikipedia.org]. If you wanna go one better, there's still uranium-uranium dating, which can date samples (sediments from either a marine or a playa lake environment) to about 1.2 million years ago! [source: www.britannica.com] Since both of which have uncovered samples of such age, how can the Earth possible be 6000 years old?

Before you are convinced by an almost one-sided argument, you should take one step back and look at the whole picture... My purpose is not to convince anyone to believe anything... I dun like to do that; I feel that everybody should believe in wadever they want to, as long as it makes them happy (which totally goes against the idea of evangelists, but that's another story)... I'd just like pple to see both sides of something, then make a stand... and not be a blind adherent and do something blindly just becos others tell you to do so...

General idea: If you wanna do something, make sure you know wad you are doing.

Anyway, the question "Do you believe in dinosaurs?" to a Christian (or Muslim?) is truly a tricky one. The answer "yes" would result in blasphemy, while the answer "no" cannot be given due to the overwhelming evidence of samples more than 6000 years old. Thus, the key to answering this question is to go back to the source.

And question the assumption.

The politically correct answer: "The Bible does not imply that Earth was created 6000 years ago. There is no explicit verse that says the Earth is 6000 years old. And thus, yes, I believe in dinosaurs and that the universe was created billions of years ago."

Smart, right? I can anticipate that this would be the answer I would be getting...

pon sch?

2007-03-05T20:32:00.000+08:00

If you want, you can whole day dun come sch also...
Haha... That was wad my teacher said... Cos I told her I had to leave school early to attend the cremation of my late grandpa... He died on Friday night... My respects to you, ah gong...

Anyway, I just told her I have to leave early and I wanted the green slip thingy... But she said I didn't need it, becos after 12.45pm I can leave already... Then she added that I can "whole day dun come school also"... Haha! But if I could, I would... [This is me we are talking about! I think I have the reputation of ponning sch already... That time I came to school and my friends said to me, "Ei? How come today didn't pon sch? The lessons today like so useless... I thought you will pon..." And that's more than 1 person! Haha... But the truth was that I came to school for something else... which I have already forgotten... Haha...] Anyway, I'm taking my geog essay test thingy tmr... THAT'S WHY I cannot pon... And also got important classes la... Not as if my grades very good... Dun go sch also still can get good results...

Anyway today have to chiong gp essay... Hai... I damn tired la... Really dun feel like doing... Somemore I having runny nose now... Sian ah... Wanna sleep early also cannot...

Kena stunned sia! She suddenly so nice to me... Awww...... =)

man who sold the world

2007-03-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

You're face to face, with the man who sold the world
Ok... Today was quite crappy... Had 2 SPAs... and also received the Chinese 'A' Level results... Sigh... Shall make this short...

The 2 SPAs were ok I guess... It was chem first... I forgot wad a certain apparatus was called... and until now I still dunno... Haha... Guess it's a few marks gone already... And I had to fill up the burette like so many extra times cos the thing was screwed up... Anyway after that was physics... Quite ok also... Didn't even do the experiment... Haha... Also dun really need... Just needed to plot graph and write the errors... And I forgot some stuff! Haha... Sorry, I'm not good at memorising stuff... Anyway dun care la... I'm just happy it's over... Then came the 'a' level chinese results... They said the sch average was D... I knew I most probably will be screwed already... And guess wad? I got E... Bloody hell... The letter looks so awful... I was hoping maybe I get a D or if lucky a C... But then give me this kind of lousy E... Walao... Sian ah!! Kaoz...

Anyway she looked quite good with her new uniform on... Haha... It was only until now that I got this close (if only it was figuratively) to her... Haha... I really liked how we both were wearing the same uniform in a place outside of sch. =)

how can i win?

2007-02-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in
How can I win?

Sigh... Mixed signals? I dunno... Am I being a nuisance? I dun wanna be the worm that always hang on to pple cos I dun have anybody to go with... I absolutely dun want that. I try not to hang around pple for fear of being a nuisance to them. But if I do, I also try not to disturb them and I just do my own thing.

It's ridiculous how many times I start the sentence with the word "I".

This is said in the movie "Princess Diaries", and I couldn't agree with the idea more. As in, I know pple who are always concerned with themselves... Those self-centred pple... "I'm -this this this-" and "I'm -that that that-" is all I ever hear from them... And when pple say something about someone else, that self-absorbed person will turn the conversation topic to him, and say "Me leh, me leh? Wad about me?"...

-rolls eyes-

Are they even aware of what they are doing? Does everything have to concern them? Do they know that they are not at the center of the universe?

Egoistical assholes... (sorry to the 2 pple whose names keep popping up in my mind as I type all this)

It's getting late... It's 12.35am now... Late by my standards... But nvm, I took a 3 hour nap just now and I'm still chatting now... =)

I was supposed to do chem tutorial... I already put a note on my hp to remind myself to do... And just as I was ready to do, I realised my chem 10 5-year series was still in the school locker (the ones for free outside the classrooms)... Wow... Haha... I guess I have my work cut out for me now... I have to do my Reaction Kinetics tutorial (to pass up) and Chemical Equilibria (to go through) in... how much time? Let's see... In NO time at all... Woot... Now I have to find some new way to distract the teacher so that she wouldn't realise I've got nothing... Lol...

this world?

2007-02-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

Maybe this world is another planet's hell.
Aldous Huxley
Ah... Last night barely had sleep... I kept tossing and turning in bed... I went to sleep at 12am plus... Felt hungry, so got up to fill my stomach a little... then went back to sleep... That was around 1am... Tossed and turned in bed until like 3-4am? Sigh...

Now the popular thing in the MSN Messenger world is to use double entendres as nicks...

Definition of "double entendre": double meaning. (so simple! but yet sounds so chim... haha)

Example: Someone's nick is "Recently I've been, hopelessly reaching". So when one enquires about the nick, the person replies: Oh, it's just lyrics to a song... BUT, the truth is that the person really IS reaching for somebody... Get it? Haha...

Anyway, I was just thinking... Wad kind of person needs anger management? Is it the person who easily blows his top or the person who controls his anger until the one day he explodes and starts causing serious damage? Haha... Actually this is damn rip-off from the movie "Anger Management"... It's not that I wanna copy or wad, but I totally agree with the movie... Haha... This was wad the movie mentioned: There is a person at the cashier's screaming his head off for the cashier to hurry up... The cashier just keeps quiet and does his own thing... But one day, he may think that enough is enough and takes out his gun and start shooting pple...

Ok... very extreme... haha... but true to certain extent... This begs the question: Which one should be the one to go for anger management? I really dunno... So does this mean that everybody in the world should go for anger management? Pple who get mad easily would be the first ones to be targeted... Then it would be those who DUN get mad easily... cos it means they are suppressing their anger (thus having the potential to "takes out the gun and start shooting pple")... So...

Pple who get mad easily --> Go for anger management class.
Pple who DUN get mad easily --> Go for anger management class.

Haha... Provocative? Maybe... So sometimes I ask myself: Wad does it mean to be angry? Does 'angry' mean to show your frustration and start walloping pple up? Then wad about those who control their anger? Aren't they being angry also, just that they are not showing it?

Sometimes it's the little trivialities (like this) that begets the most contemplation... Haha... These kind of things are always in my mind... Just that it occurred to me when I was writing... Hopefully I can share more of this kind of thought-stimulating things with you... That's unless you dun find it boring la... I dunno... I guess some pple can find this kind of thing boring...

ANYWAY, it's time to sleep... Rmb the 1st paragraph? I hardly had sleep the night before... Ya still have to wake up a... Zzzzzzz

that's when i love you

2007-02-19T13:03:00.000+08:00

Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Hmm... Today is the start of my week in solitary... Haha... But I think it will be fine... At least I hope so... I will be slacking for today and tmr... while I have school on wed, thurs and fri... Friday is the worse (or the best?) ... I'll most probably come home very late... Hope there's someone to accompany me... Haha... Talking abt accompanying... How come I always kena played out? Hai... These few days also so sian... Go on the net, go online... then find that there's nothing to do... Then go to youtube to watch miscellaneous stuff... and... nothing... Haha... Ain't my life interesting... I want to spend more time outside but I always get the answer: "hur... how come you dun ask your other friends to go out with you?" Wah... Inadvertently kena rejected... But nonetheless still rejected... Sian... Or here's another answer: "ok, wad time?" But in the end, nothing happens... Lol... Zzzzz...

Damn... I can't distinguish between my thoughts and my dreams... I was sleeping just now and I presume I was thinking of something... But when I look back on it now, it felt like a dream... Like all that happened in my dream was like wad I was thinking... Maybe it's both... I dreamed my thoughts... haha... But it was such an ideal dream (or thought)... Haha... Let's hope my dream comes true... It really isn't that impossible... Haha... But come to think of it... It's quite unlikely also la... Seeing how things go, I can anticipate that it will not happen in reality... Very possible, but very improbable also... Haha... I hope this can be understood... There's a distinct difference between the 2...

Anyhow, someone told me that I'm a MCP [Male Chauvinist Pig]... Am I really one? I hardly think so lor... I dun think I'm superior to women... In fact I dun think I'm superior to anybody at all... I was quite shocked when I heard that... In wad way am I a MCP? Or is it that MCPs dun know that they are one? I was hoping I am a SNAG [Sensitive New Age Guy]... Keyword here is sensitive...

Definition of "sensitive" (in this context): having acute mental or emotional sensibility; aware of and responsive to the feelings of others.

Am I not that? Am I not aware and responsive to the feelings of others? I'm sure I pay close attention to make sure I dun hurt the other party... Or am I just imagining it? Ahh well... Let's hope that the person who said I can take things in my stride is right...

i'm 18 liao

2007-02-17T16:02:00.000+08:00

It's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Haha... The previous post was 31 January... Oops... Had quite a lot of stuff going on... Stuff like the vsco concert and the chinese new year concert... So far these 2 has progressed fairly well... The vsco concert was quite ok... Haha... Screwed up some parts... Oh well, wad to do... Had so little time to practise...

Anyway the cny concert was more... memorable? Haha... The bloody classical acoustic guitar suddenly no sound... pekcek ah... It all went like this: Before the performance, I went to do sound check... There was sound at that time... But just when my performance started, like become very unstable... Sometimes have sound sometimes no sound... Then when there was sound, we started the song... And just when I played, suddenly no sound... Wah... Then had to adjust the cable on the floor while playing at the same time... Haha... Lucky managed to have sound before my solo part... Whew! Anyway that was the performance for the j2s... which went quite horribly... Haha... My friends told me that some pple shouted my name when I was adjusting the cable before we started the song... Haha... But I didn't hear... most probably cos I was stressing over the bloody cable... or it could be something wrong with the guitar... Sigh... Anyway after that had to rush to play for the guitar ensemble...

The guitar ensemble performance also a bit like crap... The helpers put the chairs wrongly or something... To cut the long story short, it resulted in me having no stand (equals to no scores) and no footstool... Wah... Then have to fake play the guitar... Lol... Cos I dunno wad to play since I dun have scores... This performance was for the j1s... and I was like, shit man... so malu... Oh ya, forgot to say... During that performance, not only didn't I have stand and footstool, the bloody microphone (or condenser if you want to be more specific) was pointing straight into my guitar... Wth...

Anyway, the 2nd time was much better... The classical acoustic guitar was working very nicely... WHEW!! Wah... I was like damn scared... When I plugged it in and played a string, I was damn scared got no sound... And true enough, it didn't have sound... But then I turned up the volume and... voila! Got sound!! Woo! Anyway when the performance started, the j1s started cheering! Woo hoo! Haha... I noticed that when they heard the first few seconds of the song, they all looked up... Haha... I guess the start of the song really stood out... Haha... They when the singing started, the j1s also cheered... Haha... When during my solo, I was sure some of them cheered also... Haha... Unless I was imagining it... Waa... I was really happy with this performance... Everything was working and sounded damn nice...

The 2nd guitar ensemble performance was also better... At least I had my scores and my footstool... Haha... and also I didn't screw up that much for the second performance...

And I can't believe she didn't see me... let's just hope she was faking...

Emotional punching bag

2007-01-31T18:16:00.000+08:00

I'm your emotional punching bag.
Ahh damn... Have some sort of ulcer or something in my mouth... Damn scared that halfway through eating I will bite it... This kind of thing always happens... Haha... It's called Murphy's Law... Where if there is a possibility of something going wrong, it WILL go wrong... Haha... True to some extent...

Anyway today wanted to play pool or bowl with ~~someone~~ pple... But in the end nothing happened... Haha... Was thinking more of bowling... but pool was suggested instead... Doesn't matter, I'm happy with either... But like I said, it resulted in nothing... So I'm left to ~~do nothing~~ slack at home... Quite disappointed... Hai... But looking forward to the next opportunity... Haha... Dunno why I'm so optimistic... I'm usually more of a pessimist... Well, sort of... Haha...

Optimism: Tendency to look on the more favourable side of events and to expect the most favourable outcome.
Pessimism: The opposite of above (obviously... haha)

Well... I'm more of "tendency to look on the more favourable side of events" BUT "expect the least favourable outcome"... Haha... Shouldn't everyone be like that?

Anyway, research has shown that pessimists generally are more happy with their life than optimists... Haha... A bit contradictory, but makes perfect sense... This is becos pessimists expect the worst, thus they dun get so disappointed when things dun go their way... While for optimists, they expect a lot of good things, and when things are not as they expected, they get disappointed and discouraged... That's why pessimism is the way to go! Haha... I think that everybody should adhere to the phrase "Hope for the best, be prepared for the worst". At least I hope that's wad I'm doing... Haha!

Hai... Tmr's gp... Having some debate... Have been sort of preparing for it for quite some time... But the preparation like drag too long ah... Then now seriously damn sian... Lucky I'm not any one of the speakers... Phew!!

Now everyday go to sch I see her... Sometimes I wave and say hi... Sometimes her back is towards me and I just walk past... But every time I see her, she's with her friends... Haha... EXTREMELY unlike me... I remember my 1st 3 months... Always come into class alone... Pple ask the question "How come you always alone one?" countless number of times... Haha... Well I'm a loner that's why... Haha... Very loner and low profile... But I think now my profile not that low already... Hmm... And also now not that loner already la... Haha... Found some similarly loner friends to be with... Haha... I would think she would feel very awkward if she spent just 1 day being a loner... Haha... Sometimes I just wonder, can some pple survive not talking to anybody for 1 whole day? Or maybe not so extreme la... Let's say 1 lesson... Of the top of my head, I can think of some pple in my class who wouldn't be able to do that... I know I can... Haha... Proof that I'm a true blue loner... Haha... And she's the light of everyone's life... Let's hope opposites really attract... Haha... Read somewhere that if 2 pple (let's just assume it's 1 guy and 1 girl) can talk from sunset till dawn, it means that they shouldn't be together... Cos this would mean they are more of the buddy-buddy kind... Pple who should be together wun talk so much... As conversation is not that important... It's each other's company... Haha...

And talking to me is comparable to stoning...

Ouch.

You are the special one

2007-01-23T18:28:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE THE SPECIAL ONE!!
Woo! It's been some time since I last posted... Haha... School has been relatively busy nowadays...

Woops... Just read my previous post... And I'm like just repeating wad I said in the previous post... About being busy busy busy... Haha... Sorry... I seriously couldn't remember wad I wrote in the previous post... Maybe I'm getting senile dementia... or Alzheimer's... Haha... I think they say that the first sign that you have either one of those is when you can't even rmb wad you had for breakfast the previous day... And that's seriously me lor... Haha... Anyway, no biggie... Wad's important is that I'm happy with my life... Well, sort of...

Oh well... These few months I think I'll be performing a lot... Haha... Let me just make a list...

1) Chinese New Year Celebrations (auditions on 30 Jan, i think)
Tears In Heaven!! Haha... 2 guitars and 1 singer... I'm one of those 2 guitars... But first we have to get through the auditions... But I think if nobody screws up, we are sure to be performing... Tears In Heaven is such a nice song after all! But a bit no link ah... Chinese New Year and Tears In Heaven... Haha... Pple celebrating and we performing some sad song...

2) VSCO Concert (4 Feb... in SCH... not school ah, it's Singapore Conference Hall)
Haha yeah... I sort of invited myself to go and perform... Tsk tsk... like so self-centred... Anyway if all goes well, I should be playing 2 songs only... Haha... Out of like, more than 10? Haha... Anyhow, it's good enough for me...

3) Guitar Ensemble SYF (hmm... i forgot the date... haha... oops... but it's at SCH, too...)
Hai... Guitar Ensemble SYF... And we like haven't decide wad we are going to play for SYF... Some more all the classical guitar ensemble songs like so sian sian... Make pple sleep... I hope we dun have to play the fast song... If not my fingers will disintegrate sia!

4) Guitar Ensemble Concert (also dunno when... haha...)
Hmm... I'm actually look forward to this more than the SYF... Haha... I think this will be much more fun lor... Besides those classical guitar ensemble pieces, which are a tad boring, we should be playing some band (as in rock band) songs... since we have guitarists, singers (sort of...) and drummers (hopefully they'll let me play the drums...) Haha... And maybe, just maybe they could let me play a solo... Haha... That's if I can master the song in time for that... But I think it shouldn't be a problem... Haha... But the thing is, another guy is trying to learn that song also... Haha... I hope we dun have to like fight each other to play the solo piece... Haha...

Hmm... Seems like I'll be going to SCH a lot of times... Haha... Ok, only 2 times...

I think I'll end here... Bye.

obviously

2007-01-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

'Cause obviously
She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in and
I know I never will be good enough for her
Wah... School has started some time ago... Quite busy la... Can't believe I had to pia homework on the 2nd day of school!! Walao!! Anyway, that has all passed... And I've put it behind me...

Hai... Nowadays like so busy... I'm back to my normal lifestyle... Where I go to school in the morning and take a nap when I come home... Surprisingly, I didn't take a nap today... Haha... Guess I was too obsessed about ~~playing~~ trying to play Kotaro Oshio's "you are the HERO"... Haha... Crazy shit... If you dunno who that person is, he's just a very pro guitarist... And the songs he composes usually sound like it's being played by more than 1 person... But the actual fact is that he is playing the whole thing by himself... Haha... And just so you know, I've given up on trying to learn the song... It's damn bloody difficult man... Anyway, I'm not really a natural guitarist... I'm more of a drummer... Yeah =)

Oh well... Feeling hungry... Maybe I should eat some potato chips now...

new year....

2006-12-31T17:50:00.000+08:00

Recently I've been
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl, who's out of this world
Believe me
Sigh... Tomorrow is the start of a new year... Actually I dun really dread the new year, it's just that soon I'll have to go back to school... And I haven't touched a single piece of holiday homework yet... Wahaha... I think Math is the worst... Have 3 school papers to do... But doesn't really matter, becos I dun think I'll be doing... At the most I'll just do 1... Hmm...

Hmm... Played soccer yesterday with the J2 pple again... And in the process, pang seh my class outing at Sentosa... Haha... Never mind... Only like 7 pple went for the outing... My class is really full of un-enthu pple... Haha... And also full of guys... Bleah... So I chose to play soccer and also break in my new street soccer shoes! Haha... The old one is practically dead... Always had to put super glue before playing soccer... And I really like my new shoes... Haha... Especially the colour combination... Haha... I think I like red too much... Anyway I went there especially early to sort of practise... Haha... Really sucked like shit becos the shoe wasn't seasoned... Ok, maybe it was becos I really sucked... But anyway, I realised that I cannot really shoot with power like I always used to... So just had to dribble around... Not bad... Haha... Played with some strangers becos they wanted to join... Dribbled past them like a lot of times... Haha... But then I really want to see wad I am doing when I'm dribbling past them... Haha, weird... But the thing is, I dun really know wad I'm doing to dribble past pple... It's not as if I'm doing some Ronaldinho trick or wad... I'm not even doing any stepover... I only know that I somehow manage to push the ball past them... Hmm... How I wish there is like a video recording of me dribbling past pple... Then I can see wad I'm really doing... Maybe faking to the left or right or something... Haha... I really want to improve my dribbling... Becos I realised that it is very entertaining! Haha... Maybe next time I should try some tricks or something... Haha... But must make sure I dun lose the ball... Haha...

Hai... School starts on when? Wednesday... Sigh... Although the good thing is that school ends at 11.30am... Yay! Lucky I got C for GP (taiko... got 55... just nice... haha...) If not have some tutorial thingy from 1pm to 2.30pm... Haha...

Anyway, Happy New Year!

Let's all hold hands and sing!! For auld acquantaince be forgotten...

bored...

2006-12-14T14:26:00.000+08:00

If everyone agreed with each other, the world would be a dull place.
Hmm... Feeling quite bored... The latest game I have been playing is Football Manager 2007 Demo (becos I dun have enough money to buy the game itself... or maybe it's becos I'm lazy...) Found the game damn nice to play... Haha... But recently I have stopped playing... Becos I realised that the game is really addictive... Haha... I began dreaming about the game (along with a whole lot of stuff...) And also, I became mixed up with the soccer game and wad's going on in real life soccer... Lol... So I decided to play the game infrequently instead of everyday... Haha...

Anyway... Played soccer on Tuesday and yesterday... Tuesday was quite bad for me... Couldn't score a single goal for like 3 hours or so... In the beginning I shot like 10 times or so... But all of them didn't result in a goal... I either shot to the goalkeeper or I blasted it over... Hai... And I told myself I had to score at least 1 goal... Haha... Anyway, during the last hour that I played, scored a few goals... Ahh... Finally... Haha... I would be damn sad if I didn't score a single goal... Yesterday, however, was a much better day for me... Scored like around 10 goals or so... Ahh... That should be the norm... Haha... But missed quite a few easy goals... Anyway yesterday, some guy played so rough... Kept pushing pple just so that he can get the ball... Haha... For wad, I ask you... Playing with friends mah... Important thing is to have fun wad... Dun need to tackle until so hard right... Haha...

I think I shall stop now... There's this weffriddles thing that's quite fun to do... Haha... I'm stuck on level 15 now... It's like a series of riddles where you have to solve one to go to the next level... It's quite fun! Haha...

why do birds suddenly appear every time you are near?

2006-12-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
I think that this song is really sweet... It has sort of been etched into my head ever since Karen Mok sang this song during the Golden Horse Awards thingy... If only I had the song...

Hmm... My mother has been pushing me to go to my sister's church camp... And that starts today... So obviously I didn't go... Haha... And yesterday, my mother spotted an opportunity to make me go to the church camp... Basically, I needed a new handphone and she said if I went for the church camp, she would get me one... Tsk tsk... I dunno whether she said that just in passing or wad... But in my mind I was thinking: "No deal, man". Haha... Anyway she didn't say anything else so I dunno whether she really meant it or not...

Obviously by that incident I am not a Christian. Neither am I Buddhist. In fact I dun have a religion. And I want to stay that way, thank you very much. I really feel quite strongly about this... Actually, I just see religion as something that gives their followers strength and a sense of security of wad happens to them when they die... Wad else? Ok... Maybe a source of motivation... But mainly it's to provide them with a pillar of strength. But the thing is, if you are strong enough yourself, why do you still need a religion? If you are self-motivated and have self-belief, why do you still need a religion?

Then comes the question: theism, atheism or agnosticism?

I believe that most of the pple out there dun have a clue about wad that is... So let me just briefly describe wad that is all about... Simply put, theism is the belief that there is a God, that there is a superior being that created life on Earth, created the Earth even, oh wad the heck, created everything. Atheism, if you can guess it by now, is just the opposite. It's the belief that there is no superior being. Well, this is the case that scientists are pushing, I guess... Since they are the one who created the "Big Bang" hypothesis about how the universe was formed...

Theism is the belief that there is a god, atheism is the belief that there isn't a god. So, wad is agnosticism?

Well, agnosticism comes from the word "agnostic". And the word gnosis means "knowledge" in Greek. So basically it can be translated as "without knowledge"... And that is wad it is... Agnostics feel that the existence of God (and afterlife also) is unknown and inherently unknowable. If that sounds complicated, try to think it this way: To agnostics, the answer to the question "Does God exist?" is equivalent to the answer to the question "Wad colour is Saturday?". The answer is unknowable and also irrelevant to life.

Anyway, there is always more information about this kind of thing on the Internet... If you really want to know more, Wikipedia is always a good start... =)

The main thing here is: Believe wad you want to believe. But you dun have to convince everybody that wad you believe is absolutely right. No offense, but I always wonder why Christians are always asking pple to go to their churches or the outings or their camps... You dun hear the Buddhists asking you to go to their temples, do you? Wad about the Muslims? Do you hear them trying to persuade you to convert to their religion? Why is it that only the Christians are doing all this?

Theism, atheism or agnosticism. Which are YOU?

Noisy shit...

2006-12-08T16:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's history
Tomorrow's a mystery
Today's a gift
That's why it's called the present

Yawn.... The background is different again... It's always back to basics... Haha... I reall dun know why I like simple stuff so much... Haha...

Drill some more, please
Anyway... Was taking a nap... And the drilling and knocking started... Wah pek chek... Cannot take my nap liao... Wad's worse is that 2 houses are renovating or wadever... 1 house is beside mine and the other is above. The good news was that I managed to sleep for 15 minutes... Haha... How sad...

Hmm... Feeling bored... Later still have to go out... So can only do something that lasts a short time... Maybe I should go there early and sleep...

And I'm still wondering who's reading this blog... Lol... Never mind... This blog is not really for pple to read... It's just to kill time and get rid of some rubbish in my head. =)

Oh well.

Bye.

Revived... for the time being

2006-11-28T19:11:00.000+08:00

"It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found."

John Nash, A Beautiful Mind

Hi, after 1 year of inactivity, there is a new post. It's all thanks to 1 person. Ooh... Seems like that person is oh-so important. Haha... This blog wun be read by anyone anyway...

Squint, will ya?
Haha... I find that the font is quite small... The template looks nice but have to lean forward to read the posts... Haha...

Anyway, during the holidays I have been slacking, sleeping eating and shitting... Nothing much... Besides the occasional use of the computer or TV... I'm quite enjoying it really... Haha... I have ~~absolutely~~ relatively no obligations to anything anywhere anytime. This is the kind of life that I want, man... To have no responsibilities over anything... At least for a short period of time...

There are so many things I want... Haha... I want a new wallet, a new slingbag, a new pair of street soccer shoes and a new handphone... Haha... Oh well... I will get them one by one... Sooner or later...

Oh well... I'm lazy to type anymore... Haha...

Bye. See you soon.

2005-12-29T13:03:00.000+08:00

What's your true colour?

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

Ya I forgot to put this the last time... It says that black is my true colour, which means that I have chosen the right colour for my blog!! Haha... And I dunno why Ann Siong treats the colour black like some lousy colour liddat... I LIKE THE COLOUR BLACK, OK? I think that yellow is gay. Hah!! And brown is so uncool. Hah!! Ya, black is the best. But there's only 1 thing which I dun believe in the description... it is that my "unfaltering determination" and "natural elegance" impresses people... Oh well... Maybe they ran out of good things to say...

Maybe Ann Siong should change the colour of his blog to yellow... I DARE him to do that... Haha...

Hmm... I have yet to buy a new school bag and a new sports shoes... Hmm... I guess I'll just go to jc in my old ones... Btw, I think pple going to vjc have already submitted their subject comb. application... But I haven't heard anything from sajc leh... Dunno wad to do... Then their school website say on the first day have to bring report book and the cca record or something? Do I even have a cca record?? And also, I still dunno how to go there yet... Haha... I know roughly where it is... I've passed by the school like once... But there's no straight bus there from my house... Maybe I should stop at Wilson's house and walk there with him... Haha... Lame... And I'm not gay.

Oh well, I'll be going to 2 bbq parties today, or rather later... Haha... 1 is my primary 6 one (would you believe it?) and the other one is my sec 4 one... My primary 6 bbq starts at 3pm at east coast park and the other starts at 5pm in mandarin gardens... How convenient! Haha... But I dun think I will spend a lot of time with my primary 6 "buddies"... I didn't like the class at all... Yeah, maybe a few pple... from co and stuff... but I heard they are not coming... So what's the point of me going? Ya, that's what I said when they asked me... And my answer was "see first" and "dun expect me to be there" becos I seriously didn't want to go... Then when I heard of the class bbq at 5pm, I decided to go to both since they are so near and if all doesn't go well in the first bbq, I'll still have backup... Haha... And also, there is not a single person from my primary school who is in the same sec 4 class as me... Haha... Dunno whether that's sad or not... But I dun really bother... Dun wanna waste thinking of this kind of thing and end up being sad, despondent and whatever rubbish... Ya, you can call me emotionless, cos' that's what I am... My ~~childhood~~ life has taught me to be that way...

Anyway, got to leave now, I wanna go to parkway parade to look for a nice school bag and a cool pair of sports shoes...

2005-12-28T10:12:00.000+08:00

Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments which take your breath away.

I'm sure everybody has heard of this before... It's so common! But it's still very meaningful nonetheless... Actually I had every intention of blogging straight after my Italy trip (so the feeling wun be lost, mah!)... Ya so that I can say some stuff about Italy... (Hint: Pple who go overseas a lot have MANY stories to tell... Haha...) BUT!!! The mood must be there...If not, then it will be quite sian becos usually the story will be very long... Haha... I also wanted to put some really cool pictures, but I'm to lazy to do so... Heehee... Ya anyway I couldn't blog becos: my mum was at home/ my sister was at home/ both my sister and mum were at home/ I wasn't at home.

Ok, I just want to say some stuff about Italy...

First, foremost and most importantly... People in Italy smoke a lot!! As in cigarettes... They really smoke a lot... Based on my observations there, I can estimate that out of 100 Italians, 80 of them are smoking, and out of the remaining 20 pple, 19 are smokers (just that they are not smoking at that time) and the last one is a non-smoker... Soooo.... I dun know wad to say to that... Their air is damn polluted from all the cigarette smoke and non-smokers like me have to breath in all their smoke...

Note: Becos the air is so cold (4 deg - 16 deg Celsius), you will have a runny nose. So when you have a runny nose, what's the instinctive thing that you will do? Sniff. Sniff hard, in fact, becos those mucus will never stop flowing! (Yuck!!) And as you sniff, you inhale the smoke that has just been expelled by the smoker walking past you. So in the end, non-smokers (like me) will get runny noses AND cough all day long... Bloody smokers...

Anyway, another thing that I noticed is that every now and then, the sound of the ambulance siren can be heard... (like every 2-3 hours?) It's almost as if every now and then someone collapses on the street... (maybe from chronic bronchitis? or emphysema? i wouldn't be surprised... haha)

Ok, so maybe Italy doesn't sound that attractive, but it is the art there that attracts so many pple... I'm not the arty-farty sort of person so I wun go blabbing about their art... But I have to stop here becos I have all these stuff (stuff to write about) in my head and if I dun stop I could go on forever!

Leaving on a jet plane

2005-12-04T15:29:00.000+08:00

Leaving on a Jet Plane

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin'
This early morn
The taxi's waitin'
He's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry

[Chorus]
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now
They don't mean a thing

Every place I go
I think of you
Every song I sing
I sing for you
When I come back
I'll wear your wedding ring

[Chorus]

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Close your eyes
I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the time when I don't have to say...

[Chorus]

I'll be leaving for Italy tomorrow night and I'll be returning on 21 December... Hmm... 21 December... Not really a good day for me... Hope nothing happens to me on the flight back... Anyway I saw the ticket receipt thingy and noticed that my departure time is 0100 and arrival time is 0720... So that means the flight time is 6 hours 20 minutes? That's pretty short by the way... And if you're thinking: "It must be becos of the time difference thingy", then you're wrong, becos that was what I thought of at first. But, the thing is Italy's time is 7 hours BEFORE Singapore's time........

*thinks for a while*

Oh ok, I get it... Haha... My flight time is 13 hours 20 minutes... Ah, that's more like it... Can get to watch a lot of free movies liao... I heard they have Wallace & Gromit, The Dukes of Hazzard, 40-year-old Virgin, Transporter 2, Sky High (haha lame...) and other stuff... I'll be sure to watch all the nice and funny ones... Haha... Somemore they have so many games... I think no need to sleep liao... Haha...

One more thing, I would like to say, if anything untoward happens to me on the way there or during my trip, I will never forget all my friends, I cherish all my friendships (becos they are quite rare...). The same goes for those pple whom I know but who dun know me... I'll never forget you all...

ANYWAY, since it will be some time before the next post, I might as well blog about the previous days...

Wednesday:
Went for tjco practice (some girls there quite chio... haha...) Also dunno for wad... I din even put tjc as my first choice... Until now I still dunno why I was there... And they ask me to go again... Weird... Anyway, we played some weird song with weird time signature... At first it was like 9/8, then 12/8 (whoa, like some mariage d'amour) then some parts were 6/4... Really not used to it... Somemore my co skills are somewhat deteriorating... So long time never play anything... ANYWAY, here comes the nice part, we played jun ma ben chi!!! Lol... Happy sia... They let me play my snare drum and Daniel was playing the timpani, so it was us 2 again (good old times... I think us 2 together are like invincible la... haha) So the co played the song, and I played my snare drum... Then I realised I wasn't looking at the score at all... Haha... Also dun need, I can still remember what to play and moreover the score was quite messy... Anyway the song was played only 3 times, so it was quite short-lived la... Then the conductor said, "xiao3 jun1 gu3 hen2 hao3 ah..." Lol... Hahaha... Play cheat sia...

Thursday:
Went to the vsco camp to return the Inuyasha vcd's (dvd, actually) to Kenneth and to look around... When I got there, he hadn't arrived yet so I went to see the percussion section... As usual, they were just slacking there doing nothing (was I expecting something?) Blah blah blah, so when he came, I returned the dvd's to him and slacked around until late evening... It was only around 7pm when all the action started... Before that, ying kai and I were at 7th level looking at the members playing soccer in the parade square on 5th level... Realised someone had put goal posts there (it wasn't there the last time I saw...) So I made a mental note to bring my soccer ball and play the next day... Anyway, some uncle approached us and told us that he will be locking the shutters and gates at 7pm, so we have to get out before that time... He also said a boy was once locked in before, and he had to climb out to get out... So ying kai and I were wondering: How did that guy come out? So we walked around the school on the 2nd level to find a spot that's possible to jump down without getting injured (or dead)... Finally, we found it, and it wasn't technically the 2nd level, it was 1.5... (there are 2 flights of stairs from ground level to 2nd level, there is sort of an opening between the first and second flight of stairs...) So we sat on the edge trying to figure out a way to jump down safely... The distance between the opening and the ground was around 3 metres or so? We sat there looking down for like 20 minutes? Haha... It may sound silly but if you are there on the edge, you too wouldn't dare to jump down... Anyway, we knew in our minds that it was possible, but our hearts sort of told us otherwise... We were sitting on the edge thinking of how to jump, then suddenly, ying kai said, "wad time is it now?!!" Haha... it was a few minutes past 7pm and I was telling him, "I dun want the option of jumping down from there to be my only option". Anyhow, the exits were not locked yet, so we got out in time. Then ying kai wanted to practise jumping down... Hahaha... So we went to the same place, now on the ground floor, and he climbed up a metal box containing switches or something (it was something like 1.3 metres high?) and tried to jump down from there to "get used to it"... We figured: Since the opening was 3 metres high, and we were around 1.6 to 1.7 metres tall, if we hanged on the edge of the opening and then jumped, we would fall from a height of only 1.3 to 1.4 metres... Anyway, we jumped down from the metal box several times until ying kai said, "why not we go up now and jump down from there now la... we started it... we should just finish it..." By then the sky was already dark, but surprisingly, the gate was still open... which meant that the uncle was walking around checking to see that there was nobody left... Sure enough, as we were running to the opening, I heard the uncle shout, "EH!! Still dun get out!! Wait I lock you all in then you know ah!!!" Oh ya, jian rong was following us to the opening also... but when he heard the uncle shout, he ran back down to the ground level... Haha... Meanwhile, ying kai and I were sitting at the edge and I said something like, "We better do it now before the uncle catches us..." So I jumped down first, followed by him... Funnily enough, the impact on reaching the ground was greater than when we had practised earlier... Anyway, ying kai got sort of injured as his arm rubbed against the concrete walls when he jumped down so there were some grazes and cuts on his arm... Hahaha... After that I went home to prepare for the next day...

Friday:
I ~~came~~ reached school in the afternoon hoping to play some soccer but there was not enough pple so I kicked the ball around while waiting for other pple to arrive... Finally, when there was enough pple, we started playing (in the parade square)... And since wilson wasn't there, I had to take his place and play as a defender the whole time... I didn't regret it though, becos ying kai, handoko and I formed the three-man defence that put the goalkeeper out of the game... The goalkeeper was actually mao lin (becos we didn't have enough pple in our team so we just called him in to play) but we told him "you dun have to worry, you wun touch the ball..." and sure enough, he didn't even touch the ball... ANYWAY, I spent the whole time playing as a defender, blocking and tackling and other rubbish... but our team still conceded a few goals... Haha... they were smart, they scored all their goals by eluding me... Anyway, I managed to score 1 goal from a freekick near the halfway line... Next time with wilson there... our defence will be damn good liao... After that, we watched some movies... some nice movies... some perverted movies... Then we played cards... dai dee, bridge and hearts... And for the 2 times we played hearts, I won both!! Haha... I thrashed them sia... My score never went over 50 points... Hahaha... For those pple who dunno how to play hearts, then forget it... but I think the Windows software should have the game inside... Speaking of hearts, I think I'll play some now on the pc... Haha, ok...

Ciao.

P.s. Happy birthday, jing xuan!

Arrrgghhhh!!!

2005-11-29T10:57:00.000+08:00

ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!

I knew it. I knew I shouldn't have blogged about the tjco audition thing. Most of the time when I blogged about something, something related to that will happen in the future. (Most of those posts occurred in May 2005, so if you are so free you can go there through the Archives and read every one of them). Anyway, from the way things sound so far, no prizes for guessing that the tjco chairman indeed called me, or rather, sms-ed me.

ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!

Dammit. It's either coincidence or that I'm so smart that I can roughly predict the future. I mean like, I wrote about how I would like it if I didn't have to audition, and one day later, they come and tell me they have found a slot for me. I dun think this is called "predicting the future" right? It's more like heaven is making sport of me. Anyway, if it's to make it any better, they tell me to come TOMORROW.

ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!

BUT. But the good thing is that it's not an audition! (I sure hope it's not!). I just have to go to their co practice so that their conductor can "judge on my skills". Who knows what I have to do sia. Wait ask me to play whatever thing on the xylophone... Dead sia... Actually, I should be relaxed. I think I've got quite good chance of going vjc, considering I'm *pulling strings* and they are sort of lacking percussionists. So I *think* there is a good chance. This tjco thing... No pressure... Yup yup, it's not going to affect which jc I go to... I'll be there to just meet new pple... Let the conductor know me... Damn, what's his real name again? Everybody only knows he's the "jing1 mao2 shi1 wang2". Yeah... No pressure... Just "exchanging pointers" only... Haha... Maybe I shouldn't say too much... Wait other pple auditioning for tjco see my blog and then start complaining...

I think I'm going to school early to practise just in case. =)

Ciao.

Dunno?

2005-11-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm... The tjco pple called me only AFTER I submitted my jc application form... How apt. AFTER I submitted the form, they called me and told me to put tjc as my first choice and that the audition is on 8th December. Come again? Did he say audition? I've got so many reasons to not go.

1. I hate auditions.
2. I'm going to Italy during that time.
3. I already put vjc as my first choice.
4. I put tjc as my fourth choice (it's not even second choice!).
5. Becos I'm unavailable at that time, they will try to arrange a date so that I can audition.
6. Isn't that worse? The conductor and committee come back on 1 day JUST to see my audition?
7. I've got nothing nice to play for my audition. In fact, I've got nothing.

Thankfully, the tjco chairman or something told me that they will try to arrange for me, and until now, they still haven't called yet, so I still have hope that I will never have to audition for anybody. Well, I hope that all of them are not free. I dun want to go to tjc if I have to audition.

Oh well, at worst, I will just have to tell them that I do not want to audition for them. But isn't that terrible? What if they have painstakingly found a date for everybody to be present? I would hate to be so cruel... Anyway, the only happy ending is that the conductor and/or whoever is to be present during the audition is not free. That will surely leave everybody happy.

I started this mess. It's time I ended it.

Ciao.

JC Admission

2005-11-24T16:15:00.000+08:00

"If there's a bustle in your hedgerow,
don't be alarmed now,
it's just a spring clean for the May Queen.

Yes there are two paths you can go by,
but in the long run there's still time to change the road you're on."

Led Zeppelin (in the song Stairway to Heaven)

You may not feel any significance in these 2 phrases but it is claimed to be satanic. Know why? Becos when played backwards, it has a satanic message. Dun believe? Check this website out: Stairway to Heaven Backwards. If you are too scared to see the website or hear, here are the lyrics when it is played backwards:

Oh here's to my sweet Satan. The one whose little path would make me sad, whose power is satan. He'll give those with him 666, there's a little toolshed where he made us suffer, sad Satan.

Freaked out? Haha. There are more songs in the website such as Another One Bites The Dust and Hit Me Baby One More Time.

Anyway, I just posted my jc application online. Haha, and even though my L1R5 is like shit, I still put vjc as my first choice. Haha, just trying my luck, but I know I wun end up there no matter wad. I dun think I can go to any jc that I wish to go. I think I'll like end up in meridian jc or something... Oh well, at least Guo Ling Qiang is the conductor of their co, wun be that bad...

Wish me well!

Ciao.

Finally

2005-11-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

Ooooohhh!!!! Finally the long-awaited post is here... Hurrah!! Yup yup yippee!!

Wadever.

Haha... The picture of ju-on was damn cool sia... You can imagine how many of those pictures I saw when I was looking for the right one... Haha...

Btw, can a kind soul help me remove the scrollbars (3 to be exact) around the page? I dun really like it becos it's quite irritating having to keep scrolling around just to see wad you want to see... I rather have just 1 scrollbar controlling everything... It's not that I dunno (sheesh, wad gives you that idea?), ya it's just that I got no time. I have to slack, play and do all the other stuff pple do when their exams are over... So anyone who's bored, enjoys scripting and really got nothing better to do, feel free to help me ya. Dun be shy, they always say: A little goes a long way. So who knows? Maybe next time when I become a millionaire I could give you a Porsche or Aston Martin... Dun like any of those? Then how about a mansion or a palace? If you dun mind living in India, that is.

Anyway, I actually have a lot of stuff to write. I may write about those stuff in future posts, but it all boils down to: whether I feel like writing about that subject, my mood and... well it's mostly my mood.

TIME is also a big factor, becos I'll be leaving for Italy (yay!) for a two-week vacation in December. ~~Ooh la la~~ Mama mia! Yes, I'll be visiting Rome... Florence... Venice (yes, the blasted Venice)... Yeah, I better watch out for the pickpockets there... But never mind, I'll be leaving some stuff in my pockets for them to steal (like some scraps of paper or something...) Lol... I'm so cruel...

So I shall conclude by saying that there will most certainly be future posts... (as long as someone is willing to help me script this damn thing)

Ciao now.

2005-09-26T16:43:00.000+08:00

"98% of the atoms in our bodies are replaced each year. What this means is that you are a whole new person after one year and 8 days."

Sim Wong Hoo (You would never have guessed it, right?)

Maybe this is the time. The time to start anew. To be a whole new person. What better time than now? They always say. I guess now is the best time to start anew, especially when tomorrow is the start of my downfall. Tomorrow is the day we get our prelim results. Today (and previous days) I am at the peak. Tomorrow, I will start to go downhill. The constant studying is taking a toll on my mind. My mind isn't built to study.

I have this theory that our academic results is based 20% on our intelligence and 80% on hard work. Those people who score top marks work very hard, thus their results are so good. Well, my salutations to them, but not me. I ain't built to work hard. And neither am I smart. I am fairly smart, I would like to believe, but not at all hardworking. You can say I'm extremely slothful. I sleep practically half the day (whenever possible) and I laze around all day. A lot of people are also like that, you may say, but my level of sloth is much higher than those people. I don't know anyone around me who sleeps half the day off and then take a 2-hour afternoon nap. I'm not proud of this fact, but neither am I ashamed of it.

I like to sleep. I enjoy sleeping. While other people are enjoying studying or revising, I enjoy sleeping. Studies have shown that 70% of people who sleep in the afternoon frequently suffer from depression. Well, not me. I enjoy it. And I still have a lot to do in my life. And that's why I won't be: depressed, committing suicide, despondent .etc.

I will not let up.

I will not give up.

I will not vanish into the night

Without a fight.

Will.

Live.

On.

and so on and so forth. =)

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2005-09-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

Haha... just realised I haven't change the template yet... Oops... Like who will care anyway... Haha...

You know, I'm starting to enjoy the stuff that the spammers say about me... It somehow entertains me... Haha... But my apologies to other pple ya... somehow you got tangled up in my mess...

So anyway, changed my template... Quite cool eh? I used to do this kind of thing when I was like 7 years-old or something... I kept doing it using Paint... And the fun thing is that no 2 are the same and it requires very little effort... I would use the 'pencil' tool and doodle around the white page, then use the 'fill colour' tool and fill in the colour in the enclosed spaces... Haha... Of course, this one that I made is more organised and structured...

Ha... So many thoughts... But why should I share it with you all? Haha... Go enjoy your lives la...

I'll lead my own.

Concert Aftermath

2005-07-25T18:18:00.000+08:00

"When is it going to end? Walao..."

Considering that hardly anyone ever reads this, this would possibly be the last post that I'm ever going to publish. And unless somebody with unearthly powers of persuasion is able to convince me to do otherwise, I can safely assure everyone that they do not have to continue reading my blog, rolling their eyes in agony and swearing under their breath. Haven't done that yet? Well, you're about to, as you are about to follow me in my recollection of Saturday's events. I am not in the best of mood right now at the moment, ever since Saturday...

To RGS-ians, with all due respect, I wouldn't continue reading if I were you, as the following are fraught with dubious accounts of events related or not related to each and every RGS girl adversely affecting their future morality with which any oncoming repugness will be rendered null and thoroughly ignored if or if not already confronted with utter revulsion and plain denial.

In another words, to RGS-ians, now would be a good time to stop reading.

The Victoria School's 129th Speech Day was great. It proved an excellent way to remove my Harry-Potter-reading time. No doubt I still read the book during the Speech Day, I could read no longer than 60 pages during that 3 hours? Every laugh, every clap by the audience distracted me and even I was amazed at how slow I was reading. However, this was not important. The more important thing was the concert, particularly, by the VSCO. It was a rather feeble performance and not at all pleasant to hear. The suona's were expectedly out of tune and the percussion was exceptionally apt at playing 1 demi-semiquaver late of their usual rythmn. I was thinking, did it sound that horrible when I was playing? All in all, their item was such a good success at being a failure I didn't know how I could play alongside them. At the end of the Speech Day, we hurried to RGS.

Last chance, RGS-ians!!! What you don't know won't hurt you, trust me. Coupled with the fact that the truth hurts, it's much better that you dun see this.

When we entered the KS Chee Theatre, I was expecting at least a stage, but no, they were all already seated on classroom chairs the same level as the front row seats. The acoustics of the room was tremendously horrific and the performers entered and exited through passageways at either ends of the audience's seats.

First up: Jun4 Ma3 Ben1 Chi2. I really liked this song, actually. Their percussion were all looking lethargic and sian-ed. Obviously they were mirroring their SL, Gillian, as I didn't see her smile throughout the whole concert (and whom I almost didn't recognise because she was lacking her smile). I asked around and even Kenneth, who enjoyed taking pictures of her and Jia Yan on his handphone, could not tell me.

Hong2 Lou2 Meng4 Xi4 Qu3. I heard this song a couple of times. Clayton even hummed aloud the sheng melody at the front. I thought it was the performers singing at first but then realised it was Clayton. So anyway, I told him this was an excellent mourning song and he said, "It is." Well, I wonder why they don't play this song when they are mourning for the dead.

Jiang1 Nan2 Chun1 Se4. I heard this song before also. Played by RJCO. Erhu soloist was Wang Xuan Zhong I think, but now it was played by Tan Li Yu. I didn't pay much attention to her though, rather, I was paying attention to Rachel who so sadly was not doing anything except helping Zhao Meng flip the scores. Chairperson helping the Vice-Chairperson flip scores... Outstanding, man. I wouldn't do anything for Clayton under any circumstances.

Ye1 Ying2 Lu4 Shang4. All bangdi's and no qudi's. What could be better than a group of flautists piercing my ear drums? Their SL, Yu Ching, was not moving as much as her partner was. Weird though, considering she's their SL, but I'm certainly not complaining.

Mu4 Yang2 Qu3. Wowser. A quintet. Cool sia. I just love this kind of things.

Long2 Teng2 Hu3 Yue4. Sheng Nan was their lingzhou. I didn't dare look at her, and also because I didn't want to. I was actually looking at the timpanist because I was interested in what she was playing. I had written down the scores for the timpani, by listening to the SCO version and watching a certain video, and was now ready to confirm what I wrote down with what she was playing. Ooh, but no, she played some parts distinctly differently (and some, not at all, as if she knew what I was doing and trying to frustrate me) and now I do not know which one to follow. I have thus given up on it. However, I will still keep the paper on which I hand-wrote the notes quite untidily as they are still accurate to a certain extent. Sheng Nan also played her part differently, during the Drums Solo. Apparently, she had followed what I played during that certain day and played it for herself. Little did she know that what I was playing was rubbish for after that certain day, I copied her and did what she did as she was playing the standard and correct one. Man, I wonder what made her do that. I don't know whether she followed me too well or what, because I think she made the same mistake as me. Her paigu solo also went wrong just coming to the end. Of course, nobody in the audience noticed except me. Another thing the audience missed was that one girl playing xiao gu dropped her stick (Ok, I'm sure some people would have noticed that). She was lucky the floor wasn't hard like parquet. It hardly made any noise on the carpet and not many people saw her drop her stick. Sheng Nan, gan-ing pai1 zi3 at one point, was action-ing all over the place and unsurprisingly, at the end of the song, her hair was totally frayed and her heavy panting made her look like she just fought off a dragon and a tiger.

Shan1 Dan4 Dan4 Kai1 Hua1 Hong2 Yan4 Yan4. Hmm... Some people (or person?) really slacked in this song... Anyway, I liked this song. I heard the song on a yangqin solo in Primary School. I can still remember it was played by Delphine Oh Jia Ying (my goodness, I can remember the whole name...) from then Ngee Ann Primary. Halfway during her performance, her yangqin string snapped. But she held on to her nerve, moved the protruding string and continued playing. This time was not bad, too, except that the fact that I sat so close to the gaohu their ban4 zhou4 seemed like the melody.

Shi2 Mian4 Mai2 Fu2. Well, well, what can I say? I can only say that the composer of this song must have a warped mind. Nobody in the right state of mind can compose this kind of music! Warped, I tell you, warped.

Ya1 Zi3 Ban4 Zui4. I heard this on mp3 and I thought it was a great song. Well, I thought wrong. If I had closed my eyes and listened I would have really enjoyed it, but the fact that everybody was so hiong (and somemore the emcee said there was a shui3 cha3... Is there such thing? Water cymbal?) I was put off by their forced hiong-ness. Maybe that was why Gillian couldn't smile the whole night. I would be sulking too if I had to play this song with all the fakeness. Well, the audience laughed at their antics, and so did Sheng Nan, although she was trying to control it, but Gillian was still as aloof as ever. I can't believe I even considered getting the score for this (no matter how impossible) to give to my juniors. Well, not in my life, you won't!!

Yue4 Guang1 Bian4 Zou4 Qu3. Hmm. I never did liked Tanbo Ensemble but catchy tune though. Clayton thought it was some moonlight sonata. You wish!

Ta1 Ji1 Ke4 Feng1 Qing2. This song escaped my memory as I was still smarting after their "Squabbling Ducks".

Ling2 An1 Sui2 Xiang3. Well, well, well. I'm a huge fan of this song. It's one of my favourite songs. I would have bet that Gillian would start smiling since her silly antics were over and that she was able to blast her way through the whole song, but no, she stayed pretty much the same.

And who was the one who whispered to me, "This time don't shout encore..."?

Encore song: Jun Ma Ben Chi. This time it sounded like Bing4 Ma3. Sick horse. Wang Gui Ying (I've hated since I was P6) did not give a hoot about percussion and Gillian was left playing on a mu4 yu3 that was too low. During the song she lifted it up but didn't tighten the screw properly such that when she was playing halfway, the muyu just dropped with a "kak". Obviously sian-ed by that, she didn't play where she was supposed to. Then, she, at the extreme left of the "stage" (at the timpani), passed a message to the percussionist on her left, and that percussionist passed the message to her left and so on until the message reached Sheng Nan, who was on the extreme right. And then again, she passed on what I thought looked like a pair of drumsticks to Gillian by means of her messengers. Quite comical, really.

Several things really stood out during the concert... The fact that Gillian never broke into a smile... That everytime Clayton made a stupid noise or shouted out girls' name, Rachel would be amused while everybody was disgusted... That during the xylophone solo in Jun Ma the tempo would suddenly slow down (sorry, Qiu Ping)... That the snare drummer was as sian-ed as her SL during the snare drum-timpani part in Jun Ma... That there was a person named "Ding Dong" in the Erhu section...

The whole concert reminded me of the time when I played in the exchange programme. And somehow I was very put down after the concert. It was like my history was repeated. Repeated by them. So sian that upon the question "Why are you so quiet?" I could only muster a lame "Because I'm not noisy." And the people who asked also felt sian and left me alone.

I seriously think I have no fate with RGCO (as much as the girls there), considering I hate their conductor (sorry, long time affair, this one... since P6...). Anyway, I dun think I seem to care now.

Ciao now.

Filiae Melioris Aevi

So long...

2005-06-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

"The only pple who can hurt you deeply are the ones whom you care about."

Woot. I was right again. Because it happened to me. Sure it was weeks ago but my com was spoilt rite?

Anyway, who cares about that right now. Oh ya, back to my injured leg... I just found out it was a groin pull. Ouch.

What is a groin pull?
A groin pull is an injury to the muscles of the inner thigh. The groin muscles, called the "adductor muscle" group, consists of five muscles that span the distance from the inner pelvis to the inner part of the femur (thigh bone). These muscles pull the legs together, and also help with other movements of the hip joint.

What are the symptoms of a groin pull?

An acute groin pull can be quite painful, depending on the severity of the injury. Groin pulls are usually graded as follows:

Grade I: Mild discomfort, often no disability. Usually does not limit activity.
Grade II: Moderate discomfort, can limit ability to perform activities such as running and jumping. May have moderate swelling and bruising associated.
Grade III: Severe injury that can cause pain with walking. Often patients complain of muscle spasm, swelling, and significant bruising.

Ow... I think mine's Grade 3... just without the swelling and bruises...

Anyway actually during the time when the com was down, I actually felt like I was shut out of the world... I probably was... There was so many things to say... but there was no output... kinda like clayton... But anyway, what I actually did was put all my thoughts into "the little box in the corner of my mind". Yeah, everything that's bothered me or even affected me... All into the "little box"... And this stupid blog is actually leaking away stuff that is inside... Good? I dunno. Anyway, it is this "little box" that makes me the way I am. I am seldom angry or sad for a long period of time. That's because the thing that is bothering me, I put into the "little box" away from my mind, so I dun think about it after some time, sometimes even forgetting it entirely. So every time I am bothered or something, this "little box" grows in size... So yeah, now I may seem forgiving, never-mind kind of person... BUT. When the day comes when this "little box" explodes (and I implode), all of you are going to DIE. Whoosh, DIE. Exactly the same as "Me, Myself and Irene". He had been so forgiving and all that and whoosh, the "little box" exploded and he had Advanced Delusional Schitzophrenia with Involuntary Narcissistic Rage. Whoosh. I would love for that day to come when that happens to me.

Yeah yeah, sounds scary... But I'm fine now... as in currently... but who knows what the future holds? Hah. Ciao.

P.S. Maybe I should say something about the audition for vjco... ~~Here's one word to summarise everything: Fuck.~~ Here's one sentence to summarise everything: The chances of getting A1 for Chinese are much higher.

krak!

2005-06-03T15:34:00.000+08:00

"Krak... Oww!!"

Hmm... I dun think this is the first time it happened... I think this "krak... oww..." happened before during the march holidays or something... haha... I'm so injury-prone... Weak, man...

So now I walk like some spastic asshole because I pulled my leg muscle or something playing soccer... Damn... and later still wanna play again... All Handoko's fault... Ahh... Forcing my leg to recover... Since last night... but still cannot walk properly... wah... how to even run or play soccer? Ahh...

Better get ready to go liao la... some farewell party... Go there play soccer nia... Never mind... the thing starts at 5pm. Now is 3.35pm. I have 1 hour 25 minutes for my leg to recover so that I can play soccer. Damn... after that still got drum lesson... How to step on the bass drum pedal sia?

Ciao, pple. Pray for me!! x)

no cure

2005-05-31T14:47:00.000+08:00

No "quote" today either. And for a reason.

Today is a sad day. A bad day. A lousy day. A dysphoric day. Or make it yesterday.

Nothing to do with chinese, though.

Some pple are just busy. Busy to the max, entertaining fictitious hunks which I'm doubtful of and multi-tasking other stuff...

Girls, go entertain your hunks.

Guys, go entertain your babes.

Gays, go to hell.
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Friends...

What are they for? My thinking of friends is practically the same as that of Squall Leonhart in Final Fantasy 8. And that's probably why I dun have much friends. I mean like, the only pple who can hurt you deeply are the ones whom you care about. Quote me if you like, becos this shows that you can only get hurt from your true friends. So the question is, why invest your feelings into friendships or relationships when you know you are gonna get hurt? I dun regret it though, that I have little friends, as it also means I dun get hurt so much. I dun mind having more friends too, and I think it's becos of this mindset that I get hurt from friendships so much. I dun think that particular person will see this, but I dun really care. Becos my surroundings have brought me up such that I am anti-social, dun-give-a-damn type and whatever not. It's hard to be my friend, but once the ball is rolling, everything is downhill. Becos during that time when you are trying to be my friend, I'm sub-consciously considering the magnitude of how hurt I will be and how happy I will be when I become a friend. Of course I will be hurt, but it's whether the happiness I gain will outweigh the hurt I get. But sometimes, just sometimes, I take a risk. And end up getting hurt. I have no idea why I do that, but maybe I'm just hoping for that special something to occur. I'm cold and aloof, and that's how I protect myself from potential pple who can hurt me. Sometimes I open up to certain pple, becos they have that special *something*, but when they hurt me, I'm at a loss of what to do.

Everybody is busy. But I'm not. There's not even time for friends. For me, if you treat me as a friend, that is. That's when the hurt bites into the skin. Dao. The perfect word. I used to think that I always dao pple, but that's no longer true, becos the tables have turned. When I dao pple, at least I'm still aware of what they are saying or doing. But those pple, they talk to me, but their minds are not with me. It's how they say the words, not what they say. It's just like talking to a guy watching tv. Busy, you say? Yeah, expected that. And of course, what's plural can also mean singular. =)

Definition of "attention": The application of the mind to any object of sense or thought.

Not that I crave attention, but a little attention wun hurt rite? That's when you invest your feelings into the friendship which may or may not turn into a relationship.

What are friends for? YOU wouldn't be able to answer that, I'm sure. Not that you will see this, but just think it through. Just think it through, you chyng.

Ciao for now.

Too much chinese

2005-05-29T17:49:00.000+08:00

Sorry, there's no "quote" today... becos if I could, I would put something chinese, and for some reason, the chinese characters appear as boxes or something? Oh well, I never did liked chinese anyway... And too much of it is bad for your health...

Tomorrow is the 'O's!!! Ooh-la-la~.... I have been studying too much of chinese... My mind is full of chinese rubbish... and I hate it. Dammit. I hope I bloody get my A1 sia... haha... But that's practically out of the question... I've NEVER gotten an A1 for chinese before in my entire life in secondary school... haha... I can predict that I will get B3... that is like not bad liao... but maybe I can juuusst scrap an A2... haha... of course I'm not ruling out an A1... hehe...

Somebody sent me this link or something... and I think it's pretty shitty... I have no idea what that means btw... haha... it's just one of those things that you got nothing better to do... it's some love prediction shit... BUT. Dun go there... Ok, maybe you can just click on the link or whatever... but dun fill up the thing! Even if you have nothing better to do, doing nothing is better than that! There's nothing bad there... so dun fret, you can fill up the thingy without any worries. It's truthful and unreliable, precise and deceitful. Sooooo.... DUN click the link, DUN fill up the thingy and DUN not avoid not clicking the link...

Enjoy!! ----> Dun click me! <----

Ahh... back to chinese... or maybe I should do something else... Ciao for now.

John Nash

2005-05-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

"Can't you see him? He's just there!! They're gonna capture me!! Those Russians!!"

Hah. John Nash. A Beautiful Mind. Who watched that? Well, I guess no one. Anyway, it's about a great mathematician who made great discoveries about whatever-not and whatever-is. BUT. He has a sickness called... (surprise surprise!!) SCHITZOPHRENIA!! Haha... Somehow the future always reiterates my personal reflections... Like the other time when I said that we percussionist should be spontaneous and all that, my drum teacher said the exact same thing... Well, anyway, I dun think I will be doing any reflections (or thinking, for that matter) for now, so I'll just talk about what happened today.

Chinese intensive classes!! Hoo-whee!! For everyday that Wilson and I have the class, we would find something to entertain ourselves... And today we certainly found entertainment... Wow, we even took pictures of our creation!! But too bad I can't transfer files from my handphone to my com... Sooo... Ok, chinese lesson IS cocked up... So let's skip to my oral today... Prelims oral, that is.

I was the second guy of the pack... The first guy (before me), only in the registering room, was already starting to cry... Haha... And I was like... Ok, let's not talk about me... I wasn't crying if that's what you are interested in... 1st thing, the passage... Not bad... Had several conversations in the passage, which I was good at... And pple always ask me how i'm good at that? Well, easy. For us guys, just act gay and talk like some, well, gay... Ok, maybe not gay but... Ok, girl... But guy act like girl isn't that gay? Anyway, yar so just act like some overly-expressive retard and you'll do well. Ok, blah-blahs aside... Picture description... Not bad for me... I actually talked quite a lot... But not enough I guessed... The teacher prompted me 2 questions... Conversation... Bleahx... She asked me to talk about one time when I had to do research on something... And becos I've never really did some significant research in my life (not that i can rmb) and so I paused for like 1 minute thinking of some cock story to tell her...

Mr Liar: Ya, there was once when in pri sch when we had to collect 20 tadpoles and we measured their lengths and...
Teacher: Uh-huh...

Ok, forget it... I dun feel like saying liao... Lol... I think you can roughly guess where this is heading... Soooo... Either you see my msn nick or you go guess yourself or you do dunno-what to yourself and guess or you can just get lost upon seeing the next word that starts with a "C" and ends with an "o". Ciao.

Schitzo?

2005-05-22T16:26:00.001+08:00

Lex Luther: I'm sorry, but it's just that sometimes the dark side of me takes control over me...
Clark Kent: Yeah, everybody has their dark sides...
Lex Luther: Yes, just that I can feel mine creeping over the corners... Friendship helps to keep that at bay, and that's why I want to be your friend.

Adapted from Smallville

I think I feel the same way... I dunno what my dark side is, and neither do I want to know, but I know it exists.

Sometimes I think that I have (adapted from "Me, Myself and Irene") Advanced Delusional Schitzophrenia with Involuntary Narcissistic Rage. I mean like, sometimes I can be 1 person and another the next minute... Maybe this has got to do with the dark-side thingy... It's like when I'm out and about with friends, I can be oh-so happy and whatever not... BUT, when it comes to me being alone... Hoho... Maybe the phrase "Friendship helps to keep that at bay" is true... It's like, every time I'm alone, I will think about the past, think about the future or just think. They always say "Dun think so much la"... And my reply to that is: I got no friends what... Dun think then what? No friends no friends... I can just feel my dark sides creeping over me... Haha... Oh wells... I know some people read this and think that my life is *seemingly* screwed. But that's just becos I'm alone when I'm typing all this... And when I'm alone...... Things happen. So if you think my life is screwed, it means that you are not a friend of mine (or not close enough) cos if you are my friend and you are there with me (or for me), you will never see this side of me.

Anyway, since I got nothing else to say, I might as well talk about the RJCO concert yesterday... First, it was raining... puddles of water everywhere... seemed quite dangerous... (i'll tok abt this later...) Second, the 10-minute walk to RJC was filled with water puddles (oops! again!) Ok, I dun think the puddles were that dangerous... It was the pathway... Whatever... Enough rubbish talk...

First song: Chun1 (Full Orchestra). Not really MY kind of song... It was really...... peaceful. Wasn't loud or energetic... Little emphasis on percussion... Timpanist was a little bit weird? Hmm...

Second song: Taiwan Zhui1 Xiang3 Qu3 (Full Orchestra). Quite ok I guess... None of the "blasting" that I like... Previously playing timpani guy played paigu... Then I noticed something weird about the paigu... Yes, that guy may have crossed his hands to play and all that, but I still noticed that the paigu had a reversed arrangement? Or is it just me? For them it was like, the biggest drum on the left and smallest on the right, exactly like the timpani... But shouldn't it be the other way round? Biggest one on the right and smallest on the left?

Third song: Hungarian Dance No.5 (Sheng Ensemble). Catchy. Quite comical also... The speed at which the diyin sheng was playing... Haha... Could even hear the "tak-tak-tak" of the guy pressing of the buttons... Lol...

Fourth song: Jiang1 Nan2 Chun1 Se4 (Erhu Solo + Yangqin Accompaniment). Cool. Lol. Guy in front of me kept taking pictures of the erhu soloist (who happened to be a girl and wearing a very cool costume... *snicker*) Ask around to know more...

Fifth song: Yi4 Xiang3 Tian1 Kai1 (Zhongruan Ensemble). Not bad too. Like some guitar ensemble. Wait a minute, it is!!

Sixth song: Da4 Li3 Qing3 Feng1 (Tanbo Ensemble). Finally something that involves percussion after 3 songs. Quite ok. Xylophonist was left-handed and was practically playing in darkness cos there was no light at the edge of the stage.

-15 minutes break between "the end of the first half of the concert and the beginning of the second half of the concert".-

Seventh song: Cao3 Yuan2 Mu4 Ge1 (Guzheng Trio). Hmm... As usual I dun really like guzheng and all that... can go to sleep liao... yawn...

Eighth song: Chang2 Hen4 Mian2 Mian2 (Zhu Di Concerto). Basically it's one guy playing 2 dizi... one bangdi and one qudi... I think it's my favourite song of the evening... Damn nice... Although not the blasting kind, it's still very nice...

Last song: Da Mo Sui Xiang and Mo Li Hua. Again, Luo Wei Lun's composition... Sian bo? Quite good la... Mo Li Hua was good also... The only thing was that percussion played a small part... So... ya, anyway, concert ended, thankfully it stopped raining outside... But the bad thing was the pathway was slippery... I must have slipped like at least 5 times... Oh well, who asked us me to wear flat-soled shoes... I may have slipped a couple of times, but LUCKILY I didn't actually fall... Whew! Anyway, on the trek back to the mrt station, the ~~pretty~~ ~~pretty~~ ~~pretty~~ girl in front of me (wearing pink canvas shoes) suddenly slipped, screamed and fell. I think it's in that order. Hah! Who asked her to wear flat-soled shoes... Then she and her friends started laughing... My god... Screaming and falling on your butt and you still can laugh like it's some slapstick comedy... Lol... Scary!

Oh wells. That's about all I've got to say. If I've missed out anything, it's not becos I've forgotten, but it's becos I dun want to say it. Ciao.

i'm good!

2005-05-17T18:51:00.000+08:00

"We learn 10% of what we read, 10% of what we hear, 15% of what we see, and finally, we learn the most when we teach."

Kong Su May

Oh wells. I guess I'm learning the most stuff when I teach my juniors... Yay... Haha... Although my life seems so screwed up (it's not), everything seems to work out fine in the end... Haha... Now wait a minute... I'm teaching my juniors what I have learnt and observed from other people (yeah, that's quite a lot of things... i'm a perceptive person...) so what am I doing? I'm teaching them what I learned, and I'm learning what I teach?! LOOPHOLE!!! My god... Now I'm back to being pathetic (or what the Spanish will say: patético) again... Hai...

Oh ya... Just remembered... I finally bought my new shoes!! Whoa... Finally... It's some Reebok thingy... Cost like 69 bux...

Sigh... Actually I wanna write more... But I guess this is the wrong time... Ahhhhh... Nothing to say... And my mind is buzzing with stuff flying around... Nonsensical stuff included...

Sigh. Ciao.

Perfect 10 98.7!

2005-05-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

"Ok, we will need someone who is willing to take out his shirt AND apply this strawberry jam onto his armpits! So, who wants to volunteer? Nobody? Aww, come on! Yes! You! How about you? Just come up and enjoy the fun! Yay! We have a volunteer! So, what's your name?"

"Err... My name is Sara."

Haha. Surprising ei. I was surprised too when I heard that. Oh yea, forgot to say, that was on Friday at PS. There was Jamie Yeo, some guy called Justin and some other new guy. Deejays, supposedly, from 98.7 FM. I have no idea what they were doing there, but anyway, I was sitting outside the McDonalds eating my savoury tempura chicken burger, listening to the ~~serene~~ tranquil (somehow i dun like the word 'serene'... lol) sounds of rushing water behind me and splashing of water when it reached the bottom (go there and find out what i'm toking abt). Ahh, so peaceful, except for the fact that in FRONT of me, there were sounds of people lighting their cigarettes, moving the chairs, chatting away as if they had a hummingbird's wings for their tongues. AND also, a gang was picking a fight with 2 guys. Hai... Those stoopid assholic gang members... I still remember 1 guy (from the gang) just standing up and walking to the 2 guys... Wah, must act like so bastard and assholic and pai kia... Stoopid... Cheh! Like I dunno how to walk like that... I used to walk like them before... Yup, and I had to change. Changed the way my hands swayed, my pacing, my posture and all that. Yeah it made a difference. But anyways, who wants to dwell on the past? Not me. At least I try not to. However much I try.

My philosophy in life is "Have no regrets in whatever I do or do not do". Yup, so I'm usually happy with my life, becos I have no regrets. BUT, I actually regret 1 thing. It is that I never make an impact on anybody around me. I dunno whether it's becos I am unpopular or I suck or what. IMPACT. What a big word. I do stuff that I do... but no impact is made. Maybe I'm not the influential type or something. I sometimes wish that I can make an impact on people. But I just can't. Is it something that I have to try to be able to achieve it? I hope not. Becos this kind of thing occurs naturally. Or I could be wrong. Then maybe I'm not that kind of person.

Definition of "impact": The power of making a strong, immediate impression.

And all I want is just to be able to make an impact on people...

Anyways, that aside, Friday was the 2.4km run... My shoes were in no condition to run so I did what I had to do... I exchanged shoes with Ying Kai... (yeah, and for those of you who thought i was a freak when i wore my left shoe and ying kai's right shoe -- and him wearing vice versa -- during the rgs exchange, SCREW YOU!!) Yeah that's the advantage of having small feet: I can wear anybody's shoes, the main thing is how loose the shoes are. And for those of you who dun know, I have small feet and small hands (ok, relatively small), but so what? They are quick. I've got quick feet and quick hands, and I'm proud of that. ANYWAY, I ran the bloody 2.4km and puked on the grass after giving the teacher the chip with my position on it. Hmm, I dunno whether some kena-ed his shoes or not... Haha... His shoes were not comfortable also, at least not comfortable for running... So I ran, puked my gastric juices out, and got...... 13.01... Stupid... 1 second faster I would have gotten a 'D'... so now I'm an 'E'... Bloody hell... With a timing like 13.01, my god, it was an 'A' for females... Nuff said.

And sorry if I have too many of those definition thingies around... 1, those words are significant. And 2, I'm trying to improve my English. Ciao.

Teen creed

2005-05-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

Teen Creed

Don't let your parents
down.

They brought you up.

Be humble enough to

obey;

You may give orders

someday.

Choose companions

with care, you

become what they

are.

Guard your thoughts;

what you think you

are.

Choose only a date

who would make a

good mate.

Be master of your

habits or they will

master you.

Don't be a show-off

when you drive,

drive with safety

and arrive.

Don't let the crowd

pressure you;

stand for something or

you will fall for anything.

Margaret Goh

Haiz. I know for a fact that nobody has read my previous post, but I dun care anyway =p

This point in my life is extremely low. But not the lowest; I've had worse. Anyways, I come home everyday, switch on the computer and do practically nothing. No homework, you ask? Yes, no homework. Becos of the simple fact that now is the exam week. But, for us Sec 4's, we are having our mock exams for sciences, which we dun really mug or cram or whatever. Reason? Becos it's mock. Mock = Doesn't count for anything. Yes, it is a test to show how much we know, but we just study, not mug. Or in my case, cram just before the exam starts. Quite effective though, since I have short term memory, and that I can understand most of the rubbish. So I am slacking, everybody else is mugging. Result? No one to talk to; and those whom I talk to dao like free, so there's no difference with the former.

I'm bored. I want new stuff. Not only for myself, but also for vsco. I want new instruments. I want a new percussion instructor (do we have an old one?). Actually it kinda makes me wonder why I want a percussion teacher, since by doing so I'll be jobless. But oh wells. Allows me time to pursue other things in life. We have money now (dun we?), so I want that all before I leave. Especially the new instruments. No instructor, never mind, I can keep my job, but no new instruments, MIND. Oh wells, I think I'm the only person chasing this lost cause, so it doesn't really have a big impact anyway. So, the big question is, who cares? I never make an impact on anyone. Never did, never do and never will. Unless, of course, a lucky break comes my way. Whatever that means I have no idea. So what am I living for? Passion? Romance? Love? Friendship? Or do I live for the future, hoping that I will find all these? Passion and friendship are all I have. My life is based on these two aspects only. Shaky foundation it is, ready to topple any time. Passion really accounts for a large part of my life. Without it, I would be as boring as the ah-pek who sits at Eunos MRT station digging his nose and reading his newspapers everyday. Or even the uncle who sells school pants in the school canteen staring at exciting people walking past him. Passion, as I always say, pushes me forward. It is this passion that nudges me everytime I stumble or take a fall. Passion, is certainly worth pursuing, at least for me it is, becos I'd be nothing without it. I'd be a lifeless creature, almost close to what I am now, dreaming in la-la land and foaming at the mouth. Thank goodness I haven't reached that stage. And I never will, thanks to something called passion.

Definition of "passion": Boundless enthusiasm.

Couldn't have explained it better. =)

So, I've just wasted my time crapping about what can be explained in 2 words. 2 simple, but powerful words. Well, at least I managed to kill some time. =)

Bored, my life is. Bored, but *not* screwed. Dun treat me as if my life is screwed.

Becos it's not.

highest? ooh...

2005-05-11T18:20:00.000+08:00

"Little Johnny was 7 years old and like other boys his age rather curious. He had been hearing quite a bit about 'courting' from the older boys, and he wondered what it was and how it was done. One day he took his question to his mother, who became rather flustered. Instead of explaining things to Johnny, she told him to hide behind the curtains one night and watch his older sister and her boyfriend. This he did. The following morning, Johnny described EVERYTHING to his mother. "Sis and her boyfriend sat and talked for a while, then he started kissing and hugging herI figured 'Sis must be getting sick because her face started looking funny. He must have thought so too, because he put his hand inside her blouse to feel her heart, just the way the doctor would. Except he's not as smart as the doctor because he seemed to have trouble finding her heart. I guess he was getting sick too, because pretty soon both of them started panting and getting all out of breath. His other hand must have been cold because he put it under her skirt. About this time 'Sis got worse and began to moan and sigh and squirm around and slide down toward the end of the couch. This was when her fever started. I knew it was a fever, because Sis told him she felt really hot. Finally, I found out what was making them so sick -- a big eel had gotten inside his pants somehow. It just jumped out of his pants and stood there, about 10 inches long, honest, anyway he grabbed it in one hand to keep it from getting away. When Sis saw it, she got really scared -- her eyes got big, and her mouth fell open, and she started calling out to God and stuff like that. She said it was the biggest one she's ever seen; I should tell her about the ones down at the lake by our house! Anyway, Sis got brave and tried to kill the eel by biting its head off. All of a sudden she grabbed it with both hands and held it tight while he took a muzzle out of his pocket and slipped it over the eel's head to keep it from biting again. Sis lay back and spread her legs so she could get a scissor-lock on itand he helped by lying on top of the eel. The eel put up a hell of a fight. Sis started groaning and squealing and her boyfriend almost upset the couch. I guess they wanted to kill the eel by squashing it between them. Her boyfriend got up, and sure enough, they killed the eel. I knew because it just hung there, limp, and some of its insides were hanging out.Sis and her boyfriend were a little tired from the battle, but they went back to courting anyway.He started hugging and kissing her again. By golly,the eel wasn't dead! It jumped straight up and started to fight again. I guess eels are like cats --they have nine lives or something. This time, Sis jumped up and tried to kill it by sitting on it. After about a 35 minute struggle, they finally killed the eel. I knew it was dead, because I saw Sis's boyfriend peel its skin off and flush it down the toilet. "

Got that from Zi Xuan's blog. So it's not my credit, it's his. Haha. Oh wells. If you dun feel horny after reading that, I dunno what will. Haha. Juz joking.

Oh wells. Got back our chinese paper today. I think it's some SA or mid-year or whatever, I actually dun really care. Oh ya, also got back our oral and listening compre results. Pathetic results, man. Chinese sux shit. Got 20/30 for oral and 14/20 for listening. Sux. Then came the paper 2. Our class is pathetic, to say the least. The highest score was 52/80, which was just nice a B3. And THAT'S the highest. My god. The rest were either B4 or lower. Wah man, and I was aiming for an A2!! With luck, of course. But too bad, no luck. Or another way of saying, not enough luck.

Was considering going to VJCO concert or RJCO concert, since they two clash on 20th May. then was discussing with clayton. Wait, why is he even in the picture. Ok, anyway, then I realised that I had totally forgotten about my drum lesson!! Lol. Seems like I can go to neither. Haha. I guess I will be at PS while everybody is falling asleep in the concert hall. Lol. Juz joking.

Whew, I dunno what else to write, man. So I guess there's no better time to end off than now. Ciao.

In the mood for LURVE

2005-05-09T17:40:00.000+08:00

Aries
March 21 - April 20
You're in the mood to socialise. Take a look around and maybe set off for a short ride. If you're single, you may also be introduced to someone new and delightfully chatty by a sibling or neighbour.

Taurus
April 21 - May 21
The new person you've created needs some new clothes, and you're entirely ready to make that person happy. It's you, of course -- the new you -- and it's time to do some shopping.

Gemini
May 22 - June 21
Your emotions will be quite obvious now, all of them. You'll definitely be raising some eyebrows over the next couple of days. But then, when has a little thing like that ever bothered you?

Cancer
June 22 - July 22
There's only one other person in the world who knows why you've been grinning lately, and you'd prefer to keep it that way. Offer a bribe if you need to. Timing is everything.

Leo
July 23 - August 22
The next 24 hours will be action-packed, to say the least. You can count on a friend to pull off some amazing stunts, some of which will leave you speechless. Yes, you. Yes, speechless.

Virgo
Aug 23 - Sept 22
You're still feeling exhilarated and enthusiastic, and quite ready to do what it takes to accomplish something you've wanted to do for a very long time. Don't lose that feeling. Stage One was recognising your dream. Put Stage Two into operation now.

Libra
Sept 23 - Oct 23
The lure of far-off places has gotten to you. It might have been one too many tough days lately, or that phone call from someone you've been missing. Either way, how about giving in and going somewhere?

Scorpio
Oct 24 - Nov 21
If anyone is familiar with intimacy, it's you -- in all its faces. At the moment, you're after the intellectual kind, and anyone who tries to snow you had better be ready to think again.

Sagittarius
Nov 21 - Dec 20
Finally, you've been given a heavenly reprieve. The universe has pencilled some free time into your schedule, and you'd be well advised to make the most of it while it's available. Give that certain someone a call.

Capricorn
Dec 21 - Jan 20
Talk about multi-tasking. You've always been nothing if not amazingly gifted when it comes to juggling duties, but you'll be even more adept now. If you have time to stop for a split second, you might even see a crowd forming.

Aquarius (*ahem*)
Jan 21 - Feb 19
You're in the mood for love -- real, romantic love -- and you won't be able to concentrate on anything else for days. No, this isn't at all like you, and yes, your friends will be stunned. Too bad.

Pisces
Feb 20 - March 20
Pressing family responsibilities will keep you away from your sweetheart, and from anything that even remotely resembles fun. Of course, no one said you have to spend every single walking moment being responsible. Don't you have time for coffee?

I guess the more significant one is the "in the mood for love", ei? Lol. Hmm... Food for thought.

Oh well. Physics Paper 2 today. I managed to finish the paper *surprisingly*. I could sort of do almost every question in the paper and not leaving them blank. And they said it was an easy paper. Maybe it was. Considering that I could actually finish the paper when I would usually leave out several questions.

Sigh. Bored to death. Finished writing down the notes for Fei Tian for the kuai4 ban3. Spent like 5 hours doing it (which also means that I wasn't studying at all). Loved every minute of it. Now, I've got nothing to do. Sigh.

Went to co room (like any other day). Decided to just play the paigu for fun. I can't believe I actually got better! I didn't hit the sides so much and all the blah blah. I tried playing all the paigu solo parts and it was still ok!! *Surprisingly* Man, what I would give to get some new scores. I want some cool songs. I really hope wu lao shi has prepared some cool songs for us. If not then I will just stop going for co =p . I want a yun luo, too. And also the xylophone which is trapezium-shaped and you use those wooden spoon-shaped mallets to hit. Wow, so cool. Everything is so cool in my dreams.

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Sigh. I want new shoes.

he is screwed

2005-05-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

"Wah, you know, ****** really screwed him up sia!!!"

Ya, you are screwed. My impression of you hasn't changed, but others have. My, what girls can do to guys. Especially *certain* guys. Who am I to say anyway. I am just a nobody. A nobody that everybody loves to hate and hates to love. The only person whom I don't hate and loves me is myself. How self-centred.

Haha. Guess what. My drum teacher said that we should be spontaneous. How right. It seems that practically almost everything I mention gets mentioned *again* by a professional. Haha. I once scolded my juniors for doing something wrong (that was before the SYF) and when the percussion teacher came, he said the exact same thing. Haha. I guess I really am turning into an unpaid percussion instructor of VSCO.

Pooi. Had the chinese exam today. Mugged so much for just 5 words worth 10 marks. In the end, only got 3 out 5 words correct, after mugging so hard and long. What's the use, man? Compo sux too. Practically everybody I know wrote the bao4 zhang1 bao4 dao3, but I wrote the ji4 xu4 wen2. When there was 15 minutes left on the clock, I still had not reached the climax yet. Great. I know this may NEVER happen to some people. But just a gentle reminder, I suck. Pooi. Sis and Mum is home. Can't type much. Ciao.

Heh?

2005-05-05T16:59:00.000+08:00

"Mid-year or prelim? Huh huh? Woo hoo!!"

haiz... damn sian... tmr is chinese paper liao... think i'm going to fail... everybody mugging... and what am i doing? haiz... so long never hold my drumstick liao... or make that my timpani stick... every free time i have all either chiong-ing hw or doing something else... anything BUT practise... sigh... i really suck man... and dun ever say my english is good man... cos it sucks... see the way i'm writing now? yar so different from the last post eh... shows that i'm erratic and lousy... bleahx... whatever... go take nap liao... forget about studying liao la... study also fail, dun study also fail... might as well dun study... pui...

wadeva...

2005-05-01T16:47:00.000+08:00

"I'm sure there are some people who are cursing me anyway."

Referring to the previous post, how right I was about some people cursing me.

Yesterday, we had our chinese mock exam make-up and we were supposed to do the exam in exam conditions. But I guess it was not to be. Lee went to buy us food and drinks during the exam and when he left the room, we started talking. He left the room a couple of times, and we did the same thing every time. We didn't finish the exam in the time limit, as we wasted time on eating and drinking the stuff he bought. But he gave us extra time anyway. I am very confident that I will fail the paper. But truthfully, I don't really care. I don't have the motivation to study or do anything related to studies, because I am still dedicated to CO. I would rather spend my time practising then studying, despite the coming exams.

I treat the CO room as my second home. Before classes, I go there. After classes, I go there again. Whenever I'm bored at home, I feel like going there. The instruments are always there for me to play. Or maybe that's what I miss. The timpani. The paigu. The xylophone. And not the room. I wish I had all of those. And a place to play those without anybody complaining that it's too noisy. I want to practise. I haven't been practising for more than 1 year. It's time I started. A pity I can't. Unless you consider teaching a form of practising. I want new scores so that I can master them. Master them by practising. I couldn't even master cai long chuan. It's evident from the recording of the SYF.

I wanna practise practise practise. Practise the xylophone. Master The Flight of the Bumblebee on xylophone. Keyword: Master. That's the thing about percussion. Anybody can play it. But very few people can play it well. I am one of those who can't play for nuts. I've been too ~~pro~~ arrogant. I don't blame myself. This is normal, I tell myself. Anybody who is surrounded by 6 sucky and spastic juniors will think that he is very good. Yes, he is good, compared to his juniors. But in actual truth, he really sucks. My mind always tell me that I suck. But my heart tells me that I am pro. I desperately need someone to keep me in place. Someone who is pro-er than me. And who plays percussion, not some other instrument. Maybe patience is all I need. Next year I should be meeting that someone. But I can't wait that long. I have to find that someone right here right now. For the past year, I've learnt nothing. Repeat, nothing. There was nobody to teach me new things. Maybe the past few days I did learn some new things from some pro person, but that was only, as I've said, some. I want more. I want to improve myself. I want to be pro-ER. There I go again, thinking that I'm some pro kia. Let me rephrase that sentence. I want to be less sucky. I want someone.

Ok, maybe I've strayed too far off already. I'm just too eccentric. Eccentricities in my mind lead to spontaneity. Maybe that's what I like about myself. Eccentric. Spontaneous. Maybe that's what a true percussionist needs. Eccentricity would mean flair. What a good percussionist needs is flair. And that's what my juniors don't have. And that's what I hate.

Definition of "eccentric": Departing from a recognized, conventional, or established norm or pattern.

Defintion of "spontaneous": Unconstrained and unstudied in manner or behaviour.

Definition of "flair": Distinctive and stylish elegance.

I like unpredictability. I want unpredictability. My juniors are too predictable. Maybe they are guys, that's why. Girls, on the other hand, are mostly unpredictable. Which in a way I kinda like.

There I go again. Strayed off the path again. Oh well, maybe this post is destined to be of thoughts and not stuff that happened. *Someone* had advised me to do this before. But at that time I just couldn't force it out. But this time it has happened on impulse.

*Knocks myself in the head*

So anyway, we played soccer after the exam and I only scored 1 miserly goal. Yippee. By then I was I was already sneezing like nobody's business. Someone must be cursing me. Maybe those people whom I cursed have cursed me back. Adding to that the one person who have been enjoying tormenting me.

I better stop now before any eccentricities bring me back to random thoughts again. All this may seem like rubbish, but that's what my mind is about: Rubbish. I've been trying to hide my eccentricities for a very long time. But it seems I can't cover it anymore. I hate it. But I also love it.

I am weird.
I am crazy.
I am strange.
I am eccentric. =)

Bastard...

2005-04-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

For pple who can't tolerate vulgarities, fuk off pls...

this is sort of continued from the last post... so read that one first... then you will more or less understand...

can this be any worse? i just had to ask... following the previous stuff that has happened (the *blah-blah* and the neighbourhood friendly saliva-man) i just had to ask myself whether my day could be any worse. the answer is yes.

here's the story: i left the house at around 6pm plus (drum class starts at 7 if you dun already know). so i waited for the freaking bus 63. waited and waited, for 10 minutes. great. 6.10pm. so, at the first bus stop, a whole lot of people boarded the bus. well, it's end of work already. and there, it was there when it happened. there was a fuking traffic jam. practically almost 100m away from my house. the freaking bus could only move like every 1 minute. after 1 hour, i was 1km away from my house. do the math, average speed would be an assholic 1 km/h... my ah-ma can walk faster than that. i alighted at the bus stop which was 1 hour away from my house, and what could be better, the whole bus stop was filled with those workers. industrialists. workers. whatever. Ubi Techpark. i'll never forget that. outside at that road, there was yet another (surprise surprise!!) traffic jam. i was waiting for the bus 65. never mind that there were probably 50 other people looking out for buses, i saw the bus 65 100m away from me. 15 minutes later did it then arrive my bus stop. average speed= 0.4km/h. my ah-ma can hop on 1 leg faster than that. well, it's all downhill from there, since it goes straight to PS from there. never mind that it was already 6.45pm when i boarded the bus. nothing can be worse than this right? wrong. fuking hell. i went to the upper deck. no seats except the center seat in the very last row. still ok, nothing wrong with that. or so i thought. when i sat down, i noticed that on my left were 2 pai kia's listening to their songs which were played through speakers (it was damn fuking loud) AND on my right were a mat and minah couple kissing, hugging and whatevernot. so on my left they were singing along with the song that was played (as if it wasn't loud enough) and on my right they were sucking faces. (i could have sworn i heard the smacking of their lips) and so for the remaining time i spent in the bus, i had to endure the inconsiderate playing of songs on my left and the kissing, flirting, slapping, hugging, caressing and producing of sounds which can be heard when i stuff a plunger into the toilet bowl on my right. fuk them. fuk everything. being late by like 5 minutes is still ok. but not 30 minutes. i told myself if i dun reach there by 7.30pm, i'm not going to class. when i reached there, i looked at my watch: 7.31pm. not going to class liao. so i just went to mac and ate the double fillet-o-fish. alone. just by walking there i have to force a polite smile and say "no" to every asshole who tries to offer me something. fuk them. after collecting my food i went to an empty seat, and found out that the person didn't give any chilli sauce or ketchup or whatever. nothing. just the drink, fries, burger and some serviettes. fuk her. just when i was halfway through eating my meal, some guy sat down near me and started smoking. fuk him, too. infesting my meal with cigarette smoke. i hope he dies soon. so i finished my meal, and made my way back to the bus stop to go home. in the process forcing courteous smiles, shaking my head and waving my hand again to all those still at it. fuk them. again. thankfully, the bus 65 came quite fast. so it at the main street not long after i boarded it (that should be the way!!) it's from the main street do i then take the bus 63 into my house area. i alighted the bus 65 at 8.30pm. i thought i was going to be home early. but guess what, the 63 didn't come until 30 minutes later. and that was after 4 bus 65 passed. fuk the SBS driver.

and there's the end of my cursing of practically everyone that i came across. i'm sure there are some people who are cursing me anyway. so my answer to that is: pass it on. it's almost as if my putting of the ~~shitlist~~ wishlist on the left have caused all this. who knows, man. there is such a thing as a chaos theory.

bloody dao

2005-04-29T16:39:00.000+08:00

"The boy with spiky hair..."

haiz... i dunno whether i'm pissed or angry or sad or sian or what sia... i seem to have bad aura or something recently... first, *blah-blah-blah* happened, which i'm probably too pissed to say... second, we had our napfa shit test today... this included shuttle run, sit-ups, sit and reach, pull-ups and standing broad jump... sigh... for shuttle run i got 10.0s which isn't what i wanted... i wanted a 9 second plus timing... my shoe kept slipping against the ground... bloody hell... ah, but at least sit-ups i really did 43 and got A... for sit and reach... aiya, i can't even touch my toes... still i got 35cm... can pass happy liao la... then standing broad jump... WALAO... FAIL ARR... passing mark was 206cm and i got 204cm and nothing better... walao... i dunno why i jump so short... i kept doing and doing... still nothing better than 204cm... oh yar, and 1 more thing (or 2...) when i was doing the shuttle run, the teacher refered to me as the "boy with spiky hair"... haha... hmm actually i dunno whether i'm supposed to laugh or not... anyway that was much better than what the next teacher did... that bloody teacher damn kao pei... buay song my hair... then he tried to make my hair down... which obviously failed becos it's as difficult as spiking a girl's hair (most girls...) Note: i didn't use gel or mousse or whatever rubbish any idiot can think of... anyway, following his unsuccessful attempt to press my hair down, he then calmly proceeded to use his saliva to wet my dry and unkempt hair so that he can easily style my hair-- his way. funny thing too... it was as if he knew who yu jia was... as he was trying to style my hair to look exactly like hers... i could feel my saliva-drenched fringe pressing firmly against my forehead uncomfortably as i listened to what he said. "This looks nicer... yar...". Obviously irritated and annoyed by this (and what happened before...), with one smooth action, i swept my hair back, thereby disregarding totally the fact that i'm in contact with his oral mucus, and my hair went back to the original place it was before that conversation. How redundant.

anyways, it seems that after putting my wishlist there, i've been having bad karma... maybe that spot is exclusive for the archives only... oh well... i'll see how the next few days go before i decide further whether to remove it or what... haha... i sound so serious... ok... i have to go prepare for my drum lesson later... hope certain people will stop dao-ing me...

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2005-04-27T20:04:00.000+08:00

"I wish..."

hmm... i have just included a wishlist becos i realised that i have a lot of things that i still want in life... i'm not satisfied of my life yet... like for example, i still want a lot of percussion scores... sooner or later i'm going to get those scores... by hook or by crook... haha... oh well... i jsut have to wait... sigh...

can't get it out of my head!!

2005-04-26T20:38:00.001+08:00

"Hungry... thirsty... tired... sleepy..."

just a reminder to pple who haven't read the previous post yet... read it!!! if you dun wanna read the whole thing, at least read what happened on friday... it's quite interesting... haha...

last reminder... read the previous post first!!

wah... i think i'm going crazy... for 3 straight days the song man jiang hong has been stuck in my head... wah... it's damn cool lor... with the yun luo and bian zhong... wah... how i wish wu lao shi will use that for our next syf song... haha... it quite fits wu lao shi's style as it has a lot of gan qing... haha... hmm... on second thoughts, maybe we shouldn't... if not wu lao shi will get heart attack! haha... anyway like i said, man jiang hong has been stuck in my mind for 3 days... whenever i am daydreaming or whatever, mjh will straight away come to mind... maybe i'm just going crazy... i keep thinking of the song... especially the yun luo part in the beginning... wah... i feel so pathetic...

SYF Aftermath

2005-04-23T19:06:00.000+08:00

"Victoria? gen1 wo3 men2 yi1 yang4 la..."

hmm... this may be a very long post... becos a lot if stuff has happened in the past few days... ok, maybe i will sort them out according to days... i dun believe ANYONE will read the whole thing... it's too long...

Thursday: SYF day!!! came to school early... warm up first... blah blah... ok nothing interesting really... only when the lorry came then i started to panic a little bit... when everything was settled, i had to moved the percussion instruments onto the lorry... wah... xiao gu, dagu and all the other instruments like daruan zhongruan and pipa... ok then daniel and i sat in the lorry to the concert hall... then i asked him about tjco... and he said the jing1 mao2 shi1 wang2 (or whatever his name is) is a sucky conductor... he said his pai zi not wen one... haha... i din noe got such thing one... then say that he's damn strict, and also said that the cello when they are supposed to come in they dun look at his conductor stick, they look at his hair... when his hair swing then they come in... haha... i dunno whether this is true or not... but oh well... that has set me thinking about going to tjc for their co... maybe vjc is better with guo ling qiang... IF i'm smart enuff... ok enuff abt rubbish... reached there, gathered at 1 spot... yeah yeah other schools got better instruments than us and all that rubbish... but you think i care? AS IF that was my first time... everybody so nervous... haha... and i was like... hmm... so relaxed liddat... haha... oh yar i remembered... we percussionists went STRAIGHT to the cargo lift... we didn't go to the holding room to practise with the rest... unlike the last syf... so anyway we entered through the cargo lift and put our instruments backstage... and here comes the bad news... we couldn't bring our dagu... ok... actually that wasn't the worse news... the worse news was when i tried the dagu they supplied... it was the worse shit i've ever heard from a musical instrument... seriously... so ok... i dun really want to go into the details of the songs that we played... but one thing, the dagu really sucked like shit... so after that everybody except half the comm returned to school... i was one of those who stayed behind... there were some significant schools though... like marsiling... their feng nian ji was damn nice... but too bad there were only a few good dizis... i will always rmb the left-handed bangdi who stood up to play the middle part with the gaosheng... haha... and another one is shuqun... haha... ok i shouldn't laugh... they only had like 39 people... haiz... sad case la... ok la let's skip to the results... oh yar before announcing the results rite... there were some teachers or whatever behind me and they were from fuhua... they were talking abt vs... they said something like "victoria ar? gen1 wo3 men2 yi1 yang4 la..." yi1 yang4 my foot sia... there is quite a lot of difference between GOLD and silver... anyway although we wanted a gold with honours, i realised that with our current plight, it's quite impossible to get honours... let's see: abt 70% of our performers are lower sec, including 1 sec one... cai long chuan is a good song but not excellent song (sorry wu lao shi!!) but seriously... i was hoping we could scrape a gold with honours... but alas...

thursday: wasted my time going to school... most of the co people were on panda-eyed and falling asleep in class... haha... means that we are committed!!

friday: whew! busy schedule ar... morning, went to buy mc at clinic for $15... i was scared she would see through me... but it turned out that her son is also in vs... haha... then she was toking abt the ip... yadda yadda... singapore's education system... so she asked me whether i need mc for saturday also... haha... i told her i got sore throat and cough... then i said saturday no school so doesn't matter... so i got my mc and some medicine... so after that i took a taxi to SCH... wah seh... got ERP charge some more sia... bloody hell... altogether $8.50... wah my wallet really suffering from diarrhoea sia... suddenly all the money come out... the taxi driver at first asked me, "you... going to work ar?" -_-" dotz... so i said, "no..." then he said, "so you still studying lar?"

me: "yar..."
driver: "today no need to go school meh?"
me: "er....... arhh.... today got full day... no need to go school..."
driver: "what school you in?"
me: (without hesitation) Victoria School... *SHIT!!! what if he finds out vs dun have full day at all?*
driver: oh... you all got ip right? you know ar, i think singapore's education system is a failure..."

and he continued toking and toking and toking and toking and toking and toking... just before going under the ERP thingy, he saw a jaguar (car, not animal) stop just before the thingy... then he started toking abt if that driver can spend about $200,000 to buy a jaguar, what's the problem with him spending 50 cents to go past the ERP... then tok tok tok tok... tok until i reached the SCH... anyway, by then, they were not giving tickets anymore (but it's still in the morning...) BUT... i managed to sneak in!! LOL... i was walking in with a group of performers wearing datk blue costumes (i was wearing black...) and i pretended to be using the handphone so i bend down my head and look down... haha... lucky the saf guy never catch... so after the morning session we had to get out to queue up for tickets for afternoon session... unfortunately i didn't get... )): so i just had to watch dunman high and hwa chong (is it?) from outside... then during the interval, we saw wu lao shi... we were chatting and blah blah... and so... i asked to borrow his instructor's ticket so i could get in, come out and get another ticket from the guy... but they were damn smart... they took the instructor's ticket... so i was inside already... but without wu lao shi's ticket... oops... so i quickly went out... i went by the front (just in front of the stage) and i saw shengnan adjusting the yun luo... haha... i think she was a bit shocked or something... anyway i rushed out to meet wu lao shi and asked him whether i can have his ticket or not... and thankfully wu lao shi gave me his instructor's ticket... THANK YOU wu lao shi!!! haha... damn bad sia... but anyway later ann siong said that he can go in if he wants to, becos he IS an instructor after all... so at least that made me feel less guilty... anyway so i watched rgs perform their xk and mjh... wah their mjh was damn nice... or you can say loud... (for me loud is nice... heh heh...) anyway after their performance, *somebody* called me... and just when i said, "hello? yar..." some cheena lady whack my arm and said, "SHHH!!!!" bloody hell... as if i was toking so loud liddat... anyway just before they announced they result, some dunno-who went to make a speech and blah blah... all toking rubbish one... so anyway in the end rgs got gold... (clayton, remember what you said before? keep your word, man... ) so we went to ps to eat dinner... i was running short on time (drum lessson at 7... it was like 6.45 when we reached there) but i still bought kfc... i didn't finish the cheese fries and drink though (damn! so wasted...) in the end i was still late for my lesson... but nvm... anyway after the drum lesson (around 8 plus) i was walking around to buy my breakfast for saturday... i was expecting to meet someone from rgs (as in, by chance) and indeed i did... i saw ee huang with a group of girls behind... not exactly the person i wanted to meet... but i also dun think i was the person she wanted to meet (hear that, clayton?) so anyway i went home and on the way......... ei... maybe i shouldn't say... haha... just that *someone*, after receiving my call, was panicking... LOL... the conversation went a little like this:

Me: Hello? Call me for what?
Someone: No... i didn't call you what...
Me: Yes you did...
(i shall skip this middle part becos you can generally see that this is heading no where until i say the next few lines...)
Me: Where are you? burger king? kfc?
Someone: Errr... you stay there ok?
Me: Huh?
Someone: Err... you just stay there ok? dun come here... just stay where you are... ok?

heh heh... shall not say too much... if not *someone* will come and beat me up... haha... whatever...

wah i spent a damn long time to write this... although i know that nobody would really read the WHOLE thing... haha... bye for now...

GOLD

2005-04-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

"Chinese orchestra number 12: Victoria School......... the GOLD award..."
"YEAH!!!!! bloody hell... cb..."

sorry for the lack of posts... busy lar... got GOLD... YEAH!! haha... anyway that was ying kai scolding vulgarities there... haha... tok abt this some other time...

luo is screwed

2005-04-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

"practise your xiao luo... bring it home and practise..."

haiz... this morning while in bed i started thinking about the syf performance... vsco is so inconsistent... what if during syf everybody scew up? like what if the xiao luo screw up? he refuses to bring the luo home and practise and during practice he wastes time polishing the unused luo... sometimes he can get it right... but most of the time he can't... for me, the most important thing is to be able to play correctly at least 4 or 5 times in a row, but he can't even do that... even though his part is just what, 18 bars long? what if he hits the wrong part of the luo during the syf? i'm screwed... and he's as still as a statue... the luo is supposed to be a very active instrument... and he's anything but that... he doesn't have his accents, he doesn't move, he keeps looking straight down at his luo and worse, sometimes he doesn't even hit the luo properly... sometimes i wish that there were 6 more of me... ok... make it 5... i dun like the xylophone... then i would be able to play each of the instruments correctly, nicely and consistently... now, their accents are like no accents at all... and some of them are playing correctly... but their tone production is like shit... if vsco were to get silver or below... i can assure that it will be becos of percussion...

co co co

2005-04-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

"What are you doing? wu lao shi is waiting and everybody isn't ready yet... hurry up go rush those people la... how long you want wu lao shi to wait??" Lee Eng Keat

whew... had co today... i reached school at around 7.20am like that... wu lao shi reached already... stunned sia... he said come at 8am then he come at 7 plus... anyway we bought all the xian for all the instruments that require string plus some more other stuff... haha... altogether cost $900 plus sia!! siao man... went to buy like what... 40 pipa dunno-what-note string, 35 pipa another-note string... 40 erhu string, and another 35 of another erhu string... sia la... ALL the strings also buy... zhong ruan like buy 30 or something of ALL the 4 strings... haha... anyway, just as i expected mr lee was very pissed after seeing the bill... then he started scolding clayton and i (actually only clayton...) becos it was past 8 and everybody still wasn't ready... taking their own sweet time... then say he shouldn't just care about himself (he was practising...) so we both went to rush those people... haha... oh well... $900 is a lot of money...

hmm... actually i had a dream a few days ago and i dreamt that it was the day of the syf... and the thing was that i was PANICKING... obviously not becos of myself (i got experience ok... i've been in the co for like what... 6, 7 years...) i was actually panicking becos of my juniors... i was like... where are they? they are missing... it was almost our turn to perform and they were missing... then i was running here and there looking for them... (in my dream it was sort of like in a shopping mall (without shops) very unlike SCH... anyway i was running everywhere looking for them feeling damn screwed... and in the end i found them watching some dancing performance in the middle of the pathway... i was still feeling screwed becos i had spent a lot of time looking for them and it was too late to go back... was that a nightmare? i dun think so... maybe i'm feeling TOO responsible for them... it's like... whenever they make mistake or something during dazu, they apologise to me... maybe they are treating me as an authority figure... or maybe i am treating them like lower class people... or maybe it's both... i sure hope that percussion dun screw up... 1, it's becos my gold with honours will be non-existent... 2, it's a disgrace to daniel's batch of percussionists considering that the instruments they were using were all "heavily oxidised" (mainly the xiao cha, xi yang cha, diao cha, triangle and glockenspiel) and our tambourine was like shit... and we STILL got gold... now all those instruments plus MORE are all newly acquired... it would be a shame if we do not do well with such good instruments...

ANYWAY, back to today... played soccer after co (which totally contradicted what liseng said... he said we shouldn't play any sports or go for pe becos there's a risk of getting injured...) haha... so we played soccer for like an hour two... wah... my leg dunno kena how many bruises... everybody seems to enjoy kicking my leg... anyway i only scored like 1 goal... and it sucked... although according to handoko i assisted him a lot of times... anyway i guess wilson handoko and i practising our teamwork really paid off... as there was once when each of us were on the center, right and left and we were passing real well... we broke up the opponent's defence really well... (haha... i seem to be talking rubbish here...) but in the end handoko couldn't score... never mind, it's our teamwork that counts... i didn't really notice any of this... but maybe it should occur naturally so it's quite good actually... oh well, i think i should end here... bye...

kena screwed...

2005-04-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

sigh... damn sian... actually got quite a lot of stuff to say... but then... oh well, let's just say fate deserted us me...

ok... anyway yesterday had co practice... which meant we skipped the cross country... ok... not all of us went... some people didn't come for co although we told them to and they went to the cross country meet just to see his girl-friends... oh well... i have no comments here... except that they are... ok forget it... some things are better left unknown...

my sore throat was feeling better after eating some chilli stuff... but during co i had to shout at the juniors... so had sore throat again... now like for every lunch i'm adding extra chilli to my food... fyi, if you people dunno yet... eating chilli (or stuff like mangoes and oranges) cures my sore throat... =) this is called fighting fire with a flamethrower... haha...

today at the end of co practice... i was trying to play "twinkle twinkle little stars"... haha... man, i took damn long... i took almost like half an hour to get it right... whew! haha... yeah i know i suck... i suck to the core!!! ok? just for your info, i was trying to play twinkle twinkle little stars on the timpani... which is... eh... ya... not very difficult for me... haha... it took me about half an hour to get it right... if it were difficult it would mean i have to spend days (or hours) practising it... like some paigu parts or something... anyway it was quite fun trying to play twinkle twinkle little star (or any other song, if possible) on the timpani... haha... mostly becos it's impossible... anyway went to eat dinner at mac with yong jian, handoko, ying kai and wilson... haha... some interesting stuff happened there... i too lazy to type... maybe wilson's blog will say... haha...

better go sleep now... still got co tomorrow...

VSCB

2005-04-11T21:24:00.000+08:00

"Vs concert band got gold with honours!!!"

happiness... band got gold with honours... now everybody will be waiting for co...

haiz... got a little bit of sore throat... but i dun really care... haha... here is a list of stuff i ate when i felt a sore throat coming: char kway tiao with chilli for dinner on friday, mango and orange on saturday, fish head curry and sambal kang kong for dinner on sunday, wanton mee with a lot of chilli for today's lunch and beef with rice for dinner... haha... as a matter of fact my throat is feeling better... ahaha...

hehheh... i just realised i'm learning 3 different songs for different instruments (learning, not playing... doesn't include xing kong and the blah-blah) i'm learning long2 wu3 for paigu (never hear the song be4... but paigu part sounds quite nice...) yu4 jian4 on the piano (or in my case the keyboard...) and also 'that thing you do' on the drum set... haha... drum set rocks k... ~~anybody~~ any girls interested to go? come join my class... haha... my class not enough girls ar... haha... juz joking...

Socks? hp?

2005-04-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

"Empty your pockets... let me check your socks..."

today kena checked by some stupid sec 3 prefect... the same one that confiscated ann siong's hp... come and check my socks... bloody hell... lucky i wear extra extra high... like soccer socks... damn nerd... lol... let him see... haha... my hp was also off... haha... anyway even if it was on he wouldn't know... haha... becos my hp would be in power save mode... anyway he caught wilson for his ankle socks... haha... and in the end got away with it... haha... stupid prefect...

damn... just realised that the back of my hand got some bruise or something... like i knocked it into something... i have no recollection whatsoever of what happened... hmm... or maybe i hit myself with the drumstick while practising... hmm... must be... damn, i'm lousy... must be becos of my lack of ~~skills~~ ~~sleep~~ ~~girls~~ ~~common sense~~ ~~vision~~ ~~brain juice~~ ~~pro people within my vicinity~~ sleep... damn... especially when i have to cross my hands... there's always a chance that i will hit my own hand... ow... oh well... used to it... haha... hmm... actually i was a bit pissed today... becos of some khaki shorts people... but ~~something~~ ~~someone~~ ~~whatever~~ ~~whoever~~ ~~dammit~~ ~~i dunno what to write~~ the existence of something cheered me up... ok, whatever...

VS Choir

2005-04-04T19:33:00.000+08:00

"Vs choir got gold with honours..."

heard that choir got their gold with honours... whew! the pressure's on, man... anyway, next on the firing line is band... their syf is on 11th april... i hope they screw up... haha... oh ya... the new tv arrived yesterday... haha... some 29-inch tv... supposedly same size as the previous one but looks much larger... dunno whether real or not... haha...

haiz... percussion percussion percussion... feeling damn sian of the word... why can't i practise like everybody else? when i start practising on my own, my juniors will say "so what do we do? we are waiting for your orders..." wa... dun tell me i must stay back another day just to practise by myself... walao... i dun think gillian does that bah... like who does that? must be someone pathetic... >.< ... me... somebody help me... must they always HAVE someone to tell them to practise? somebody help me for god's sake... help me get those khaki shorts people off my back... percussion SUX... hear that, clayton, ying kai and ann siong? you people always play the percussion stuff... cb... PERCUSSION SUX!!! get lost, you assholes...

April's Fool

2005-04-03T15:32:00.000+08:00

"Timpani xiao3 sheng1 yi4 dian3... ni3 tai4 da4 sheng1 le4..."

how many times have i heard that sia... sianz...

wah... a lot of things happened on april's fool day... first thing's first... chris was hoping mrs foo could give birth to a girl on the 1st of april... so she can name her baby april... (april foo, get it?) haha... anyway, first lesson was pe... we had to run the 2.4km... i decided to follow johnathan foong since the last time i followed him i reaped great results (i sprinted past him in the last 50m or so and got 1 second faster than him... haha..) anyway, i was following johnathan when he suddenly sort of slowed down... i didn't want to break my momentum and so i continued past him... so i followed another guy (ya ya, i'm lousy... i dunno how to pace myself... i must follow someone...) but halfway i was dying so i started walking... thankfully i was still faster than johnathan and got 11 min 37 sec... not bad liao la... i felt like dying... then had 4 lessons of e.maths, recess, then 2 lessons of a.maths (both maths is the same teacher btw...) anyway since it was april's fool, we moved the metal cupboard at the back of the classroom to block the door... we then closed the door so that when the teacher opens the door, she will see only the back of the cupboard... she fell for it and was shocked... haha... then she said that she have to leave for a while and in the mean time, we must go and change into our uniform... everybody was like YAY!! haha... she taught vectors or something... i can't rmb... then we had recess... after recess, we switched classes with 4F... when the 4F teacher came into our class, she knew the difference and said,"ok lor... no lesson lor..." haha... in the end 4F's teacher went to our class to teach and our teacher came to 4F to teach... haha... we were like having so much fun... haha... then our maths teacher was like saying,"wah, i walk 1 big round just to find your class..." haha... then she said,"so much excitement... i have to sit down and rest..." LOL... she wasn't joking... she really went to sit down... haha... what a joke... anyway, becos we didn't know that we would be switching classes with 4F, we went to turn the clock back by 1 period (35 minutes) and in the end, 4F got released 35 minutes earlier than everybody else... grr...

had co after school... sianz... dun wanna talk abt it...

went to ps for drum lesson... reached there at 6.40pm... lesson started at 7pm... decided to chiong through dinner since i was hungry... i chiong-ed through my chicken rice in 10 minutes... (haha... unbelievable...) so had 5 minutes to slack... when i entered the room, the girls were trying to play "that thing you do"... i knew how to play the song a little bit since i heard it be4 and also watched the movie and saw how the drummer played... i showed them the first part and all that... then when the teacher came in, they asked for the scores... so we didn't do anything except practise "that thing you do"... haha...

ok so that was friday... yesterday had dazu... some new conductor came... blah blah... then had sectionals becos he wanted to teach percussion... he told me that i was too loud (although i wasn't playing very loudly...) man... i dunno how many times i have heard the instructor say that i'm too loud... damn it... anyway he made us play softly and said that we should enjoy the music and relax... wth... so now the percussion part is like damn soft... walao...

??

2005-03-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

Marriage Readiness Checklist

Feel comfortable with each other
Love each other
Able to communicate with ease with each other
Does not smoke
Not a Malay nor Indian
Speaks English and not mainly Chinese

haha... CME is so lame... come up with this kind of thing... actually the question was just "marriage readiness checklist" and we are supposed to fill up the bullets... haha... i think that the "not a malay nor indian" factor is the most influential one... haha... what rubbish...

had co prac after my geog remedial... practice was supposed to start at 2pm or something... when my remedial ended it was 4pm... only 1 person out of 6 were there... sianz... i then asked the guy to go home while i go practise by myself... wah song... first time in dunno how many weeks never have a real chance to practise by myself... haha... i'm like some deprived kid... then went to practise pai gu using the dajiyuequji... it's actually mostly easy... for dagu and xiaogu ad whatever not... but for paigu... wah... the stuff inside (besides lian4 xi2 qu3) i must really spend TIME practising it just to get it right... reminds me of tian1 shan1 sheng4 hui4... where i had to spend 2 hours practising it... my longest ever time to get the rythmn right... haha... oh well... maybe i DO suck...

打击乐曲集

2005-03-27T18:55:00.000+08:00

hai... woke up at 1 plus today... haha... cooked some korean noodles for lunch... then went to do homework (haha... unbelievable...) spent like 20-30 minutes doing physics and chem workbook... then went to play the piano (or keyboard) liao... haha... couldn't resist the temptation... practised the coup de couer again and again... haha... must master the song... damn scared becos wilson said that the last finger or little finger is connected to the heart or something... then if you strain it to hard then your hand will shake or something... wah... scared the same thing happen to me sia... every time i play coup de couer i will have to stretch my fingers until damn far... then every time i play my fingers will feel damn strained... some more i practise like more than 30 minutes lor... haha...

haiz... syf coming liao... vsco so inconsistent... then percussion (or I) cannot whack like crazy... not like the last syf... where i can "show the fighting spirit of vsco" for fen yong... now every time also "softer... softer... dun play so loud..." walao... i miss fen yong... i miss playing the diao cha... especially when there's a part exclusive for diao cha... like the last 2 bars of fen yong... wah...

co again...

2005-03-26T20:29:00.001+08:00

"you owe me 40 push-ups..."

had co today... quite sian... spent the whole time teaching juniors how to hit the drum properly... didn't practise a single bit (since when did i start?) then wu lao shi came... had dazu... means that i can't even practise a shit bit during the break i gave them... (he came just when i gave the khaki shorts a break) then straight away had to prepare for dazu... dammit...

anyway went to karl heng today... blah blah... bought this percussion book... something like kao ji but it's not... some china rubbish... cost only 20 bux... i bought it without hesitating... heh heh... the stuff inside quite easy la... i think i can manage... but what i hate is the triplets... if it's 8th note triplets i dun really mind... but the thing is it's 16th note triplets!! if it's continuous i still can manage... (like if it's 1 bar continuous 16th note triplets...) but it's an 8th note followed by the 16th note triplets!! hmm... dunno whether you can imagine that... anyway if i find it hard to play means that other people will also find it hard (or harder) to play... haha... juz joking... there was once when clayton said that my pai zi was damn good... (when it's not really that good) then i realised that it's not my pai zi good... it's his that suck... haha...

whee... mum went out for some dinner and dance and my sis went to some other thing... so i got the whole house to myself!! yay... haha... haiya... dunno what to do... hee... maybe i'll just slack around... yeah...

dear dr math

2005-03-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

Date: 27 Apr 1995 13:14:21 -0400
From: clayton chong
Subject: (none)

Dear Dr Math. what is 1000 divided by 7?

From
Clayton chong.

haha... i found that on the net... that's so insulting...

sigh... yesterday wanted to skip co so much... i didn't want to waste my time teaching my juniors... in the end i couldn't skip co (that always happens... passion does reign supreme in me) but also in the end i didn't have to teach those khaki shorts people... haha... the erhu teacher came to teach them... so i was spared... haha.. yeah...

damn... tmr still got sectionals... i wouldn't mind if it was dazu or practise or what... but the fact that i have to teach my juniors makes me sick... i VOW to be in a co where the percussionists are either pro-er than me or at least just a little bit lousier than me... and not spastic people who dun think they are damn pro... maybe i'll join chengsan... maybe i'll audition for syco... maybe i'm dreaming too much... but first let me get my hands on the kao ji book for percussion... mr ngoh said there was such a book... but not in singapore... in china... damn... maybe karl heng can help me import... haha... what i would give to get that book man!! there's also another book for percussion... but it's the western one... inside it's snare drum, timpani and xylophone and other mallets... but i suck too much to play that... i dun even know how to double stroke...

oh well... better go dream about my kao ji percussion book... byes...

ok...

2005-03-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

"Be careful of this... if you touch it you will feel very itchy..."

-_-" that was what the lab technician (some aunty who has practically 3 tits on her) said while pouring dilute sulphuric acid and aqueous potassium iodide into test tubes for us... whether she was toking about the sulphuric acid or the potassium iodide i dunno... but i know that neither of them wun cause itches whatsoever... or maybe i'm wrong...

oh well... that was some chem practical... had to do some redox titration... spilled some potassium iodide on my shoe... oops... that part is now yellow... haha... i could have done it 5 times lor... bloody hell... in the end used 4... during my first attempt, just when i poured the sodium thiosulphate into the beaker (or is that the chlorate(I) ions? heh... can't rmb...) the solution turned brown... i was like... yes arr... what the shit... just imagine pouring some colourless solution into a flask... and suddenly the solution just turned brown... magic sia... then i noticed that some idiot who used the flask be4 me didn't wash properly... still got some potassium iodide left in the flask... bloody hell... waste my time... anyway i was practically chiong-ing through the experiment... first time must do slowly... if not will overshoot... but after that i just chiong-ed through the whole shit... haha... then for my 5th time the damn thing stopped functioning properly... i wanted to stop adding the solution in the burette but the damn thing couldn't stop! the clipper was like closed already but there was still solution flowing... wah... squirt here squirt there... haha... damn... wasted sia...

God is better than football
God is better than beer
God is better than cricket
You can talk to God all year

haha... some god propaganda... that was from some short animated film called harvie krump... watched that during english lesson... did a lot of rubbish during english lesson also... first we went through some compo done by some rgs girl... winner of some commonwealth essay writing thingy... then in the compo there was a word "callused"... so we asked her what that was... then she talked about the finger having bumps on where you usually hold the pen... then talked about big hands or something... then talked about how tall people usually have big hands... after that suddenly talked about the length of our fingers... then she said that the length of our middle finger is the length of our d**k... then everybody was like what the hell... so tall people must have really big d**ks la... according to her theory... then since for guys the middle finger represent how long so for girls represent how deep la... wah sick sia... from the word "callused" can talk about dicks... i think the teacher must have been feeling horny sia... haha... then talked about what bar-top dancing, lap dancing, pole dancing, striptease or whatever... kaoz...

ok la... better go now... haven't eat dinner yet...

ohwells

2005-03-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

my god... i'm feeling damn sian... yesterday... haiz... dunno whether i shld tok abt it or not... someone said i shld write about stuff deep down in my heart and not just the outside (like what i have been doing and what most people are doing also...) and so it seems that someone younger than me is smarter than me... (ouch, my heart!) oh wells... i have my reasons though... for not writing abt what i feel deep down inside... (actually i did before... it was about my drumstick which fell into the lift... boo hoo!!) first, it would consist of ~~a teeny bit~~ ~~some~~ a lot of vulgarities since people around me are irritating me... (most of them are just immature people who go to school wearing khaki shorts) second, everything would be a mess since my mind IS in a mess... information would be flying here and there everywhere... thirdly, i have my doubts of WHO is going to read it... so who cares? ok... so everything i have just said is redundant... but isn't that it? sometimes i feel that everything i feel is redundant... ok but who cares anyways... i'm just going to try it once...

friday: had co prac... everybody slacking... no instructors... dazu in the morning with clayton conducting... everybody toking when clayton was toking... how irritating... i wished i had water soaker or something... then i can just shoot at whoever is toking... ok whatever... nuff about co... went to drum lesson... still can... teacher said that i was too quiet... AGAIN... what do you expect? the rest of the 6 people are all GIRLS... 1, i'm from a boy's school... dunno how to tok to girls... 2, THEY are from a girl's school (3 from st nicks and 2 from nanyang) except for 1 from presbytarian high (which i dunno whether it's mixed or what...) so how do you expect me to tok to them... i must be some despo sia... to approach them and tok to them... (in which case i'm not) ok anyway we played bon jovi's "it's my life" (we play the song on the hi-fi and play the drum set with the song...) wah song... too bad i wasn't using drum set... i was playing the drum PAD... which was just some rubber thingy made to represent the drum set... oh well... so in the end the girls continued to tok among themselves while i sit alone (except for some instances) man... how pathetic... oh ya, the teacher asked me that if i saw them on the street one day, would i say hello to them? then i said depends... and he started saying that i am very difficult to befriend... to even say hello also must have so many conditions... but that's becos i dun trust them that they will respond to me what... what if they dao me? i especially HATE people who dao lor... it's not as if i deserve it... if i deserve it then ok la... but then they dao me for no reason... make me look like a fool calling out to no one only... so i might as well not give you a chance to dao me... and just mind my own business... sigh... i have become like this becos of the countless people who dao-ed me last time... now it's becoming part of me to sort of dao people... oh well... happy dao-ing!

ok... so now i have said my worthless feelings which carry no value whatsoever... am i supposed to feel better now? do i? ok maybe... thanks anyway, CHINK...

ouchie...

2005-03-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

"KRAK!! Ow..."

i was playing soccer yesterday (as a matter of fact, everyday since monday... haha...) and i was playing bare-footed becos my shoes were ~~torn~~ ~~spoilt~~ ~~holey~~ torn... damn... that was the worst decision i ever made... as i was trapping the ball with my foot, the ball hit my toenail and cracked it, exposing the "meat" (only a little bit...) as my toenail cracked, it sounded like "KRAK!!" and i was like "ow..." and so i kicked the ball away... when i looked closer, it was actually bleeding... ouchie... oh well...

haha today clayton was acting damn spastic... lol... dancing around... too bad nobody took video of it... i already have video evidence of clayton's msg of what he will do if both vsco and rgco get gold... haha... i think ee huang must have sms-ed him saying that she will do the same thing to him or something... HAHA... that's why he so ~~happy~~ ~~spastic~~ hysterical... his inbox was like "ee huang ee huang ee huang ee huang ee huang" lor... lol... SHAME! ying kai's one also... everything also jing xuan... HAHA... tsk tsk tsk... haha this week is damn chaotic... start of the week still ok... then come the end ar... wah... maybe we are pushing ourselves too hard (like for example i go to school everyday at 7 plus in the morning) then now we are going crazy liao... haha...

anyway today had dazu in the hall... wah... wu lao shi go so fast... i dropped my timpani stick sia... walao... cock up sia... then xing kong the dagu part also i cocked up once... haha... must be not enough sleep ah...

ok... better go off now... dun wanna tok too much about co if not i will feel damn pissed... haha...

Syf list

2005-03-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

ok... i've got the order of the syf participants... some is not sure though... but all this is based on hong zhou's interpretation of lee eng keat's illegible hand-writing...

Day 1 Session 1
1) Chirst Church Secondary
2) Pasir Ris Secondary
3) North View Secondary
4) St. Anthony’s Canossian Convent
5) Fuchun Secondary
6) HongKah Secondary
7) East View Secondary
8) ACS Barker
9) Pasir Ris Crest Secondary
10) Nan Hua Secondary

Day 1 Session 2
11) Fuhua Secondary
12) Victoria School
13) Northland Secondary
14) Yu Ying Secondary
15) Temasek Secondary
16) Anglican High School
17) Marsiling Secondary
18) Coral Secondary
19) Shuqun Secondary

Day2 Session 1
20)
21) Raffles Institution
22) Teck Whye Secondary
23) Bukit Batok Secondary
24) Ngee Ann Sec Secondary
25) Nanyang Girls Secondary
26) Ahmad Ibrahim Secondary
27) Swiss Cottage Secondary
28) River Valley High School

Day2 Session 2
29) Chung Cheng High School (Yishun)
30) Boon Lay Secondary
31) Bukit Panjang Secondary
32) Manjusri Secondary
33) Bedok South Secondary School
34) Beatty Secondary
35) Maris Stella
36) Chung Cheng High School (Main)
37) Chua Chu Kang

Day 3 Session 1
38) MayFlower Sec
39) CHIJ Katong Convent
40) Catholic High School
41) Balestier Hill Secondary
42) St. Nichloas Girls School
43) Jurong Secondary
44) Si Ling Sec
45) Broadrick Sec
46) Hwa Chong Institution

Day 3 Session 2
47) Jurongville Secondary
48) Changkat Changi Secondary
49) Serangoon Secondary
51) Dunman High School
52) Raffles Girls School
53) Zhonghua Secondary
54) Holy Innocent’s High
55) Woodgrove Secondary

so actually day 2 is the worst... have ngee ann, nanyang girls, river valley... still got chung cheng high main and majusri... wah... 5 pro schools chasing for 3 golds...

Challenge!

2005-03-13T19:39:00.000+08:00

"I will **** ** ***** if both vs and rgs get gold for syf..."

Clayton

clayton, you betta keep your word...

anyway got back the report card on friday... here are the results...


Chinese               65.1  (DAMN surprising... i usually get 
                            MUCH lower than this...)
Combined Humanities   34.0  (yeah i suck...)
Additional Maths      73.0  (still ok i guess...)
Elementary Maths      100.0 (YEAH!!!)
Physics               66.3  (i usually get A2... this sucks 
                            man...)
Chemistry             72.6  (i usually get A1... sucks even 
                            more...)
Biology               76.0  (i usually get like B3 or B4... so 
                            this was extremely shocking...)

yeah yeah... my results suck... but obviously this is not a really accurate report of our studies... (seeing that i can get full marks for e. maths... haha...)

anyway gotta go eat dinner liao... bye...

SYF

2005-03-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

"It doesn't matter which co play first... what matters is which co plays the best... even if we win the gold among lousy schools, there is no honour... but if we win silver among schools like dunman high school, there is more honour becos we lost to such a good school..."

Lee Eng Keat

haha... that was lee crapping when he lied to us that we were playing on the same day as dunman high school... when he told hong zhou, ann siong, jian rong and i, we all started panicking... haha... then ann siong was saying that when we are performing our song if gillian was there she would go out and walk around for like 20 minutes then come back when we finish our song (since she so dao...) haha...

ok... my computer monitor just shut down while i was halfway typing... so i sian diao liao... i'm just gonna say that vs are performing on the 1st day of the syf central judging for co... i listed down the schools... (i think shld be correct... i have a feeling some schools are missing... oh well... i can't remember all, can i...)

Morning

1)Christchurch Secondary

2)Pasir Ris Secondary

3)North View Secondary

4)St Anthony's Canossian

5)Fu Chun (??? never hear be4... haha...)

Afternoon

6)Fu Hua

7)Victoria School

aiya... can't be bothered to fill in the rest... shall go now bah... wasted enuff time restarting the com...

broken drumstick

2005-03-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

"Vjc only hire quek ling qiong for a few weeks only... it's not permanent..."

yes ar... means that i dun have to think whether to go vjc or tjc (if it's possible) since quek ling qiong is only temporarily at vjc... hope i can get into tj! that's if i dun change my mind in the future... but i shouldn't... i still wanna continue my percussion days...

hai... broke another drumstick today... this time it was my junior's one... oops... he just bought it recently on saturday... haha... and i broke it just 3 days later... i was playing long teng for them and i was hitting the gu3 pian1 (the "piak" sound) and the front part of the stick went flying like 2 metres into the air... and i was just looking at the stick flying into the air and landing on the floor... haha... wah... this is like the 4th drumstick i broke in the space of like 30 days... first i broke the dark brown stick (the good quality one... i just whacked the side of the drum... and it broke...) second was the ultra-thick drumstick for dagu (i whacked the gu3 pian1 until a slice almost half the length and half the thickness of the drumstick broke off...) then it was the snare drumstick (it was really low-quality... those cheapo sticks... i was using the thicker side of the stick to whack the gu3 pian1 since other sticks are either being used or broken... and the part of the stick which was used to hit the drum cracked into half) and today... the stick that was bought 3 days ago... haha... i dunno whether to laugh or cry sia... am i supposed to be pro now? or am i just damn violent? i actually dun find anything wrong with what i'm doing... i'm playing it correctly... it must be the sticks' fault... come to think of it, i think daniel and i have broken the most number of sticks in 2 years... haha... i broke drumsticks while he broke timpani sticks and cracked the balls of the xylophone sticks... haha... i guess we two must find a pair of drumsticks worthy of our passion... haha...

spastic

2005-03-07T19:26:00.000+08:00

To Mr/Miss Spastic of the Century:

Fuck off. Get lost.

When you were born, instead of slapping your butt, the nurse slapped your mother's face. When your father saw you, he asked your mother why you had her long and ugly face. She replied, "Woof!".

Every night, your mother puts a mcdonald's paper bag over your head before she kisses you goodnight.

If your parents told you to be yourself, they couldn't have given you worse advice.

If my dog had a face like yours I would shave his ass and walk him backwards.

When you were born, even God admitted that He could make a mistake.

You are also an excellent living proof that shit can grow legs and walk.

I know that you won't be insulted, because with your intelligence you wouldn't be offended, and you can shut up for now... If I really wanted any shit out of you I would have just squeezed your head...

timpani?

2005-03-07T18:35:00.000+08:00

"A baby girl may be born with what looks like a scrotum and a penis... scientists have said that these people (happens in 1 out of 10,000 babies) usually grow to be very attractive and feminine..."

The Straits Times, 7th March 2005

eeyucks... i hope i dun meet one of them...

anyway i'm still quite bugged about the timpani scores... but what can i do? hai... hmm... i was thinking maybe i shld go to vjc next year so i can be under quek ling qiong since he's the conductor for vjc... or maybe i shld go to tjc... since daniel is there and their co is not bad too... hmm... see my results first la... all of them need such good results that i can't produce... haha... speaking of results, i'm screwed... my humanities is shit... i failed like some crap... ~~8.5/25 for the first one and 13/25 for the other one...~~ i'm screwed... i'm really screwed...

where's my timpani scores?

2005-03-06T19:29:00.000+08:00

"dun do what the experts tell you to do... do what they do..."

haiz... damn moody... i was really looking forward to getting the timpani scores for a song yesterday... but someone forgot to bring... (ouch... my heart...) you know, it's great to build up that kind of enthusiasm in someone and then just take it away... it's so great, it's sadistic... maybe i should try that on someone... anyway i then tried to watch the video to catch what the timpani was trying to play... which meant i had to see my horrid performance... again... and at the end of the day, i hardly had any idea of what the timpani was playing...

dhsco... too sian to talk abt it... but it was certainly very value for money... their jiao1 long2 xi3 wu3 was like, the best sia... i kena stunned like some shit...

oh well... goodbye for now... while i heal my broken heart... ok... maybe not... but i'm still damn sad...

New nike pants...

2005-03-02T18:57:00.000+08:00

"Haze? it's haze meh? i thought it was morning mist..."

if you didn't notice there was haze means that you are too low... and not like me on the 7th level...

hmm... went to ps yesterday... with handoko and wilson... reserved a t-shirt and bought a nike 3-quarters... t-shirt cost $13... 3-quarters cost $57... but becos handoko was a member so got discount... $49... they keep saying i damn rich... pls la... your 1 shirt cost how much? $70... with that money i can buy my 2 items and still got enuff money to eat the indonesian chicken... haha... anyway we left there just before 9 or something... and i reached home at 9.30pm plus... straight away used the computer to log on the vsco website to change my password in case someone hack... then slacked here and there...

sianz... tmr still got co prac... i should be paid like any other instructor lor... i never do anything except teach my juniors... i dun even practise... i want to practise also cannot... kaoz... some more juniors dun even give a damn about anything... i want them to practise together and they can just play their individual rubbish for the whole 3 hours and not learn anything at the end of it... i dun wanna teach them anymore la... they are wasting my time... they make mistake also dunno that they make mistake... see how narrow their mind is? they just dun care about other instruments and anyhow play... some more they have a serious lack of discipline... when i'm toking they just HAVE to play... cannot DUN play... knn sia... music is all about discipline, as what my drum teacher said... you are not disciplined, you can get lost... nvm... next monday the percussion teacher will come and i dun have to give a damn about those lower life-forms on monday... come to think of it, i'm doing more work than the percussion teacher (in teaching the juniors) and he's the one getting paid... oh well, let's just say he's being paid to relief the job for me... haha...

"Create your own entertainment"

2005-02-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

"Don't watch tv... it's not good... you should create your own entertainment..."

yes... it's "create your own entertainment"... not "create your own fantasy" as what wilson said... he must be fantasizing too much... haha... just joking...

anyway, sorry for the lack of posts... i was quite busy these few days... either that or my sis was using the computer so i couldn't use... or it was so late i had to sleep... or i was just plain lazy to switch on the pc...

anyway i shall start on saturday's ntuco concert... (yeah i'm skipping a lot but that is to keep my post ~~short~~ shorter...) first song they played was xi3 xun4... sounded damn guai lan... i dunno why... and the snare drum played cheat... he was supposed to play hou ban pai for like 16 bars but he cheated by playing 2 8th note on the first count of every 4 bars, then played hou ban pai... for those of you who dunno what i mean, you can ask me... however if you are a khaki shorts, pls dun bug me and get lost... then next song was some unknown song... never hear before... but it exposed the weakness of the gurl playing diao cha... her basics were sucky and she could not roll properly... much like my juniors... when she was using the cushioned side of the diao cha stick i could already spot her weakness... worse, at some part of the song, she had to use the other side of the stick to hit the diao cha, the part without the cushion... and it was SO obvious she couldn't roll properly as seen (or heard) by the uneven "ting ting ting ting ting ting..." sound... wah... tak boleh tahan sia... i think i'm better then her lor... haha... Ah, another thing... i recognized 1 percusionist (i think used to be from dunman high...) he was damn pro... i recognized him from the east zone school's co... he was in the year 2000 east zone... he's always playing either the ling zhou or timpani... haha, kinda like me... but i bet he'll thrash me... anyway they had some erhu solo... with piano ban zhou... the piano was like louder lor... and i was more interested in the piano than the erhu... haha... then they played gu3 yue4... not bad... i think i'm able to play that... then got some suona solo... wah... damn pro... i bet he can play zhan ma on suona... then jiang1 jun1 ling4... played the song before... but the one they played was totally different from what i played... then fei1 tian1... wah... simply love the first part... with the koudi and all that... funny thing was, the person playing the koudi was playing bangdi... hmm... shouldn't it be qudi? maybe nobody is pro enough bah... his ying1 zhun3 was perfect sia... walao... damn zai... then last song was chang2 cheng2 sui2 xiang3... to my surprise, the person who ~~sucked~~ played the diao cha for the previous song was playing paigu for this song!! walao... she cocked up like some shit sia... kept hitting the side... worse, at the end of the song where everybody is rolling, she was like rolling with her drumsticks moving in a 'V' shape and she was rolling with her arms instead of her wrist... walao... so un-chio... ok, that sums up that night besides the sucky kfc dinner where an indian woman with attitute problem was serving us rubbish...

oh ya, btw, i broke another drumstick (DAMN...) and you know how? by hitting the side of the drum... dotz... i didn't even use a lot of force or what... bloody hell... some more that was the GOOD drumstick... haiz... so now only got 1 good pair of drumsticks... i went to buy a pair though... from karl heng... kaoz... cost $20 sia!!! first time i ever paid for something i used for co... all my previous drumsticks i didn't pay a single cent... and also the guzheng 'nails' and tape... didn't pay any money... maybe the instructor thought that i was a good investment... haha... anyway a normal pair of drumsticks cost like only $8 to $12... but $20... wah... but nvm... i'm willing to pay the money for it... if this drumstick breaks the moment i use it, i dunno whether to laugh or cry...

okies... betta go now...

bible is suaning vegetarians...

2005-02-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

"He who is weak eats only vegetables"

Romans 14:2

haha... the bible is suan-ing the vegetarians...

arrrgghh.... dammit... got a damn bad sore throat and flu... all thanks to kenneth... say what allergy... anyhow... how i wish i can dun go to sch on monday... and tuesday... and for the rest of the week... but damn... cannot... it's ca week... haiz... first day already geog ca... i think i'm going to fail... haiz... had my drum lesson yesterday... and the person who was before my class was actually a friend of some ex-victorian... the two ex-victorians (they are twins) and some more other friends arranged to meet the guy learning drums before me to watch some movie... and becos i was wearing school uniform, they came to talk to me... blah blah... then they noticed a group of people waiting outside the class... and he asked me, "these people are in your class ar?" then he noticed something peculiar about the group of people there ... "eh? all girls ar? how come no guys?" haha... then i said ya, i was the only guy... actually there was 2 other guys... but 1 transferred to another lousier class (becos he was too lousy) and the other pontang class like free (also becos he was lousy) haha... then that ex-victorian's friend was like saying... actually more like shouting... "LUCKY SHIT!! some lucky shit sia!! WALAO!!!" wah... like who cannot here sia... i was like ok ok... not so loud... those girls can hear lor... haha... anyway didn't cock up much during the lesson... so still quite ok...

ok... better go now... byes...

blunder...

2005-02-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

"Ming, blunder......"

(btw "ming" is sort of a nickname for 1 of my friend who always blunders... haha...)

yay... had pe today... was hoping for soccer but no, we had floorball instead... still quite fun though (may not be fun for wilson but was fun for me...) my match ended 3-3 and i scored all 3 goals for my team... haha... yeah... actually i had like at least 15 chances lor... but i kept missing the goal... damn... but out of those 15 or more chances i managed to score 3... haha =p... i was dribbling all around but kept missing... everybody was marking me (must be becos i'm good... haha) everywhere i go i could hear someone from the other team say "ey, beware of darren..." wah... anyway my first goal was skill lor... i dribbled here there everywhere whatever until i was to the left of the goal... then i whacked the ball into the goal (missed the gk's face by like 20cm...) haha... second was a bit of luck invloved... i was defending and i cleared the ball, aiming my clearance at the gk in the process... and guess what, the gk blundered and missed the ball... haha... third goal was also skill... the ball was bouncing in front of the goal and the defender and i kept trying to hit the ball... he kept missing and i kept possesion of the ball (haha...) and so while it was bouncing, i sort of hit the ball upwards (it wasn't whacking) towards the goal and in it went... haha... anyway after that i decided to be gk for my own team becos i was damn tired (after running here and there)

haha... actually got quite a lot of stuff to say... like the china people in our chinese class... 1 thing to say though... they can read the passage aloud faster than i can read the words... haha... ok... better go... wanna go practise my piano... or keyboard...

15th Feb

2005-02-15T20:43:00.000+08:00

"I have a dream... a dream that singapore would be safe so that people can sleep soundly every night..."

yeah dream on, dude...

hmm... yesterday was valentine's day... haha... was just like any other day though... nothing special... then i read the straits times that the school supplied and found out that other schools were sort of doing it differently... they exchanged flowers and other stuff... and vs? doing nothing... oh well... then read that roses usually cost $25 during normal days... but on valentine's day, the price is doubled... wah... really know how to suck money sia... haha... and also 1 more thing... learned something about ann siong yesterday... actually he's quite poor thing... oh well...

today, however, was total defence day... damn sian... had various speeches by different people... 1 of them was the "i have a dream" one... a bit lame... but it wasted some of the social studies time, which was quite good... was slacking during the whole of school... was practically stoning during e.maths lesson... as she was toking i was playing with my calculator... i started at 0.000001 and kept on plus-ing 0.000001 until it reaches 0... at around 0.002189 or something i accidentally pressed the minus sign and the word "ERROR" came out... damn... by then i gave up liao... and so my brain remained dead until i reached the co room after school... the co room is like my second home... haha... i feel sort of secure in it...

oh ya... kenneth, you should stop suan-ing ann siong... he's damn poor thing... haha...

i hate spastic people, homosexuals and bisexuals...

2005-02-13T18:41:00.000+08:00

i hate spastic people... maybe becos they bug me the most... i also hate gays... possibly becos of my experience with them... this would mean i hate lesbians too... and of course bisexuals also... but what about my friends? are my friends turning into gays? or lesbians? i certainly hope not... maybe heaven doesn't want me to have a true friend who will be with me forever... that seems to be happening to me... do i really hate lesbians? or do i say i hate them becos i hate gays? is it becos of the fear that some day my gf would dump me for another girl? like what happened to someone i know? is it really hatred? or fear? 1 things' for sure... i'm not going anywhere near them... but somehow they just keep appearing out of nowhere... for instance, someone i know is obviously lacking huge amounts of testosterone in his body... do i feel fear? i dun think so... it's more like hatred... disgust... hatred... is it natural? that the world would have some people lacking in testosterone? but wouldn't that make them so-called "sissy" or "tomboyish"? not gay or lesbian... or is it becos they WANT to be gay or lesbian? i think that may be the only explanation... or that's what i would like to think...

well, so much for crap talk... if i had to pay a penny for every time i say "i hate gays", i would be stealing tissue paper from the one-dollar auntie and selling them for a profit...

bears cum first...

2005-02-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

"Which one cum first... chicken or egg?? the answer is bear cum first..."

wah... just now during my drum lesson i kena thrashed by 3 girls sia... 2 of them from katong convent and the other 1 from presbytarian high... they were from some other class which was ahead of mine and when the teacher asked them to play the rythmn they could play it so easily... then when i play i cocked up so many times... but anyway in the end i could still sort of catch up with them and managed to play correctly... haha...

actually got some stuff i wanna say about co today... but thinking of my juniors make me feel sian... so i shall end here instead... haha...

first day of cny...

2005-02-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

"Potest qui vult"

St Pat's School motto

"potest qui vult" actually means "when there's a will, there's a way"...

damn... just now typing halfway the computer suddenly hanged... nvm... i think i still can rmb some stuff...

anyway 2 days ago, went to visit my uncle (my mother's side)... collected ang pows... watched "kung-fu hustle" and "chronicles of riddick"... haha... kung-fu hustle was damn funny sia... haha... then ate steamboat... blah blah... then yesterday, went to visit my father's side of the family... btw, my parents gave me extra ang pows for my birthday... haha... anyway at my auntie's house, we ate roti prata with some chicken curry... then went back to my uncle's house (mother's side) and again watched movie... this time it was "breaking news"... haha... aiya... must make use of his 40-something-inch tv and his pile of dvd's mah... and damn... forgot to eat the shrak's fin they cooked... so wasted...

my chinese birthday is coming... haha... well, based on the chinese calendar, my birthday is this saturday... and for those of you wondering how i know this since the chinese calendar is so screwed, my chinese birthday is on the fourth day of chinese new year... haha...

CNY celebrations...

2005-02-08T16:11:00.000+08:00

"eh...? isn't that our people behind the curtains? SHIT!!!"

Teerapong

yesterday: had chinese new year rehearsal... skipped bio lab... dunno whether i should be happy or what... the emcee damn bastard... keep wasting our time... like always, we were all sitting in the hall waiting, toking cock to each other etc... the emcee wanted "more movement" from the guy acting as sun wukong... walao... i think he did like 6 times or something lor... kaoz... in the end the whole thing finished at 5 plus... went home, then went out again to take the vcr from the repair shop... 2nd time liao... every time they say it is fixed i go there and try and the image is like shit... and the same thing happened... i kept telling the ah-ma there that it is not fixed properly and she will say "fixed liao... fixed liao..." (of course not in such good language) walao... anyway on my way back i bought chicken chop for dinner... when i reached home, my sister was eating the fried wings or something from mcdonalds... she still had the chicken prosperity rubbish burger thingy but she couldn't finish, so i ate her burger... after which i ate my chicken chop... wa... damn full... when my mum came home she wanted to start cutting the cake to eat... and i said i dun want but my mum still insisted... and so they sang happy birthday song... blah blah... and cut the cake... but wait, IT'S NOT EVEN MY BIRTHDAY YET!!! walao eh... took 1 bite of the cake and went to sleep... then at 3am my mum woke up, switched on the light and began catching mosquitoes, waking me up in the process... all the way until around 3.30am plus... wa... i still got cny performance leh... no need sleep ar...

today: performed for st pats... before us was actually some lion dance thingy... halfway when the "lion" was supposed to "stand up" and when 1 of them was on the other's shoulder, the bottom person suddenly collapsed or something... sending the guy on his shoulders tumbling down to the ground... ouch... anyway the st pats performance was quite normal... nothing much to say... then back at vs... performance also can la... but ann siong, teerapong and i nearly missed the performance!!! haha... but also nvm, they can't start without me and ann siong... anyway we were waiting in the co room, lights and air-con all off, everything checked and ready to go, waiting just for the key-bearer to come up and lock the door... and so we waited and waited... finally teerapong went to get the key from wilson and we locked the door... and while we were walking to the backstage, we were laughing at jefferey chia for his costume... (btw, the curtains were closed) we were at the side of the hall, upstairs laughing when the wind blew the curtains to sort of uncover what was behind... IT WAS CO!!!! OMG!!! we were like oh shit and running to the stage... ann siong still had to move his yang qin... and i had to thank my juniors for helping me move my xiao gu... and like 1 minute after ann siong arranged his yang qin and all that, the curtains opened and we were performing already... haha... scary sia... anyway after that i went back to pri sch to meet my ri friend (who's quite biased against rgs... lol...) and blah blah... none of my teachers recognized me... dunno whether to be relieved or sad... then we ate lunch... blah blah... anyway on my way home on the bus, i missed my stop again!! i was like dreaming... i think that was my 3rd time in 4 weeks or something like that... haha...

ok... better go now... have to prepare to go my uncle's house for cny celebrations...

silence kills...

2005-02-05T18:31:00.000+08:00

"The phrase 'Silence is golden' does not work anymore... silence kills you..."

Setho Sing Fee

had my drum lesson yesterday... it was damn fun... didn't noe what happened to all the guys in the class though... i was the only guy there... and also the oldest... rest were girls... 3 katong convent, 2 nanyang girls and the last one i dun know... actually only had 1 kc girl but i dun noe what happened... suddenly 2 kc girls from another class joined us... (or joined their friend) the good thing about having no guys was that the class was going damn fast... (the guys in my class all suck like hell... except me... really...) and some more the 2 girls from the other class learned what we were currently learning before... so they were like damn pro... scareded sia... anyway we were going so fast... i almost could not catch up... (keyword: almost... i still did anyway) we played 1 rythmn after another (some were damn cool...) had to sight-read the scores... then seeing that we looked so tired, he let us play some songs... YEAH... we played 'you're my angel' by shaggy (not sure of the title... but i noe it's something angel...) and some other song which i dun noe the title... anyway he turned up the volume of the hi-fi to almost the max and told us to "play what we feel". and so we did... DAMN FUN... i was practically bashing the drum set... then for the bass drum the foot pedal normally we would just step on it (as in the foot is on the pedal and we step on the pedal while your heel stays on the ground...) but during the song i was actually stomping on the pedal... haha violent sia... the after the song i looked at the bass drum skin and saw that there was a dent at the part where it was hit... oops haha...

i dun really wanna tok about today's dazu... but i shall just say a little bit... we are playing 3 songs for both the vs and st pats (short for sanitary pads) performances... ying2 chun1 jie1 fu2, xiao3 bai4 nian2 and xing1 nian2 ge1 da4 jia1 chang4... and as always the cny songs are damn lame... but what to do... haiz... at least my juniors can play the cny songs properly... their skills are a bit like crap... a bit only arh... if you compare the skills of the 5 of my juniors combined and the skills of daniel and me combined, i think we are still better lor... wah... best was still sec 2... haiz... can't stop reminiscing... still can remember... the 2 of us... can play whatever songs we got... we 2 could cope with whatever songs we had lor... then for some perfomance the 2 of us played 5 instruments for 2 songs... song bo... i was playing dagu, paigu and snare drum... daniel was playing timpani and xylophone... we were damn zai sia... but now... my juniors can't even get the pai1 zi3 right... kaoz... then some more they out of 10 times can only play correctly 6 times... that is rubbish lor... haiz... sometimes i think i'm pampering them too much... like today daryl cocked up (again!! no surprise...) and he was looked at me and said "are you angry with me?" and i was like "what you want me to do? kiss your hand is it?" knn sia... you make mistake you think of why you made that mistake and try to find a way not to make that same mistake again... and not look at your senior and ask him for forgiveness, losing your concentration in the process... and did i say i hate spastic people? yes i did, in previous blogs... every time i make mistake i will think of why i made that mistake (and sometimes creating excuses...) but the main thing is to make sure that i dun repeat that mistake... my juniors never fail to repeat their mistakes over and over again... and they must keep talking and talking during dazu... wah... i am sick of telling them to just shut up... so SHUT UP!!!

goodbye forever now...

2005-02-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

"Goodbye forever now... you have gone sooner than you should have... you were passed down to me from your original owner-- my teacher-- who thought i had the potential to do great things... well, he thought right... he left a mark on you-- his initials-- and the year in which he got you: '99... but no sooner than 1 year later, he passed you down to me... you accompanied me for consecutive years in the east zone schools chinese orchestra concert 2000 and 2001 (which was the reason i got you from him...) and have done me proud... you have suffered splinters and cracks all over, but still carried on... it wasn't your time yet, but you have gone prematurely... if there is anyone to blame, it should be me, for my carelessness have led to your situation now... maybe i wasn't far-sighted enough; i just couldn't anticipate what was coming... i thought it was fine for you to lie there harmlessly on the xylophone, but alas, a bump on the xylophone over the gap at the elevator has caused your untimely disappearance... maybe my reflexes were too slow, for if i had reacted faster, i could have caught you on your first bounce, or maybe your second bounce, but by your third bounce, it was too late... you were already unknowingly rolling into the deep unknowns of the elevator shaft... Goodbye forever now... I will remember you always..."

i lost my one of my drumstick today... my primary sch co teacher gave me that drumstick becos i needed a heavier and bigger drumstick for the east zone schools chinese orchestra concert... quek ling qiong personally asked me to get a bigger one so i could play louder... and so i told my teacher and he gave me his drumstick... thus i used it for that concert and also the east zone concert the following year... the stick was so well-used until the thickness became 3/4 the original thickness... but now, it's gone forever... sigh...

today something else happened... a liuqin got squashed under my junior's weight (haiz... percussion again...) well, actually this was what happened: two people were sitting down... for no reason 1 guy pushed the other... and the other lost his balance and his hands landed on the liuqin... and straight away the liuqin broke... aiya, anyway i'm sure other people will blog about this... i'm too distracted thinking of my lost drumstick... well, at least i took 1 last pic of it (with my other drumsticks...)

what happened today...

2005-02-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

"hmm... 166cm..."

Ho Kiat Chong

damn... am i short or am i short... i have realised that the current vsco committee is very short... the tallest is who? clayton... and he's only like what, 170+ ? the last batch of comm mostly had so many tall people... ok, let me rephrase... the last batch of sec 4's (the whole level) consists mainly of tall people... and we are like so short...

anyway, the only memorable lesson today was pe (like always...) we first took our height and weight... and i was 166cm... and that's totally short... and for my weight... well... i'll let you know that i gained 3kg in 1 month... haha... which of course is good for me... then we played soccer... blah blah... wilson left the game to play in another match just becos the other team was too lousy... WALAO!! proud lar... anyway i didn't do too bad... missed a few clear-cut chances... oops... then johnathan got whacked in the face by the ball... ouchie!!

then back in the co room i tried to play yang qin for zhan ma... realised that i suck so much... i can't even roll properly and my left hand is totally spastic... haiz... my wrist like got some problem... in percussion we use like 60% wrist, 40% arm... but yang qin is like 90% wrist and 10% arm... wah... not used to it... i suck too much liao...

gtg liao... go watch charmed... hehe...

rush rush...

2005-02-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

"Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soi..."

Lorraine Tham

the above is actually taken from moulin rouge movie... the song... it's actually in french and it has a very interesting meaning... it actually means "would you like to sleep with me tonight"... haha... i think lorraine tham learns french or something... she said that phrase as fast as i could say the numbers 1 to 10... as if she's been repeating that phrase for like 10 years or something...

stayed back for a few hours to sort of practise some songs... then realised that i really suck in percussion.... haiz... i still remember when i was in sec 2... my golden year... that was my best year... now i'm like so sucky... haiz...

anyway, we received our chinese test on sec 1 syllabus today... and guess what? i got 33.5 out of 50!!! haha... ya i know... it sucks... but considering that i didn't do the zao4 ju4 that's worth 15 marks, it's quite good liao... haha...

sigh... dying in sch sia...

2005-01-31T19:08:00.000+08:00

"And you... Got hot date later ar...? Why your hair so special...?"

Tan Yin Leng

sigh... dying in sch sia... reach sch at almost 6.45am... chiong-ing geog hw... had assembly and some rubbish about the sec 3 camp thingy... almost brain-dead during that period of time... haha...

0815-0925 --- geog lesson... went through the geog worksheet... there were 2... and she went through the one i didn't do... ARGHH!!! showed us the model answer... and i was quite openly copying her answer... (although i wasn't... i was just getting the points and rephrasing the answer...) then she called a register number to present his answer... i was damn scared... seriously... i would hate it if she were to call my number and i had to say "er... i didn't do..." but anyway lennard and evan also didn't do... and we are all sitting quite in front... then she called out "twenty............ two!" and lennard (who was number 23) was sort of exclaiming a sigh of relief (if there's such a thing) and he went something like "errrrgghhh......!!!" lol... damn funny sia... anyway so during this time i was sort of dying...

0925-1000 --- break... yippee... went to co room... slacked around... practised my paigu medley (haha... ok, i just created that...) which was 3 songs which had paigu solos joined together... then concentrated on wu3 shi1 since i just can't play that solo... dun really noe why... last time can play but now... haiz... must be losing form... keep hitting the side, creating the "tak" or "tik" sound, which is quite irritating to me...

1000-1110 --- chem lesson... went through the chem worksheet... the one which i eased through during the break... damn simple... but in the end got 2 wrong... haha... i must be too complacent... did the chem workbook... stuff on electrodes and whatever... quite simple lar...

1110-1220 --- eng lesson... lorraine tham came in today, with her hair untied and her pants sweeping the floor... haha... all her pants seem to be covering 3/4 of her shoe... haha... always sweeping the floor... anyway she was appalled at our sucky comprehension skills since our first comprehension we passed up to her was badly done... 23 people out of 41 failed... i got 10/25... my english suck... my languages suck... i suck... anyway that mark was not surprising... my comprehension has always been lousy... thanks to some dedicated teachers like ee poh lam, kan beo lan and joycelyn de souza...

1220-0115 --- lunchtime... ate lunch... slacked around...

0115-0240 --- tan yin leng came in... said my hair was so "special"... what RUBBISH! somemore say what got hot date ar? must make until so nice... puh-lease... my hair was so dry and it was so messy... like i will meet my hot date like that... as if i have a hot date in the first place... some cock... then ask me to go and comb it back... -_-" pls la... i dun even use comb lor... i use my hands look even nicer... my comb is like inactive since i was sec 2 lor... when i had center parting...

0240-1550 --- bio practical... had to draw tomato, lime, banana and cucumber... the realised i was lagging like shit... people finished drawing like 4 diagrams i'm only drawing my 2nd diagram... haha... whole lesson chiong-ing through the questions...

after that... go home!!! yay... finally... still got physics workbook to do... hmm... quite simple la... all those electricity rubbishes...

whee...

2005-01-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

"Music is all about discipline. If you don't have discipline, you better don't play music."

James Chan

haiz... 3 days never use com... sianz...

friday: co prac... yadda yadda... taught lance long teng... the paigu solo part... damn easy... but i dunno whether he is spastic or what, cannot play correctly... i took 5 minutes to master the paigu solo part and he can't even play properly after 1 hour... then went for my drumming course... just found out that i was the oldest there o.0 ... then played some mini-tunes... nothing difficult... ate the beef prosperity rubbish and twister fries for dinner... quite nice though... oh ya, if you are wondering who is james chan, he is my drum teacher... he's some strict guy who hates teaching lousy people... kinda like me... haha... and 1 more thing... i broke my drumsticks during co!! boo hoo... the stick is like half the thickness it was before... now can't even use it anymore... i included the pic below...

saturday: wanted to wake up at 6am and leave the house at 6.30 (although co starts at 9) but overslept until 7.30... wah... then took taxi to school... haha... reached sch at 8 plus... wah... damn a lot of people reach liao... anyway had dazu... painstakingly brought out the timpani and paigu... in the end we didn't use the paigu at all... grrrr... asked daryl to use the giant drumstick to play da gu... wah, fierce... damn loud, damn nice... told him to continue using that stick... i also went to use that giant stick to play the da gu during xing kong... wah song... then played the cny songs... damn lame and simple... although jason keep cocking up the xiao cha for xiao3 bai4 nian2... damn idiotic... hahaz, sorry... then after co, i went to play soccer with the rest of the people... not bad, the weather was quite cooling... no sun... anyway scored 2 goals (skill ok... not taiko...) but somebody went to kick my shin and now there is a small gash in my shin... ouch...

today: woke up at 12 noon plus... ate lunch... watched some tv... began painting the cornices of my living room... wah... had to crank my neck for like 3 hours... painful sia... after finishing the paint job i went to transfer my old stuff to my new wardrobe and sort of finished at around 7 plus... slacked around... still got sch tmr... wah sian...

my broken drumstick... boo hoo...

my 5 pairs of drumsticks... =) haha... cool huh...

short and quick...

2005-01-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

"Is it me or is there something wrong with my tagboard?"

ok... i shall make this short and quick...

well... the most interesting that happened today was the chinese revision test... we had a test on our sec 1 syllabus... so everyone was mugging and i hardly finished studying the whole thing... then guess what, during the chinese class i was studying the paper of the sec 1 syllabus and AS i was studying, she gave the test paper... WOOT... and it was so obvious i was holding the sec 1 syllabus paper and she gave out the test paper... wah seh... so i looked for the word in the paper (it was tian2 xie3 han4 zi4 or something...) that the question was asking... and so i practically did all the questions since all the answers could be found on the piece of paper i had... LOL... then back in the orirginal class everybody was like "wah... i left *this* and *that* blank... walao... die la..." and i told them about what happened to me and they were like "WALAO!! bloody hell!!" HAHA... fun sia...

better sign off for now... bb...

aiyo...

2005-01-26T20:41:00.000+08:00

"I want to go home......"

arrgghhh.... felt like dying in school... by 7 plus or something i already felt like going home... haha... the WHOLE day was DAMN sian... walao... was actually looking forward to pe... but before that we had bio, so everybody was like half asleep, including me... then pe, wah... can die sia... imagine sleeping for some time and suddenly doing strenous exercises... wah... somemore at that time the sun was out and it was damn HOT!! so we had 1 hour of soccer in the HOT sun... bloody hell sia... then after that we had to go back to the bio lab to continue drawing the angsana, tecoma and whatever rubbish...

still have jian3 bao4 to do... damn, told the teacher that i would pass up to her tomorrow... DAMN! still got chinese test tomorrow... ARRGGHHH.... chinese sux...

sahel sucks

2005-01-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

Is giving Sahel foreign aid good for the environment?

Sahel is hit by famines and droughts frequently. There is a amazingly high death toll in Sahel due to starvation and diseases. Moreover, they are on the brink of desertification and if they are swallowed up by the deserts, there would be adverse effects on the nearby countries. They also have a lack of technology and do not have the abilities and supplies to cure their diseases and solve the starvation problem. With foreign aid, they would be supplied with food and medical supplies and the death toll would be reduced. This may sound like a good thing. But is it? By reducing the death toll, we are actually increasing their population. This increase in population would lead to overcultivation and overgrazing. Overcultivation and overgrazing also causes desertification as it leaves the topsoil exposed. This topsoil could be blown away by strong winds, thereby causing the land to be barren. The barren land will turn into deserts, and again, if Sahel is turned into a desert, the surrounding countries would be affected too.

Note: I would suggest we drop a nuclear bomb in Africa and sink the whole continent. The world would be much happier without blacks and we do not have to bother about the environmental issues they are facing.

haiz... today had geog lesson... walao... it's damn torturing sia... we had to listen to groups presenting their mindmaps about various issues of environmental degradation... blah blah... and i was suffering having to sit there and listening to their yabbering... felt damn sian... wanted to go home... it felt like during the later parts of the rg exchange programme... i was feeling damn down and i wanted to go home... but i still endured through though...

anyway while wilson, kenneth and i were walking across the aerobridge in school, he was playing with his geog worksheet and the wind blew it off his hands...(mind you, we are at 7th level... so it's damn bloody windy...) haha... panic sia... fortunately the paper was caught by the railing thingy and was sort of lying on the edge... whew! then i felt a draft on the back of my neck... uh oh... i reached for the worksheet...... but was too late... that same draft blew the paper off the edge and it went flying from the 7th floor all the way down... it stayed airborne for like about 1 minute though... as the wind was keeping it in the air... haha... so the 3 of us were standing there watching the paper flying here and there until it disappeared behind the opposite building... haha... anyway we were on our way to our chinese classes when that happened so wilson went all the way down to look for his paper while i slacked in class...

i shall end off now... (dun wanna make the post too long... if not nobody would read...) and also i want to sleep as early as possible...

$1 song

2005-01-24T18:37:00.000+08:00

"one dollar... one dollar... hello, one dollar! uncle, auntie, xiao3 jie3 bang1 wo3 mai3 tissue paper hao3... ma1...? one dollar... one dollar... hello, one dollar! uncle, auntie, xiao3 jie3 bang1 wo3 yi4 xia4 hao3... ma1...?"

the one dollar song by the auntie who sells tissue paper

btw, those who really want to hear the one dollar song pls find me on msn, i send you the song...

CHENGSAN CONCERT!!!
not really the best of all concerts, though... kenneth was sleeping the whole time and was only awake during tony ang's solo... lolx... ok... let me start from the beginning...

i reached raffles mrt at 3.40pm... hmm... only a few people there... i was a bit hungry so i went out in search of some snacks to eat... i was actually thinking of getting something like twisties or whatever potato chips to eat but then i realised that there was no such shop... then i saw mcdonalds so i went in to buy a sundae... when i reached the mrt station, wow... suddenly got damn a lot of people (both vs and rg) then ching kai asked me where i bought the sundae from, so i led him to the mcdonalds that i just came out of and he said he didn't bring any money... -_-" anyway, he went to redeem a fish burger (which didn't require money) and so my wallet was saved and we made our way back... when i reached the mrt station (again!) there were more people and yu ching was there... it was like already 4.15 or so so hongzhou told them to head to vch first... after like 5 minutes he was sick of waiting and decided to head to the vch... i told him to wait some more... if not, at least go to the other side to see whether there's anybody waiting at the other end... and so we did... ~~yu ching then waved to me and i waved back and hongzhou was like... "ah...?"~~ when we were at the other end (actually it's like only 10m away...) xiong an then popped up behind us... then as we were about to go back to where we came from, kenny appeared, followed by the sec 2 pipa guy... haha, i saved 3 guys from being pang seh-ed by hz... shld thank me sia...

at vch, there was one big group of vs (and rg) people waiting outside... just becos they haven't open the doors... so everybody was waiting outside, talking cock... anyway i saw a lot of vs people wearing sandals, shorts and whatever not... (when we specifically told them to wear long pants and shoes...) walao... but anyway the girls could wear mini-skirts and slippers so i didn't really cared... after that i saw jing xuan (wearing the same clothes as what teck chuan described in his blog when he went to some other concert and saw her... lolx... pink top with jeans mini-skirt... haha... no offence...) anyway, i saw her going up the stairs to the concert hall and after around 5 minutes, she didn't come down so i told everybody to start going up...

ok... now to the concert... when they played the first song, kenneth was already falling asleep... lolx... he was using the booklet to cover his face and complaining that the light was so bright... haha... i kept saying that he paid $10 to sleep in air-con room and he just replied that he's damn sleepy... haha... and he wasn't joking... he was really sleeping through the songs... oh ya, except for 1 part where the da4 cha3 played... the "CHAAA!!" sound really shocked kenneth sia... he kena scare-ded and was cursing here and there... haha... he was only awake during tony ang's solo... then after that, went back to sleep again... haha...

anyway after the concert we went to eat at marina bay... (some guy actually wanted to go to lau pat sat to eat but it's damn far lor... so we decided to go to marina bay instead...) at marina bay foodcourt, we realised that the rg people went to suntec to eat and everybody was like walao... then ann siong and yong jian tried to pang seh us by saying they go toilet but actually they wanted to go to suntec (tsk tsk tsk!!) haha, but their plan failed becos we caught up with them...

hmm... so that summarises what happened yesterday... i dun think i'll write about today since it'll be damn long...

juniors are damn proz... when pigs fly

2005-01-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

"I've never seen triangle cock up before... You are the first..."
Darren

wah... slept at almost 2am last night (or this morning?)... i forgot that i had to go to school for co practice!! i only realized at around 1am plus that i have to wake up early to go to school... then ying kai sms me telling me to come to co room at 7am... so i woke up at 6.15am and left the house at 6.45am (aiya... a bit late nvm one la...) when i reached there the co room wasn't even open -_-"... and only at 7.30am did the bastard ying kai finally come... "come to co room at 7... play tong deng"... what RUBBISH!!! damn tired sia...

anyway during dazu my juniors didn't fail to cock up in every part they played... haiz... dunno whether to laugh or cry sia...

when i reached home my mother asked me whether i wanted to take a nap or paint the walls... so i chose to paint the walls... so now my living room is green!! quite tiring actually... but at least i'm getting paid by my mum... $100 for painting the 3 bedrooms and 1 living room... some more my mum and sis are also helping...

haiz... tmr still got chengsan concert...

double happiness...

2005-01-21T19:20:00.000+08:00

aquarius

Aquarians are free spirits whose most likeable trait is their friendliness. They are champions of humanitarian causes and are generous in all their relationships. They tend to have fixed ideas and will try to impose them on others though. They are also prone to bouts of melancholy.

hmmx... i just realised my birthday is on chinese new year day itself... double happiness!! haha... dun think anyone will care though... nobody has ever cared... haiz...

anyway, woke up today at 2pm... wanted to watch the vcd of the east zone schools chinese orchestra concert 2000 (i was inside...) but then my tv a bit the spoilt... cannot play video channel... walao... damn wasted... got damn a lot of nice songs inside lor... got tong3 deng1 wu2 qu3, jun4 ma3 ben1 chi2, xu4 re4 dong1 shen1 (that's the name of the concert... i dunno whether the hanyu pinyin is correct though... my chinese suck) and many other da zu songs... then i tried playing on the computer... also cannot!! the file format is .vcd lor... never hear before one... bloody hell... so wasted...

after that i slacked around... until my mum ask me to patch my room (becos the walls have a lot of holes) so i went to patch my room, filling the holes with some clay-cement thingy... (it's in powder form... then you add water to make it sticky like paste... and u use a knife to apply the paste on the wall, spreading it out...) damn... i broke 2 of the plastic knives i used and in the end i decided to use a fork instead... haha... it's more difficult... but at least i wun break it...

yay... tmr got dazu... it's my only way of practising... having sectionals is kinda redundant for percussion since there is no melody to play (unless they suck so much they have to practise playing a simple tune which consists of hitting and resting...) come to think of it... actually my juniors are kinda sucky... it takes like 2-3 practices for them to be able to play some simple song... haiyo... anyway at least they are getting better and pro-er... hope i can pass everything that i know to them before i leave... i was actually thinking of giving all my scores to them so that they know practically every song that vsco has played... but the thing is, they are taking damn long just to practise that 1 new song! for example, long teng hu yue... they can't even play the first part after like what, 2-3 practices? harlo, still got like 4 more parts leh... at this rate, they would only be able to play long teng after i leave sia... i still want to teach them fen yong qian jing lor... since the percussion part damn zai... haiz...

titles sux

2005-01-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

"Darren is the stupid chairman of vsco lah...... "

jinchieh

hi, want me to punch your face?

apart from some assholic bastard saying that jx and i are despos... i'm (or was) generally in a good mood... yippee... the spastic (ok lar... not spastic...) guy that i had to be tormented with the last time have officially moved to yang qin... yay!! so now i'm left with the max guy... hmmm... not bad... got potential... so now my juniors are sort of bugging me to teach them long teng after seeing me play ling zhou (and screwing up) for exchange... sigh... after teaching them my finger almost kena blister again (over my previous wound... which still has a scar there...) walao...

haiz... despo this... despo that... DIE, BUSTER!!!

2005-01-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

part 2 (if you are reading this first, pls read below for part 1)

saturday: had dazu in the morning... yadda yadda... typical dazu... nothing much to say...

sunday: TIGER CUP FINAL!!! actually i did not get any tickets becos i was too late... but xu guang gave me his which meant i could go watch the match with the other victorians... whee... thx xuguang!! anyway, the atmosphere in the stadium was great... we went in at 6.30pm, 1 hour before the kick-off and already the side facing the grandstand was filled up, so we went to the corner to sit... our side was actually quite empty when we went there, but at kick-off time, the whole stadium was packed with red t-shirts... like i said the atmosphere was great and i had so much fun cheering (or boo-ing)... anyway, when indra sahdan scored the first goal, the whole stadium roared... fun siah... then when agu casmir scored the second goal the whole stadium roared again... and every time the referee gave a foul to singapore the crowd will go "BOO!!!" and the malay guy behind me will start "REFEREE KAYU... REFEREE KAYU..." and the whole stand would shout "REFEREE KAYU..." lol...

so singapore won (yay!!) and there was the prize presentation... first was the top goalscorer award, which some indonesian player got... everybody clapped... then lionel lewis got the mvp (most valueble player) award, which in my opinion was well deserved, and everybody clapped even harder... cheering for our own player... then came myanmar, who got the 4th place... everybody boo-ed damn loudly... lolx... the whole stadium was like "BOO.....!!!" then came the referees... "BOO.....!!!" hahaha... the malaysia for 3rd place... "clap clap clap..." then indonesia for 2nd place... "clap clap clap..." then singapore... wow... the whole stadium erupted with claps and shouts and basically everybody was making noise... wow... fun sia... and so after the match we hanged around to eat and by the time i reached home, it was 11.45pm... in the end i slept at 12 midnight...

2005-01-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

i hate spastic people

haiz... almost 6 days since i last used the computer... kena sabo-ed... pls lor... i dun even have time to use the computer... as if i will tag all that rubbish... it must be some spastic khaki shorts-wearer that is fuking this thing up... you will seriously die when i find out who you are... mark my words...

anywayz... i shall divide this into 2 parts and skip what happened on thursday and go to friday (since it's so long ago and quite boring...)

part 1

friday: sec 1's came for their first co practice... after the selection of instruments, they went to their respective instruments to get used to stuff... and so i got a guy called max and another called yi quan or something... mind you that all this was during the resiliency course... so i sort of missed part of it... and so i asked them to practise the basic hitting of the drum... the main aim was to make them practise for 2 or 3 hours straight (it's just hitting the drum...) and so i went to the resiliency course and when i came back, i could see that max was practising as he could hit the drum correctly but the bloody spastic yi quan, or whatever his name is, is still using his arm to hit the drum (supposed to use the wrist...) obviously he has been slacking the whole time... and so i told him to continue practising and he was looking at me in a daze... and said, "eh? you are the one that were here just now right? heehee... no wonder you look so familiar..." in those kind of retarded voice... not only that, i kept telling him to use his wrist and he still uses his arm... and every time i demonstrate to him how to hit, he would spastically put the drumstick on the drum and be amazed at how the drumstick bounces on the drumskin... "wah... the stick bounce so high... hee hee..." showing me his teeth that is the colour opposite his that of his mouth... of course, i kept my seriousness and told him to practise his basics... and since max was progressing well, i decided to focus on him... until mr spastic stopped practising after 2 minutes... and he just stood there and smiled...

scene 1
me: WHO ASK YOU TO STOP??!! (shouting aggressively)
spastic:(smiling wryly) hee... can i stop?
me: NO...!
spastic:(continues to practise)

after another 2 minutes, same thing happens...

scene 2
me: OUI!! NOBODY ASK YOU TO STOP RIGHT??!!! (now irritated, shouting with more aggression)
spastic: (smiling spastically... then continues to practise...)

after another 2 minutes...

scene 3
me: OUI!! WHO ASK YOU TO STOP??!! CONTINUE PRACTISING!!! (now damn pissed...)
spastic: (smiling like a bloody retard) hee... eh, you know ah... i haven't really chosen percussion yet you know... (in a high-pitched voice... typical in most spastic people...)
me: then which instrument you want to go?
spastic: i want to go to dizi... or sheng...
me: do you know that they dun want you? dizi they got enough already... and sheng they only need 1 new person... and they got it... so you got no choice but to come to percussion...
spastic: orh...

unless he goes to another instrument, i can assure him that he will screwed by me if he continues to act like this... i hate spastic people and they aren't worth my attention...

anyway, i left the school at 6pm and was late for like 5 minutes for my drumming course... but didn't really matter actually... the stuff that they were practising were all so simple... some more i learn before...

Resiliency course

2005-01-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

today quite a boring day... mr tay came to relief wong li meng again... and he taught us a.maths... wilson couldn't stop laughing becos of his voice... damn bad sia... "ter formoolar ees ei axe ann eekuers tu ei ann axe tu ter parwer awf ann mai-ners wang... ohkei... meesers wawng wan yoo orh tu du eksersai wang bee..." huh? what did you say? nvm... anyway we had to do some questions from the textbook and i was faster than kenneth even tho he learn in tuition before!!! wow... but anyway i still wouldn't do well in exams... i always dun... (according to the resiliency course i am now going from an adversity to the consequence and skipping the beliefs part... for the rest of you who dun understand... it just means i am jumping to conclusions... yadda yadda... resiliency course is rubbish...)

we also had english... where we did letter-writing... we had to copy the question (it was 1 page long) and the teacher said it was only 20 words -_-"... so anyway i took almost half the lesson to copy the question, then i cheong the letter for the remaining 30-40 minutes... (we had to pass up by the end of lesson) and so yadda yadda yadda... slacked in chinese lesson as usual... yadda yadda yadda...

resiliency course... learn something new... that there are a lot of rich people in singapore who can afford to buy cars as if they were toys... didn't learn any other thing except that... quite a waste of my time... still having this course for tomorrow and friday... i rather go co lor... sianz sia... oh ya... forgot to say, i learn another thing during the resiliency course... and that is how to draw a chicken (learn from kenneth... how lame...) and it really looks very funny... lol...

actually i wanted to add gillian to my link of friends but her blog was last updated like dunno how long ago? i think better not... i think better play safe... i think she hates me... i think she wants to kill me... i think too much...

hmm... i think i shall go drink my milk milk and sleep...

wadeva...

2005-01-11T18:37:00.000+08:00

wow... i noticed that my previous blogs all so long... haha... sorry... everything is compressed into 1 post... haiz... quite boring now... just now i asked ann siong for my long teng shit pu3... i want to do something to it... haha... not anything harmful or whatever... it's just for the benefit of my juniors... haha... see, i so good... but i shan't say anything (at least not a lot) until i finish what i plan to do...

yay... today is another free day... no hw (or none that i plan to do) so i am sort of free to do what i like... yay... (although i dun really know what to do now...)

sigh... tomorrow is the start of the resiliency training rubbish... walao... skip pe sia... sianz sia... hmmx... shall go watch tv liao...

Rey de la percusión

Don't Give Up

new time

downhill...

If you had x-ray vision...

damn late sia

everyday

pain...?

potential relationships can ruin friendships

is the building moving?

pon sch?

man who sold the world

how can i win?

this world?

that's when i love you

i'm 18 liao

Emotional punching bag

You are the special one

obviously

new year....

bored...

why do birds suddenly appear every time you are near?

Noisy shit...

Revived... for the time being

Leaving on a jet plane

Arrrgghhhh!!!

Dunno?

JC Admission

Finally

??

Concert Aftermath

So long...

krak!

no cure

Too much chinese

John Nash

Schitzo?

i'm good!

Perfect 10 98.7!

Teen creed

highest? ooh...

In the mood for LURVE

*he* is screwed

Heh?

wadeva...

Bastard...

bloody dao

??

can't get it out of my head!!

SYF Aftermath

GOLD

luo is screwed

co co co

kena screwed...

VSCB

Socks? hp?

VS Choir

April's Fool

??

打击乐曲集

co again...

dear dr math

ok...

ohwells

ouchie...

Syf list

Challenge!

SYF

broken drumstick

spastic

timpani?

where's my timpani scores?

New nike pants...

"Create your own entertainment"

bible is suaning vegetarians...

blunder...

15th Feb

i hate spastic people, homosexuals and bisexuals...

bears cum first...

first day of cny...

he is screwed